i feel like every person i have grown close to is drifting away. this is practically my senior year of high school all over again-- only this time, kevin didn't push anyone away-- i did.

to add to things, everyone i lub is either moving away or going back up north before school starts up again. my sister has moved out to Denton, TX to attend UNT. i probably won't see her 'til march rolls on by, but i think i can wait since it's just around the corner. daniel x is probably already back in san antonio, rita goes back wednesday, and i haven't heard much from little daniel (i miss you >:/).

i don't really speak with any of the people i used to hang out withfrom last year. this sounds pretty bad but i have either lost interestin being their friends or i just don't make up enough effort to go outto see or hang out with these people. the only effort i can give justgoes out to only a selected few, which involve a new co-worker friendfrom target, their friends and a very musically talented friend.
 with others, i just can't muster up the will to even make conversation with them. i either find them completely dull and boring or i for some reason become so intimidated by them that i feel that i bore them, or have nothing to offer them.

there are other people i would like to see from the "group" but they are always working or don't have a reliable source of transportation. I don't have any source of transportation, and now that crystal has gone up north, i will probably find it much harder to find rides to school and work. i NEED to get my licence. all i really need to work at is my parallel parking. i got down pretty much everything else, so hopefully i can go and take care of that. i will also need to save up for my own car and school since my parents can't help me out this semester. i will need to also find another job bc i am not even getting enough hours to work. i hate you, target. soooo much

speaking of target, i do not enjoy working there one bit. i feel off working there.

le sighhhh.
subject change:

things i would like:
new movies
new hobbies
more new friends and friendly faces
no more confusion
my lost blank cd-r's
instax
chalangalangin' w/ricky :[
a lighter
no more pulling off all-nighters
no more eating disorder
more working out and staying fit
and most of all
i need to hear his voice.