Things about me some may not know.. Nor do I feel I should take the time to tell each individual person I know…

But heck, why not? It’s 5am, and I’m restless and listening to country music! (that’s one you may not know)

So.. Here we go..

Let’s start out with the obvious..
The wee hours of my 9th birthday I lost my only real sibling to a drunk driver. I live my life the way I think he would have lived his if he had the chance. And I still remember the EXACT conversation my mom and aunts had with me to explain what had happened.

I’m a sucker for men with tattoos and piercing (very obvious).

I’m addicted to tattoos. And wish I could draw and be an artist. But, I can barely draw a heart without fucking it up.

My favorite colors are black, white, and dark red.

The first CD I ever owned was Pantera’s “Far Beyond Driven”

I share the same birthday with Vinnie Paul, Jonny Knoxville, and the twins from Good Charlotte. Though I don’t brag about the twins part. Lol.

I find humor in horror films and laugh a lot during them as if it were a comedy.

I’m short, but who hasn’t noticed that? But hey, at least I’m taller than my mom!

As stated above, I listen to country music when I’m in a calm mood, or want to relax and sleep.

If I could have amazing sex while getting tattooed, I probably would haha.

I LOVE road trips. Open road, blasting music and singing along with it with friends while laughing at each others horrible voice bring a smile to my face. And that was one really long run-on sentence.

When I was in the 5th grade I told my teacher I wanted to work for the INS just like my mom so I could deport people I didn’t like. Haha.

I love animals, but that’s pretty obvious.

I dropped out of high school because I was afraid to go back after being beaten up for liking metal music.

I received my GED within a week of quitting school.

Two weeks after that I began my first fulltime job at Starbucks on the C concourse of the PDX airport.

I quit Starbucks just as fast as I began. I had a horrible schedule, 4am to 2pm. And rude co-workers to boot.

My favorite people in my extended family live no where near me. Closest being in La Center Washington. The rest being in Southern California.. But I hope someday that they will find their way back to where they started, in Portland.

I have never been out of Oregon/Washington with either of my parents. I’ve always traveled alone.

Although I am almost 21, I still wonder why we have never taken a family vacation like all my friends. I remember all of my friends going on vacations with families. Friends bragging that their parents took them to Disneyland. I have never experienced that with my parents. My Aunt Norma took me instead for my 13th birthday.

I was in child counseling for 3 years, and it didn’t help anything haha.

I was teased  nonstop as a child. Through kindergarten until I quit high school. And I still hold it with myself to this day.

I love airplanes.

Water is like a drug to me. I love swimming, boats, rivers, lakes, fishing, oceans.. You name it.

I’m very adventurous but at the same time I like to kick back.

Some may say I like others to feel sorry for me, but deep down I just want to know someone cares.

I have issues within myself I need to work out, but who doesn’t?

I love Seattle. (Inside joke with Danny; What hurts the most, is eating burnt toast) lol.

One day, hopefully soon.. I want to find a band willing to take a girl on tour. I want to experience what all my male friends have. Just because I have tits and vagina doesn’t mean I can’t survive with a van full of penis. Don’t let one girl ruin it for the rest. That was your bad judgment for taking the one that ruined it all out on the road with you. Not mine.

I went to New York in March of 06’. And I fucking loved it. I wish I could have stayed longer.

…I also cried sitting in front of my gate waiting to come home because I didn’t want to leave.

I have a very deep dark secret only three people in this world know. Shaun, Kyle and an ex I no longer speak with.

I played softball for 13 years (roughly). Until I was kicked off my team for throwing a bat at my coaches nuts for talking shit about my mom. Oops.

I’m a night owl, but that’s pretty obvious.

I don’t have many girl friends, but wish I did. I don’t find them very trustworthy. But the ones I do have, I cherish.

If it were up to me I’d be at the beach every weekend of every week.

I wish I had a father-daughter relationship. The kinds you see on TV and such. But I know that will never happen.

Whenever I get married, I will not have my father walk me down the aisle. I’d rather have one of my brothers friends do it.

Whenever I get the courage to pop out a child or two.. I already have the names picked out (I better find an understanding guy haha).. Allie Elizabeth or Allen Michael.

I’m sad I’ll never be a real Aunt.
I’m the second youngest of a crap load of cousins. That doesn’t include 2nd cousins (my cousins kids). Jayleen is the youngest at 13. And I believe Donny is the eldest.. And I don’t even want to guess how old he is.. 40 something I believe. Yikes haha.

My mom is the youngest of 7 kids. And I wish I could have had that many siblings.

My father figure never completed middle school. And believes since he struggled in life, I should too. (and yes, he’s my real father)

I would kill for a proper good-bye with my brother.

When I was younger I tried to drink a whole bottle of Nyquil in hopes I wouldn’t wake up.. But all that happened was I puked and slept a lot.

Before I die.. I want to live in California. And go to Japan and Europe. Getting a passport first may help haha.

The day before I started middle school I sliced my elbow open all the way to the bone on a sheet metal shelf. I yelled so loud my neighbors came over to check on us. I kicked a male nurse in the nuts for wanting to give me stitches. I went home with vicodin and butterfly stitches instead =] I win! Ha.

I also punched a swim instructor at YMCA in the nuts when I was 4 for want to put me in 5 feet of water to see if I could swim. Hello, why would I need the instructors if I already knew? My mom withdrew me from the class and I didn’t learn how to swim until I was 7 or 8 and haven’t stopped since!

When I was 3 years old I told my mom she was a bitch. Short story time!! She spanked me and put me in the corner and I turned around and said “NO!” so she did it again.. That time I turned around, made my little hands into fists, turned bright red, started shaking, and yelled “YOUS A BITCH!!” My brother fell off the couch and peed himself from laughing so hard. My mom had to go outside to laugh.

I can still draw the EXACT layout of the child hood house I grew up in on 85th and Kelly. And I know exactly where my dog is buried in that yard. Ew. 15 years later haha. Gross.

I wish I drove so I could go spend time with my brother by myself and let out emotions I’m afraid to in front of my mom.

Having said that, I have NEVER cried in front of anyone. And if I have it was because I was injured, not emotional tears.

I’m a clutz. I trip going UP stairs. Haha.

Although I have A LOT of cousins.. I’m only close with one of them, Haley.. And she lives down in LA =[. Maybe hell will freeze over and she’ll move up to Portland when she gets older. Doubtful but a girl can wish!

I highly dislike most of my cousins for the way they’ve treated me just because I’m younger.

I find beauty in the ugliest things.

I’m afraid to verbally express myself in person. Especially with touchy subjects and emotions.

When I was younger I made a promise to myself to NEVER follow in my fathers foot steps as a parent.
I remember when I was around 7 years old I would cry curled up in bed with my moms shirt on and holding a teddy bear saying “I want my mom I want my mom” over and over because she was at bingo and my dad was treating me like shit.. Btw, that was another run-on sentence =]

My brother always teased me for sleeping naked when I was a kid. Joking around about what would happen if the house was on fire and I ran outside naked lol. Thankfully that never happened.

Allen (brother) and I have different fathers. His passed away a year after he did.

I’m sad in a way I never got to meet my Grandma (my mom’s mama). And sad I didn’t get more years with my Grandpa. From what I remember he was an amazing funny smartass =] maybe that’s where I get it! Haha.

I’ve never been in true love. Maybe someday.

I want to live in Downtown PDX someday soon after school.

My dream car is sitting in my neighbors garage haha. A 1969 Chevy Chevelle SS.. Drooooooooool. And I would love to buy it from him haha. Who has a spare $10,000? Lol.

When my mom was in labor with me.. She lived with my father and aunt pam in sellwood. My aunt and father went out drinking the night before. My moms water broke around 1am.. For hours she walked around the house with balls of yarn in her palms so she didn't put her finger nails through her palms. She went to wake my dad up around 4am and he told her "Let me take a shower and get ready". He fell asleep in the bathtub, more like passed out. He finally got up and dressed around 6am. My dad at the time had a huge lifted bronco.. My mom, being in labor and not being able to get up into the truck.. he took my aunts mustang instead. While my dad still had his keys, my aunt and brother had no way to the hospital. They finally got to the Sunnyside hospital in Clackamas at 7am.. I was born at 7:08am and my brother was the first to hold me.. (they took a cab haha).


Okay, well I think that’s enough for now.. More added when I can think of them =]