I can't begin to describe the past few weeks. First, my stepmother passed away two weeks ago. She was only fifty years old. I spent several days with my father. I was a tragic time, but it was good to see all of my family again. There were a lot of people that I hadn't seen in years at the funeral service. My sister, Bethany, also came to the service. This was the first time (and only the second, altogether) in ten years that my sister and father had seen each other. A few days later, my mother and father sat and talked for the first time in around twenty-two years, aside from a handful of conversations they've had about me. I was relieved to see so much healing taking place.

This past weekend, I attended my first Smashing Pumpkins concert. I've waited thirteen years to see them live. It was well worth the wait. The show was absolutely amazing. I had seen Billy Corgan with Zwan in 2003, which was awesome, but it wasn't the same. Those weren't the songs I grew up on. The music of The Smashing Pumpkins has been the soundtrack to my life for many years. These songs have been with me through sorrow, tragedy, bliss and love.

Next up, the election. It all comes down to one single day of voting madness. Needless to say, I'll be up all night awaiting the news of Obama's presidency. It's very sad that his grandmother had passed away this morning. What could possibly be more sad than a grandmother's passing just a day before her grandson is elected leader of the free world?

What could possibly happen next? If McCain is elected, it could be a mass exodus to Canada and Mexico. Let's hope it doesn't come down to that. Get out and vote, damnit!