i thought you were swell.
yeah.
you really did me in.
a few times.
haha.
i’m not bitter towards you.
just sorry.
that I was "too wild"
that you "couldn’t take me home to mom"
that I "wasn’t mannered"
& that I wasn’t willing to change for you.
tough luck i guess
=]
changing for others has never really been my thing.
liars haven’t ever been my thing either.

you know what I really miss?
those nights with old friends..
in that big house..
they always had my back.
even when i turned mine away.
I’ll reappear.
real soon.

& i miss those spontaneous nights..
parked on the side of a street.
scared as .hell.
that someone would catch us.
haha.
but you always taught me that risk was fun.
& that it was okay to give in occasionally.
it’s okay to be a smartass.
& to have a mind of my own.
state opinions....
i still love you..
always have.
probably always will.
i know you won’t see this.
& I don’t really care.
I think our distance is good.
I like the remembering part.
but there isn’t a chance
that i’ll ever forget.

peace.love.
xoxo