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Gender: Female
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Age: 27
Sign: Aquarius

Signup Date: 2/22/2005

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Sunday, May 28, 2006 

Category: Writing and Poetry
For those of you who are new to reading my rants, not too long ago I had a minor bout of writer's block. The rants that I've been posting over the course of the past week are the type of things that I like to write best. But I got a little burnt out and my mind stopped thinking in a straight line long enough to get anything written.

So I began a journey into fiction. I suppose that I'm lucky that writer's block for me is something very different from what it is for everyone else. I'm the daughter of an English teacher, and while I love my mother, growing up I used to loathe how she would force me to write. She enrolled me in creative writing courses and made me write book reports for her during spring breaks. "Just write," she would intone. She believed that if you sat down and started scribbling something... anything... that nature would take its course. Writing fiction has never been an issue for me.

So I started a story that remained untitled for 17 parts, finally gaining its moniker of "The Dawn of Darkness" in part 18. Around the time that I posted the 14th or 15th part, I was certain that it was just about finished. But my mind just kept adding more to the story. It was as if it wouldn't let me kill it until it was done breathing.

It started out as a simple exercise to keep my writing skills up and turned into a fucking monster. It transitioned from a questionable love story to a sex-drenched romp to something altogether twisted. As I continued to write it, I went down in my prior high rankings. People unsubscribed in droves. But I couldn't shake it until it was over.

I never planned any of the parts ahead of time. I sat down at night, after Midget had gone to sleep and would peck out the next installment to be posted the following morning. If you had asked me at Part 3 if I had any clue what was going to happen in Part 22, I wouldn't have been able to tell you. But fuck. I wouldn't have been able to tell you what would have happened in Part 4.

I received some really positive responses from the piece, and while I ended up hating the bitch in the end, Dawn was quite the experience for me. She freed my mind from all of the bullshit trappings that it had been drenched in, and allowed me to feel confident enough to go back to the writing style that I consider to be my specialty.

I've moved her over to my personal site, so if her fans go looking for her, that's where she's been laid to rest. For the newer readers, if you ever get bored and have a few hours time on your hands (or if you're one of those people whose work has MySpace blocked) head on over there and give it a whirl. If you're not into graphic, you might want to steer clear though. To give you an idea of what it got like, I'll just let you know that I read two books by Jack Ketchum over the time that I was writing it.

Here are the links to the various parts. You can read many of my other writings at this site as well. There are over 100 pieces that were previously posted here at MySpazz in my more comfortable style, as well as diary type entries that are only posted there, in case you want an idea of what the inside of my head sounds like at times. Thanks for reading.

Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five
Part Six
Part Seven
Part Eight
Part Nine
Part Ten
Part Eleven
Part Twelve
Part Thirteen
Part Fourteen
Part Fifteen
Part Sixteen
Part Seventeen
Part Eighteen
Part Nineteen
Part Twenty
Part Twenty-One
Part Twenty-Two
Part Twenty-Three
Part Twenty-Four
Part Twenty-Five
Part Twenty-Six
Part Twenty-Seven (The End)
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Island Princess
Island Princess

 
I loved that whole storyline!  The crazy twists, turns, sex and gore, it was great!  Don't let people try and bring you down, it is an AWESOME piece of work! 
 
Posted by Island Princess on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 7:01 PM
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00Jew
David Grubnick

 

i STILL hanen't read it.

but.......I'D BE READING IT ON A PHONE!
i'll skipp, it's long.


 
Posted by 00Jew on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 7:20 PM
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I'm a STAR, how could I not SHINE?
Nyechi O

 
So does this mean that you won't be writning anymore stories like this one?  I mean,  I really liked it, but I do like your original writing.  It's what made me subscribe to you in the first place
 
Posted by I'm a STAR, how could I not SHINE? on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 7:34 PM
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AwesomeZara

 
For right now, I don't know. I might end up writing another piece of fiction at some point, but I really don't want to any time soon.
 
Posted by AwesomeZara on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 7:41 PM
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¡The Word Pimp!
Fernando Quijano III

 
It sounds incredibly intriguing, but I'm so busy with my own writing, and reading & evaluating the work of those in my own workshops & writing groups, that I don't have the time to dedicate to such a long piece. However, 'Dawn of Darkness' is on my short list. I will get to it soon enough.

I know how you feel, though. Once the muse gets a good hold of you, you can't shake her off until you get every last word out. 
 
Posted by ¡The Word Pimp! on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 7:53 PM
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dragonfly

 
Don't ever second-guess this piece. I'm glad you went through this journey. Like I said in the beginning, it will show who your most loyal readers are. You had a good number of us addicted for a month, fiending for the next installment, bitching whenever you took a day or two off. At leadt, I'm pretty sure it wasn't just me :)
 
Posted by dragonfly on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 8:01 PM
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dragonfly

 
*curses* That would be least. Damn me for typing with a sandwich in one hand.
 
Posted by dragonfly on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 8:03 PM
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★Stevers
Steve Carlin

 

I've started reading it and now I have to finish - Damn you for intriguing me with your writing style and your elegant use of eloquent imagery!  You word whore you!  Just remember to leave a few words for the rest of us.  Don't use them all in one story.  Keep up the good writing!


 
Posted by ★Stevers on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 8:10 PM
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E

 
I thought it was good stuff.  I rarely write fiction, but it's the same way - it writes itself, and I don't know what's going to happen from one page to the next.
 
Posted by E on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 8:11 PM
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Just to let you know I loved it. Right up until the end, cause I wasn't ready for it to be over
 
Posted by on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 10:08 PM
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Em
Emma Thomas

 
i loved it and am sad it ended!!
 
Posted by Em on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 10:37 PM
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Batteryinyourleg
Jeffrey T

 
Since you wrote this, now you must know what those fiddler's on the titanic felt like as it was going down.
 
Posted by Batteryinyourleg on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 11:14 PM
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AwesomeZara

 
No apostrophe was needed on the fiddlers part.
 
Posted by AwesomeZara on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 11:28 PM
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Harley's Puddin'
Chad Williams

 
Funny.  Fiction is where I am easily blocked, but I do have a slight problem with characterization.  I have problems getting into the character's heads and as a reult I write myelf into a corner.  
 
Posted by Harley's Puddin' on Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 11:26 PM
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Evil Eye

 
Glad you moved it! I never have the time at home to sit and read without the kids looking over my shoulder. And I'm one of those blocked at work folks, but I can get to your site fine. I'll finally be able to finish the story that drew me to your blog in the first place!
 
Posted by Evil Eye on Monday, May 29, 2006 - 12:04 AM
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Doug E. Shirts
Doug Edwards

 

I know this may sound goofy, but I'll write it anyway.


Im proud of you and your resulting work. I have always been a fan of your writing since subscribing, but this was an undertaking that was truly Awesome. I know that this stuff may not have been everyone's cup of tea. I really liked it, though. And it's been great to read this knowing your process writing this.

 
It is particularly interesting that this 27-chapter story is a result of "writer's block". Girl, I want to know what kind of "mental Metamucil" you're taking! This e-Novel takes the blogging to another level. This shows that medium can be more than juvenile sex jokes, mindless rants and endless YouTube postings (all of which can be fun at times). I write outside of MySpace and use the MySpace blogs for relaxation. I see no reason that you couldn't sell this work; it's good.

 
The Writer's path was blocked; so she wrote a story through it. Nice.

 
Doug


 
Posted by Doug E. Shirts on Monday, May 29, 2006 - 12:50 AM
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Merrrypoppin

 

I kknow I sent you a personal email about it, but to repeat myself, I waited until you were finished with all the chapters and read it all the way through. It is quite a read, and not for the faint of heart


 
Posted by Merrrypoppin on Tuesday, May 30, 2006 - 5:21 AM
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Richard

 

'Twas a wonderful story and it's good that you moved it in it's entirety rather than breaking it up.


 
Posted by Richard on Saturday, June 03, 2006 - 10:06 PM
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