It's no secret that for the last few weeks I've been in a pretty good mood, and that things are brightly looking up for me. The reason for that is simple, but not at the same time. As I'm sitting here writing this, I find myself bewildered, amazed, excited, appreciated, happy and a bit scared all at the same time, all in the best ways possible.



If you told me three weeks ago, yesterday, that I would be involved in a relationship, any relationship really, much less one that was such a long distance that there was an ocean between us, I would have told you that you were absolutely crazy. It would never happen in a million years. I've been pretty wary about long distance relationships because I couldn't even make one of an hour away work. But, here I am, right now, very, very, very happily dealing with such a situation.

Three weeks ago, yesterday, paultucker and I started talking over AIM, about this and that, and our conversation continued over that weekend, delving into the wee hours of the morning. Later that week, after I made some remark about Valentines, and showed off my Bah Humbug post, he proposed a most unusual circumstance; a long distance date to stay away the feelings of loneliness. Touched, I accepted. What followed on Valentines was an amusing set of antics as we tried to set up voice chatting, so we could talk during the movie we were going to watch. It was equated to going out on our first date, to a restaurant we'd never been to, and being either 3 miles away the entire time, or needing to turn left when we went right. After pulling seattlesparks in to debug and aid us in getting things set up, we gave up on trying to voice chat, and went on to watch the movie. Afterward, we gave it one more try, and found some success with another program, chatting for a few hours that night.

Ever since that time, we've spent several hours a night chatting with one another. I'm constantly amazed at how well we seem to click, and how well things appear to be going, and I'm even more amazed at how thoughtful, attentive, caring, romantic, and any other large number of adjectives that are out there to describe these things and more, that he is. It's very directly opposite of the one significant relationship I've had in my life. I'm finding myself being very caught up and swept away, and not minding it one bit, and even more amazingly, being extremely comfortable with everything we've done so far and feeling certain my trust is not misplaced.

Just a few days ago we decided that we're in a real relationship, and which is a happily terrifying thing for me, but something I'm going to approach with an open mind and a willingness to see through. I don't want the past to hamper any chances of a future I have with someone, and so here's to a walking down a path of discovery together, to see where things will lead.

Really? What girl can resist a man who writes her poetry anyway?

HAPPY BEAMING SMILE