So i've been stuck with this answer of fuck it.
of back to zero.
Of contradictions masked by desire.
My questioning glances ask why.
And all i have for them is because. por que, i feel it.

I feel it all over and inside my body.
for one.
for every moment.

but i forgot to question my answers.

why?
Why is it just because. why is just because good enough this time?

Why do i feel love?
is it because It's one of a kind?
is it because its the first?
is it because i am blind?
is it because of the thirst?

is it because we played such a beautiful few rounds?
is it because abandonment comes like nausea, back for more when you least expect it?

im questioning this answer, because for onc it's not good enough to just say because.
its not good enough to just feel...
im not trying to force love to be logical or rational,
but im forcing myself to be kinder to my heart this time.

and think, and question before you use because i feel it as your last excuse for making an action.

it was the only way i knew how, and now im using new tools.

g'day

B the G