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	This ~♥SAM♥~ has MOVED!	Reality IS a bitch. I too, am its whore. In so many ways.   Posted by This ~♥SAM♥~ has MOVED! on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:18 PM [Reply to this]

	AwesomeZara	I thought you hardly ever read my posts. Interesting.   Posted by AwesomeZara on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 9:00 PM [Reply to this]

	AwesomeZara	Personally, I really wouldn't mind if you just fucked off. But if you feel the need to continue to come onto my posts and be condescending, I can't stop you. Well, unless I block you. But I'm so tired of needing to do that.   Posted by AwesomeZara on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 11:52 PM [Reply to this]

	AwesomeZara	I have a suggestion for how you can work on making your sincerity actually seem sincere. Rather than run your mouth elsewhere proclaiming that my work has been suffering, why don't you grow some balls and tell me here, where that information might have an actual impact? See, most people assume that I'm incapable of handling constructive criticism because the majority of the other writers on this site can't handle it when people voice opinions that they didn't want to hear. (Sound like anyone you know?) If I am to improve my craft, as I am sincere in claiming that I want to do, it takes me hearing some harsh feedback from time to time. Heartfelt advice will never be turned away, even if it isn't the glowing praise that everyone else is offering. But you make me leery of you for acting the douche. Only offering what you think the writer wants to hear (in this case praising me for this post and in the other case, praising a different person for voicing a bitter, jealous and hypocritical opinion of me) and not being willing to be the noble and well-intentioned reader that I'm sure you pat yourself on the back for being. For that I say this: whatever issues you have with my writing are best served here. If you take them elsewhere, I suggest you STAY elsewhere.   Posted by AwesomeZara on Sunday, December 17, 2006 - 1:29 AM [Reply to this]

	AwesomeZara	Although I'm fairly certain that those who have chosen to not read your posts as much don't have an outlet with which to go and explain to someone else that (or why) they don't. Sad that someone's loss of interest wouldn't cause you to reevaluate how you write. I'm always looking to branch out as much as possible. I got torn a new one for trying brevity even though it was my honest attempt to see if I could showcase my opinion with constraint. I choose to highlight other writers so that I can see great examples of writing and how people react to them. (But you know... I only did it for the nook... er... numbers.) Whatever the avenue that I choose to try, it is so that I can learn more about myself as a writer. Growth is paramount to me. However, I cannot write about those things which I do not have a solid grasp on. So I use tried and true topics. I simply choose to attack them at different levels. Some succeed, some fail. The point is that I TRY. You might not have a pussy (the only thing keeping me from straight out calling you "two-faced") but you have a yen for it. Men who choose to treat women with kid gloves sicken me. We are not weak souls needing your acceptance and approval. It brings me back to my original statement which I believe is the most correct: You are condescending. And in the worst possible manner. You are condescending in the guise of being a supportive/sensitive/new-aged male. Which leads me to repeating another one of the statements that I made prior: Grow a pair.   Posted by AwesomeZara on Sunday, December 17, 2006 - 3:12 AM [Reply to this]

	Mr Wednesday	I am simply in awe of the sheer magnitude of the bitchcraft of this last comment. Please take that the right way, Mr. Sensitive had it coming, it probably hurt his feelings but he'll have a good cry and feel better in the morning.  J   Posted by Mr Wednesday on Sunday, December 17, 2006 - 6:04 AM [Reply to this]

	Melissa	Oh girl, this one made me cry.  This will be my exact situation in about a week with the ex.  But you know what?  I would much rather have that moment of connection with someone I love and still very much respect and think about its bittersweet reality than never have the reality in the first place.  Perhaps it's selfishness? But you're not alone, I'm whoring it up with you.  :)   Posted by Melissa on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:21 PM [Reply to this]

	Jenn	This is beautiful Z.  It really captures that uncertainty in a relationship that may or may not be unrequitted.  It's as if talking too much can ruin it but if it turns out to be the real thing then it'll be more powerful then you're really ready for.   Posted by Jenn on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:21 PM [Reply to this]

	Island Princess Island Princess	Beautiful, I absolutely loved it.  It's amazing how you can capture even a sad moment and make it pop!    Posted by Island Princess on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:22 PM [Reply to this]

	Mrs.JacquelineW	excellent. It had a gloominess about it the entire time, yet you still had a pinch of hope, just like all good stores.    Posted by Mrs.JacquelineW on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:24 PM [Reply to this]

	Mrs.JacquelineW	*stories. My bad.   Posted by Mrs.JacquelineW on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:24 PM [Reply to this]

	Life is the Lesson Professor Wildflower	The tears in my eyes compete only with the ache in my heart.  I am shaken to know anyone else can feel the way I feel.  I'm going to stop reading for a while to see if you stop posting my heart for the public to read.   Posted by Life is the Lesson on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:27 PM [Reply to this]

	carolyn	envision the goodbye I have never been able to do this, even after it happened I changed it to just a 'see you soon'.  It has never been goodbye for me, maybe someday    Posted by carolyn on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:27 PM [Reply to this]

	Southern Belle	I LOVE reading this part of your writing.  You express what a women feels so exact...erotic. Damn good...   Posted by Southern Belle on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:28 PM [Reply to this]

	fisherman	Hi Zara!   Posted by fisherman on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:29 PM [Reply to this]

	ToNiCa	Just....wow.   Posted by ToNiCa on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:31 PM [Reply to this]

	Dominick	I second that ----^   Posted by Dominick on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:59 PM [Reply to this]

	Pixie	Truely amazing once again Zara. That was beautiful; I cried. I just wish you hadn't said "blue eyes": it reminded me of him.   Posted by Pixie on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:33 PM [Reply to this]

		Reality is sometimes more real than necessarily wanted. Great blog, as always   Posted by on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:35 PM [Reply to this]

		Few words can express what I think of this. I can really only think of one: Wow.   Posted by on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:36 PM [Reply to this]

	KING ARTHUR™	I am just getting to know you....and that is an intersting thing....in a good way....I dig it...   Posted by KING ARTHUR™ on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:37 PM [Reply to this]

	Toni Toni Turbeville	Beautiful. Thank you for sharing.   Posted by Toni on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:41 PM [Reply to this]

	christina	At least once in their life, everyone should have a moment like that. Something bittersweet and wonderful.   Posted by christina on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:44 PM [Reply to this]

	* Jessica * tears are just unspoken words Jessica E	it was awsome   Posted by * Jessica * tears are just unspoken words on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:51 PM [Reply to this]

	Heather the Angel	mmmmmm.......   Posted by Heather the Angel on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 6:52 PM [Reply to this]

	My Sox are Red	Because that one moment of pure emotional/physical bliss and that kind of connection is almost the ensuing heartache.  You have the experience to remember, if nothing else.   Posted by My Sox are Red on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 9:10 PM [Reply to this]

	My Sox are Red	It should have read "is almost worth the ensuing heartache."   Posted by My Sox are Red on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 9:11 PM [Reply to this]

	Melissa	Maybe it's a girl thing??  Who knows....   Posted by Melissa on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 10:02 PM [Reply to this]

	Cyndy	On behalf of those of us who love women, that was heartbreaking. We waited while YOU showered.  Next time, we're gonna take your clothes with us. Or you.       Posted by Cyndy on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:00 PM [Reply to this]

	Shh, be quiet	Sounds like you have some intense fantasies like I do. The dream never matches the reality, does it? People are faulty by nature, so how the hell could someone ever live up to a fantasy? They can't. We are safe in our fantasies because we have all the control. We can create ideal forms of ourselves and others and no one ever gets hurt. This piece really touched me because I can totally relate to it right now. Thanks for the insight. =)   Posted by Shh, be quiet on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:00 PM [Reply to this]

	1invisiblegrl	Damn, that was really well written. Write a book already- I'll buy it.   Posted by 1invisiblegrl on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:01 PM [Reply to this]

	AMBELLINA Amber Tucker	That was some awesome writing.  Thanks for sharing it with us all.   Posted by AMBELLINA on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:01 PM [Reply to this]

	Lisa The Brit	Wow .....loved it.   Posted by Lisa The Brit on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:02 PM [Reply to this]

	Chasing Aimee Aimee Winslow West	Vivid and beautiful.  Thanks for the insight.  I feel like I've been there myself. =)   Posted by Chasing Aimee on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:04 PM [Reply to this]

	Loyd Loyd Cook	I watched you prepare for an early sleep. Moving 'round, doing the standards. I watched your preparations, nary a peep. Doing nothing, saying nothing, no words. Your eyes were tired, movements measured. A soft place called, rest was so near. I saw you there, someone I treasured. Not knowing the loss that would be so dear. You lay down, settling into a comfortable place. Small adjustments to position, arrangements precise. Breathing slowed and deepened, no longer a race. Only small twitches, so tiny yet so very nice. Myself, I lingered, watching the flickering pictures. A contest of gladiators battling for a top prize. The competition would soon be my ligature. For what would come in looming hours ... a dreadful surprise. Sleep soon took me too, a diversion from needed aid. I drifted off, too complacent in the safety of my world. Soft pillow, vinyl chair, thinking I'm here and well weighed. That would soon change; the straightness of life to be curled. The nurse comes in to check on the sick one ... not you. A tug on my sleeve...from where did that come? Medicine given, words spoken, then came the cue. "Is she breathing," I ask, sounding out of place and dumb. The nurse looks at me strangely, then turns to my angel. (I did not know you were already an angel) ... my love. She touches, looking for life's rhythm...the beat. I grab your wrist in desperation, hoping for my dove. In that instant, that horrible frozen time, things crashed around me. In that instant, that indelible page of mine, clocks stopped and locked. In that instant, a life-changing event, what was me ceased to be. In that instant, stars fell, the moon grew cold, my world was rocked. Now, months later, the echoes of life and death still ring. Now, months later, the colors and sounds are still drab.. Now, months later, my heart still tries but can no longer sing. Now, months later, my mouth still talks but has no gab. I wander on, on this broken path I must travel on. I wander on, trying to see what is ahead in my life. I wander on, being someone now I never was ... a con. I wander on, less than I was when I had my wife.   Posted by Loyd on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:08 PM [Reply to this]

		Ouch. Continuing on feels like you're faking it.  That must have been some kind of love.   Posted by on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 9:07 PM [Reply to this]

	LoThaFlo™, [The Best Revenge is Success!] Lauren TwoSixty	I think this poem is beautiful as well!!!   <3 Lauren   Posted by LoThaFlo™, [The Best Revenge is Success!] on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 8:08 PM [Reply to this]

	Serendipitous Sarah	This is so, so lovely.  Well wishes.   Posted by Serendipitous Sarah on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:30 PM [Reply to this]

		What a totally amazing picture you painted. It even made me cry... a little.   Posted by on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:10 PM [Reply to this]

	Sepia Page	Sigh... Pathos.   Posted by Sepia Page on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:11 PM [Reply to this]

	~*TERI*~	wow, you have an incredible ability to put the reader right in the moment. Beautifully written, I bow to you. Nemaste   Posted by ~*TERI*~ on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:13 PM [Reply to this]

	Loyd Loyd Cook	Written more than a month ago on my blog...I'm getting better now.   Posted by Loyd on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:13 PM [Reply to this]

	Loyd Loyd Cook	By "better" I mean emotionally....not writing-wise....that's a work in progress. LOL   Posted by Loyd on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:17 PM [Reply to this]

		Fabulous. Well written but oh so sad.     Posted by on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:24 PM [Reply to this]

	Dusty	Damn you Zara, that was almost too good. Far too intense first thing Saturday afternoon. This is why I read.   Posted by Dusty on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:25 PM [Reply to this]

	Kat	Always the way...   Posted by Kat on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:27 PM [Reply to this]

	Serendipitous Sarah	I know what people mean when they say that you write their lives, Zara.  This was me last night, and yes, he does have blue eyes.  He's going to make me so lonesome when I go... Kudos, babe.   Posted by Serendipitous Sarah on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:28 PM [Reply to this]

	Loyd Loyd Cook	Damn...shoulda read yours first AZ....wouldn't posted mine...just saw "poetry" at the top and not the link...thought it was an assignment. SIGH....Apologies to all. Delete my previous postings if you will AZ.   Posted by Loyd on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:29 PM [Reply to this]

		Very deeply moving, no words of mine can express how much!   Posted by on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:33 PM [Reply to this]

	Brian Brian Stuart	Mmmmm   Posted by Brian on Saturday, December 16, 2006 - 7:33 PM [Reply to this]

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