Hey y'all sock it to me,
I hope you're doing damn well. Christmas is the happiest time of year for me usually. The sun is out, it's warm, people are happy, shopping occurs with best friends. This year it's been cold as fuck, rainy, my friends are off somewhere, and I have fucking tonsilitus.
Some awesome holiday this has turned out to be so far!?
The few months I'm sposed to have to be relaxing and enjoying life before the YEAR OF HELL seem to have been ruined.

What's more so is I have no idea what I'm doing for NYE, I have my entire adult life to be sitting at home with family or going out for dinner, but so few years to go out and party. So let me know what's happening guys?

Ah I'm sorry I feel like everytime I write a blog it's because I'm sad...Well I guess this is just one outlet for me. I said today I need someone who is a major suck up, so I can bitch to them and they'll act like they care. Thing is- I can tell if someone's faking their sympathy, I was born doing it. I am never satisfied telling someone something unless I know they truly give a damn.

So here's my part to bitch: A year or two ago I was at a low time in my life and was getting stepped on. I feel like I'm at this point again. I am getting so used to being let down- that all I expect is to be let down. Tonight a friend of mine invited me out to exchange gifts and I got my clothes ready and then felt like there was no hurry to get ready. I felt as if I wasn't really going to need to leave the house so I didn't get ready. My friend called back up and cancelled on me. It was as if I already knew that I was going to be let down all over again.

All this letting down has made me feel bitter and lonely. Seems like everyone has an excuse not to see me. Everyone has an excuse to not invite me out. I want to say how hurt I am by what's going on, but under the circumstances I don't know whether I have the right to. I'm treating this as karma getting back at me for ignoring my friends at times over the past few years.

You know I say the phrase "I FEEL______" so often. Feeling is one of the main traits of my personality.
ENFP:
-Extravert
-Intuition
-Feeling
-Percieving

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Goodnight.
All I want for Christmas is You.