......I have to share my heartbeat with you, once again.
Surrender Tonight
v1.
The Rubys fall, on the cold hard floor, your red rivers flow out your misery. Escaping to the hardened blade, that fills your heart with lies. It's pounding form, cracking at your seams. Don't ever think you're alone...
-chorus-
My heart is aching, breaking for you, your tears become my own, and they overflow. You're tired of crying, trying to be perfect. Let go of the pain, just let go of your self, Surrender tonight....
v2.
You're not alone when the starving world feeds on your broken soul. There's so much more than all your broken pieces. All the diamonds in your eyes, don't have to fall anymore. When hope beckons, holding out to you. Reach out and grab the Forgiving hand of Freedom.
-Bridge-
One drop of His, can cover all of yours
Love exists for you
One drop of His, can cover all of you
Hope exists for you
One drop of His, can cover all the pain
Life exists for you,
One drop of His Blood, can set you Free...
9/23/08
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Okay, so now, i'm gonna dish. The issue of cutting is one, many people avoid. It utterly tears me apart to see Broken pieces, broken Lifes, ravished by Satan's lies. He always attacks the hurting. Emotions are so delicate, and soo easily hurt. One day when i was on SoundPost, this one user, whom i have forgotten her username, posted 3 questions. 2 out of utter randomness, and the last about cutting. All the other users who replied, completeley avoided the subject, But Me. It Bothered the living heck out of me. I couldn't understand why they had avoided it. So i replied, and offered as much hope as i could, i Private Messaged her, telling her that i would keep her in my prayers. One, day, when i had lunch with my mentor, Julielle, i told her about what God has placed on me that day. She told me, that God had layed that on my heart, and wanted to use me. After that i kept it in the back of my mind. A Few months ago, one of my newfound SP friends and i were IMing. She told me it had been 3 weeks. '3 weeks since what' i wrote. '3 weeks since i stopped cutting, but....i still want to'. It was that moment, i knew God was planning something. A few years, if not last year, i went through the hardest time in my life emotionally. And I fell into the darkest hole i have ever been in. Years ago, i forgot how many, i did cut. Once. And it didn't release anything, but more pain. I have, and never will again. So many times last year, i stared and hurt, but God alone kept me from anything. I guess this is wy i am rambleing. Since then, God has brought so many hurting people into my life, i can't explain it. My Heart cres for you, begs for you to be loved, and let yourself fall into God's hands. I loe you if you're reading this.
For every drop of blood you shed, I drop a tear for you.