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Sunday, July 13, 2008 8:28 PM

Current mood:  sad
ok idk what to say exactly and cant desribe how bad this has been bothering me and no-one would believe how bad it relly bothers some ppl.....
it kinda hurts =( and i think all the time in my mind..."dad what are you doing and do you ever think about me when you are'nt doing anything"
i think to myself would i have grown up like this with all the abuse and problems i suffer with now!!!!!!
it really hurts me inside that i cant find him and i have been searching the world for him for many years now!!!!!!!!
im sick of the dumb shit i live with i just wnat to know were he is and i want to see him again so bad!!!!
its been 15yrs since my dad has seen me...and it was not his choice that we could'nt see eachother....it was my moms fault!!!!
she did it and idc if it was for the best but it would have been nice if she at least kept contact.........i lay in bed at nite sometimes and cry myself to sleep looking at the picture of me and him together and look at that beatiful medical box he painted "when he was high" but its the best thing i have ever owned just cause it was from him!!!!!!
i just want to see him one more time and i think my life would be complete!!!!!!!

im just rambling on so dont leave me no fucked up comments cause this is really something that tears my heart to peices when i think about it =(

idk were the hell you are rite now!!!!!
but i still love you dad<333
Currently listening:
The Young and Hopeless
By Good Charlotte
Release date: 2002-10-01
 
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Dj

 
hey i know how it feels to think like that. i spent most of my child hood wondering why my biological father wasn't in my life until i got to meet him. i found him over 5 years ago n the only contact hes had with me was when his mom passed. knowing someone suffers along the lines of how you do doesn't make it easier but it helps to have someone there

text me bro
DJ
 
Posted by Dj on Monday, July 28, 2008 - 4:48 AM
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darien3
Al Tavers

 
Some people suck - for real. I just got off the phone with DJ and was telling him about how - many moons ago, now - my father had "instructed" my grandmother to BURN he and my mother's wedding album. Well, guess what? I STILL have it.

I'm here if you need someone to talk with...
 
Posted by darien3 on Monday, July 28, 2008 - 5:11 AM
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5L!M3!! ------WANTS TO MURDER SOMEONE------



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