i feel awful because i have neglected again lately, to attempt to stay even remotely current with my blogs...

but i have been very busy really, and being somewhat productive as well - yet at the same time - feeling like i am getting absolutely nothing done.

so - it's that 'at a crossroads - sitting on a fence - watching time fly' sort of thing...  just what exactly are good reasons to not  write something daily?

it's not like i am punching a time clock somewhere in a job scenario, or that i am off on a vacation and no access to a computer or the net, or even that i have nothing to say... i am just kinda distracted i suppose.

things and circumstances in and around my day to day life right now have probably never been better, i have a court date to look forward to for a settlement in my long standing battle against "big box orange", but at the same time there - it is still a matter of "hurry up and wait some more" till it gets here in january (not soon enough to make holidays easier - and i absolutely dislike giving gifts after the fact when money finally isn't the issue for lateness), and i am wondering what i get to look forward to with that date in mind... an idea of what to expect would lessen the waiting period, the anxiety over that waiting period; and of course - let me get a better idea of the direction i will be going - i like to have some inkling of it anyway to start planning now for my future at last.

and a lot of "pre-planning" i have been doing recently it is...  i need to seriously quit smoking - and am looking at hypnosis to get results this time (having quit twice before but not for good anyway), so if anyone has thoughts on this method - please let me know what you think or have tried or done otherwise. i am setting about a major event planning ahead also, and most of my time i guess is being consumed by all of this recently developing "planning"..... 

so, i will be back with more to say and see. and promise not to leave in the lurch any more without something at least once a week or so!