well i'm very cold except for my waist becaue of the laptop. i'm up really early... what the fuck. its either i cant sleep or i sleep too much i ate a lot of pizza last nigth adn it was very good geez i realy like that cheese stuff i alos like how bad i am at typing especially when i'm not looking. i feel like i misspell simple words more often thn bigger ones lets go back into the past mani was a loser i don't understand how i worked back then i had these crazy perceptions of everything and i often puposely ignored reality but reality is subjective i suppose so whatever i make mine will be mine regardless of its accuracy it kinda reminds me of religion in a way it doesn't make any sense to follow those fairy tales now but my god i suppose pople need someting to cling to in an insane world well at least insane to them most cant wrap their mind around what it means to be mad becuaee it seeems that everyone i smad and thats the big secret there i gave it away now give me a cookie ben gave me a sketch of asuka langley sohryu today and i love it i wonder what i'll wear todayi wonder what i'm even doing today i wonder when mojack is going to get online i woner when i'm going to eat something becuse i feel very hungry but i think i'm more tired right now for some reason i wonder why i think this helps i wonder if i'll ever be sane and happy because for some reason adn even in my head i can't stop questioning myself and everything i do i'm warmer now and it feels better but its made me more tired............................................