break has been going great. i really want to believe everyone, and just trust people without having it think what happens if it isnt true. i want to take a chance on certain people, but i have the feeling im going to be left standing there alone. ive heard the good and bad about people, but gullible me only sees the good. i love the new people ive made friends with. i seriously couldnt be happier with them. i just wish they would all sit and look at one another because they are all spinning around and forgetting to look at what they are doing and hurting. ive listened to so many peoples problems and im the type who tells you everything. i trust easily and i wear my heart on my sleeve. im truely what you see is what you get. im completely honest. i just wish some of the things i tell you, you wouldnt make me want to regret it. i care too much. and theres too many things in my life right now. all i know is that once again, i can truely just lay myself out there and someone accepts it, and i miss having that feeling. but things are starting to repeat just like they have before, and i want out before it gets messy, but i keep coming back.

i utterly left standing in the middle of this, and i want you to see what you are doing.