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Current mood:  amused Category: Life
Awkward night tonight... I went out with someone I haven't seen in a very long time. An old ex, (if you can call him that) sent me an IM outta the blue and wanted to go out and grab something to eat. I was pretty bored, so I agreed. I really wasn't thinking about the past or the way things ended between us, because I truthfully didn't give a damn. I mean, letting something so petty overtake you to the point where you can't even be civil? That's not how I roll. (If not BLATANTLY evident from recent goings-on in my social life.)
In any case, I was rather apathetic to the whole thing.
It was however, quite amusing how desirable I still am after all this time. Ex's, friends, old co-workers, people that just met me... They all seem to see something in my that I cannot pinpoint, that just makes me appealing.
I think it's great... How the one and ONLY thing I want is the one thing I can't have...
And here is every other opportunity in the world rearing it's head at me, practically BEGGING for me to exploit it. By now, I should have gotten about six people in bed. And that's just the ones that I KNOW! I'm not a whore or anything, but for some reason, they know to come back for more. (Or to try for what they've heard.) I just... I dunno. I don't get it at all. And I seriously question if I even WANT to.
I know that if I can't have what I want, then I'm better off ALONE. Compromising over something of this magnitude is HORRIBLY inadvisable. Hell, I learned that from my own parents who remain together simply because it's convenient. Noooo... I'm not gonna do that. I'm not gonna be that way. If it wasn't meant in this life it'll come in another...
And I'm pretty okay with that...
*smiles*
-mE
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One X
By Three Days Grace
Release date: 2006-06-13 |
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5:19 AM
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