during show choir.
bah ha ha.

honestly.. a lot of shitty things have happened to me in the Recent past.
Or "shitty" I thought.
& then i realized...
that i could have So many more issues
than ones that involve boys....
[they seem to be the source of my lament.]
I thank chad for that...
I don't care if he's been a bitch...
or at one point i thought he was trying to "ruin my good time"
he's always been there to look after me & my friends
& he's always been .genuinly. concerned about my well being.
recently the victim of a hate crime...
i've seen how strong he is & how he's able to cope with some of the worst situations imaginable.
I think i can deal with my [now seemingly small] disruptions.
I'll "leave them at the door"
& get on with life.
=]
thanks sweetie.

I don't mind being an alternate in show choir..
I get to watch illegal activities performed anyway.
I have a new appreciation for the people that i surround myself with
& the compassion they've shown me...
even if i lack Strongly in that department.
People aren't "just whatever"
situations might be "just whatever"
you can't treat them how you please...
you can't lie about everything...
& you can't use them to your advantage.
it's wrong, and deceitful on So many levels.
unfortunately for myself, i've dealt with people who are under the impression that it's fine.
normal.
& "okay."
& quite frankly....
i just don't feel like doing it anymore.
I'm not looking to be pulled by my chain...
around in circles at your feet.
i'm looking for something more..
& maybe you'll figure that out some day.

you win some, you lose some.
it's all in a day.

peace.love.
xoxo