I am tired y'all.  I am just tired as hell seeing the environment going to hell in an asbestos filled hand basket.  I mean, really!

For the past few years I have been learning about more organic, green alternatives and natural ways of living.  So now, I feel guilty if I litter or if I throw away plastic products because I think of how my God-kids' (or my own kid's) livelihood will be effected from the choice(s) I made.  I mean it is really bothering me.  No, matter what position/job I accept....I am always talking about green this or green that in the workplace or trying to implement some type of initiative there.   That is telling huh? 

So, I had a great idea last week after my real estate assignment with the temp service ended.  If you don't mind I will keep the idea quite until the it has fully developed !  Anyway, I know a person that I want to have on my team because he knows this particular business upside down.  


Now, he and I have emotional history.  We had feelings for each other, but he said he wasn't in a good place.  I knew he wasn't, so after a life or death incident (on his part), I cussed him to hell and back for being irresponsible....  (I think I've mentioned it in a blog before, but I am not going to go find it in the archives) I think he is still feeling the effects from the verbal lashing I gave him 5 years ago.   How do I know?  He told me, but supposedly it was a good thing, he was able to reflect and learn from it.  Good, Right?  No, because I think he lied and isn't able to heal from the wounds.  I had never, NEEEE-VER, EV-ER talked to him in a hateful way, I had NEVER raised my voice, and NEVER turned my back on him.  I only gave him affirmations and confirmations.  But, In that particular instance I was hot times 2 to the 1000th power!!!      He wasn't ready to see my "foot up in yo' azz" side, but I hated what he did and I let it go....ON PAPER and on the PHONE.
Now, I don't know if I should include him or not because I don't need someone who can't separate business from personal.  I'm trying to holla at him about business.  I think, that he thinks I want to holla about personal isht.  I mean the show will go on with or without him. It's just that I might have to make the executive decision to leave his azz alone and start from scratch on my research.....SIGH.

Basically, I feel some type of way because I may have to start from the beginning of my research.  LOL....

I am V the Monk is Resting....