I struggle with trying to find a perfect fit mentally of my life for I tend to be slightly OCD when it comes to knowing how everything works and ticks. I have a tremendous need to make sure I have control and understanding of the path ahead. 

The hard part is that life comes with what I call "variable's and constants". Some things are constants, the anchors that everything else in life must orbit and surround. Not just "basics" either, I'm talking about purpose and calling. Vision and my reasons for living.

Other things are variables, things that can be moved around the constants to make the equation come together and make sense. The problem comes when I turn many of the variables into constants, when I take things that dont matter in the large scheme and treat them as the center of my life. Some of these things being jobs, comforts, friends, lifestyles, etc. All good things but should be worthy of sacrifice in sight of a bigger goal, but usually pulled close to my heart as I allow them to distract and confuse. Other times the equation is broken by turning some of the constants into variables, when I begin to ignore the callings and overall dreams for an easier path. When I loose sight of the end, become apathetic in my pursuit, and comprimise my larger greater dream for something thats passes as only "Good" instead of "Great".

I want the best result...I dont want to grow lazy or confused in the process of life...I want to give it all to gain the best, even if that means less comfort now for a greater reward. GOD never let me confuse the equation. Help me find whats inmovable and what gifts to let go of.