Today I took a day to just be. And although I did not leave the comfort of my home, I did for the most part avoid all workie things and just stuck to arty stuff. I've got some pretty cool songs in the lab. So many so I am thinking about another one of those self challenges where I write like 10 or 15 songs in a month. And this time I wouldn't be just adding lighter fluid to the nuclear bomb of my life but instead it would be more fun than a komacazie mission of death. (in august thats what it felt like). I have been in this delicious spell of  free form creativity.  When I pick up my guitar the dopest weirdest songs just flow out. I've been recording them and then reworking them. Its super fun and only makes me wish I had more days in a week to just write. I feel like my life is kind of beautiful right now. My work program just got funded for the next 3 years and it pays me enough for me to not stress so much. I have complete freedom in my job to do what I think works best. At the same time I really want to be balanced and have just as much time to write and perform.  And the fog is lifting a little. I feel like I am becoming less confused about my work and less critical about it all.  I am a perfectionist. Its a dirty dirty habit but someone has to have it.