hmmm, how was my day?

i pour my FUCKING heart out to this FUCKING girl who i'm too scared to FUCKING ask to dance because i'm FUCKING scared of rejection and she FUCKING decides it'd be FUCKING okay to inform me FUCKING NOW that she has no FUCKING interest in me and to FUCKING top it all FUCKING off she uses the same FUUUUUUCKING line that the first FUCKING girl i ever liked used on me. We should just be friends.
we should just be friends.
i hope its okay if we still remain friends
friendship is easy for me right now
I really hope we can stay friends.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK THAT!
i don't want to be FUCKING FRIENDS!
I DON'T WANT TO JUST SEE YOU SMILE FROM THE SIDE
I WANT TO LOVE YOU AND HAVE YOU LOVE ME AND STAY TOGETHER THROUGH THICK AND THIN AND GO ON TRIPS TOGETHER AND GET MARRIED AND COMPLAIN ABOUT STUFF AND MAKE LOVE WHENEVER WE'RE BORED AND NOT HAVE KIDS AND BE HAPPIER THAN ANYONE ELSE.
to top it all off (hey i stopped swearing!) i told her, i word for word told her, that that was what the first girl i ever liked said to me. she knew, but didn't think that it might be inappropriate to bring up a 7 year old sore spot.
yes i know, there was no chance she was going to like me anyway, but i want to add a special shout out to Kristen for adding insult to injury, how bout a round of applause folks.

if this is for some dumb reason i'm going to be REALLY upset.
shit if she hears about this i'm going to be in some deep shit.
lol i said shit too much.