"Brother My Brother" ~ Blessid Union of Souls
'Brother My Brother
Tell me what are we fighting for
We've got to end this war
We should love one another
Oh can't we just pretend
This war never began?
We can try, brother my brother
We face each other from different sides
The anger burns can't remember why
It's kind of crazy to cause such pain
Our foolish pride makes us hate this way
We watch our world fall apart
Tell me what good is winning
When we loose our heart?
Brother My Brother
Tell me what are we fighting for
Isn't life worth so much more?
We should love one another
Oh can't we just pretend
This war never began?
Tell me why, brother my brother
We can try, brother my brother
Let's take a moment and look deep inside
And say we're willing to give love a try!
Where not as different as we seem to be
It's so much more to me then what you see
Don't have to be this way!
Think about the consequences
Turn around and walk away!
Brother My Brother
Tell me what are we fighting for
Isn't life worth so much more?
We should love one another
Oh can't we just pretend
This war never began?
Tell me why, brother my brother
Tell me why!
Brother My Brother
Tell me what are we fighting for
Isn't life worth so much more?
We should love one another
Oh can't we just pretend
This war never began?
Tell me why, brother my brother'
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So yeah. I've been playing alot of Pokemon lately. I put in 92+ hours...*rubs chin* I need to level up alot before I try to take on the Elite 4. *kicks them* DIE CYNTHIA YOU AND YOUR NON-WEAKNESS POKEMON!
=3= Of course along with playing the game and collecting and reading anything Pokemon related, as per my temporary but complete interest, I l've been listening to the soundtracks... Alot of them make me cry but almost none as bad as this one. Brother my Brother makes me want to embrace the first person I meet on the street...
*peers out the window* Or a car. ...Shut up all you people who want to say "Yeah that's a great idea!" I don't need your help with suicidal thoughts. I'm still a legitimate teenager.
Anyhew, I wonder why I have these... problems forgiving people. And when people 'forgive' me it usually bugs the piss outta me because they're almost always being malicious or condescending when they do it.
So I've come to this conclusion:
You apologize to people to make YOURSELF feel better. They forgive you to make THEMSELVES feel better. Make sense?
When you say sorry to someone they may or may not accept your apology. If you do and they accept it, it's a relief to you, even if they don't -honestly- forgive you. Even if they don't accept it you can indignantly claim 'Well I SAID I was sorry!' Yeah. Ya did. Bully for you.
When you forgive someone whose apologized to you, it's to ease your own concience. Either way they hurt you. You're not really making them feel any better.. As soon as the apology leaves their lips, if it's done out of the shame of their mistake and not obligation or something dumb like that, then they're gonna be relieved. When you say "Eh... that's alright..." That's you being one one bit better than they are in your subconcious because you have the power to say 'oh I forgive you' while they're prostrated at your feet.
And then there are the people who repeatedly apologized for doing the -same- stupid thing over and over again. What's the point of the apology? There isn't one. It's like ingrained... 'I've done something wrong so I'll say sorry and the slate's clean so no one minds if I do it again...and again...and again.'
THEN there are the people who apologize maliciously. "Oh I'm sooooo sorry I'm looking out for your well-being."
e.e... Fun.
But still, I wish I could be more forgiving because it really does a number on my concience. I honestly feel stupid guilty everytime I say 'Sorry dude, but we're not going through this shit again.' And when someone does something to me, I can hang onto the rage for like... weeks...months...years... you know.
Again, though, there are people I can forgive because I still feel something, much as I want to smother it out, but I can't hang around because I'll always be on edge because of the fights we had before, ready to get in another one and that's not a friendship, is it?
Then there are the people I've forgiven or excused to myself multiple times before but then I just realized I made a mistake and they're just a douchebag. Shoulda listened. I have no place to say anyone won't listen to what's told to them because I srsly should've listened and -absorbed- and -believed- what I was told before.
Finally there's the dudes like Bushido and Robert who try to be friendly but for some reason I always want to ask them dead questions and cry when they talk. =3= 'I just want to be your friend (again).' Poor R-kun.
But I'm pleased to report there -are- people who I've messed up with (or vice versa) and I got over it relatively quickly. Those people are muy importante, you know? And they're a hellova lot better at forgiveness than me.
=3= Sooo if no one minds, I'm gonna go prep my Pokemans and get ready to kick some serious patootie at Mechacon!~