like me getting the best of both worlds and be happy for a whole complete day and night...

driving around at 2:30 in the morning and finally deciding to just go home 30 minutes later did not do me any good... because here I am blogging and chugging fucking alky alone...

I'm not mad at anyone but myself... not blaming anyone but myself... and not disappointed in anyone or anything but myself... I know no one else will take the blame... so yeah, spit them all on my face...

This has been one hell of a week and I'm surprised I actually survived it. And I thought tonight was just gonna be all fun... it was... for the most part... until I tried to do the impossible and juggle 2 things at the same time.

So I apologize to people I disappointed. I apologize for things I did or did not do. I apologize for being the mean bitch. I apologize for seeming too bossy. I apologize for being the all-knowing smarty pants that make you look stupid. Sorry for making you clean after your dirt. Sorry for making sure I get to do my job by making sure you do yours. Sorry for not being part of the fun. Sorry for not being as cool as the others. Sorry for being the antagonist of your life. Sorry for not being there. Sorry for being too late. Sorry for taking so long... Just... sorry to everyone.

It really sucks to be me.

But I want you to know, I try... with all my might.