Yeah, no hands, right? It's been a roller coaster ride this past week. Great events worth noting, if you will.

1- I am still trying to cope with the drunk person (people). Why? Haven't I put in enough of my time and energy and emotions into dealing with addicts BEFORE? I feel certain that I have. This person is not a partner of mine, thankfully... Could that be considered a personal step forward - that at least this person isn't my partner this go 'round?

2- I'm still trying to process events of the past. Things from my formative years up to my life now. I can only bite off small pieces at a time, but at least I can still chew! LMAO

3- My grandfather passed away Friday morning. We weren't close, but it's a complicated relationship in MY head. I am coming to understand how he was and was not able to be a grandpa to me and my brother or sister, but yet, his last wife's grandchildren called him Grandpa. I have never known the kind of man he was. The last time we even spoke was several years ago, and I think he had been drinking when I called. It was a very awkward conversation. I hope now, from his view from beyond the veil, that he can understand why I called him. I'm still trying to figure that one out, myself.

4- Norma and I volunteered to work the door at the Charm City Kitty Club last night. As such, we were able to go to the show for free. I had so much fun! The performers were great! My favorites were by the "anti-all-girl" band Mzery Loves Company. It's rock, it's soul and it's hip-hop and R&B. I enjoyed dancing in the aisle. I have learned a new phrase - "Jam out witcha clam out" !!! lmfao The other favorites were Rebecca Nagle (contortionist) and Eliza Blaze (fire-eater). This was my second show, so I'm hooked an' all about it. Next show- 10/2-3

5- I'm going to miss one of my best friends ever. She is moving to FL in July or August. It's a shock to my system, given that we have a rather complex history. We used to be partners, in fact. I'm so happy that we were able to salvage and heal from the demise of our relationship, to capture the things we both love in one another without the bias of our past. It took time. It took patience. It gave us both better perspective of ourselves and who we love. And now she's moving away. I don't when I'll see her again once she goes, or our pets. I'm going to miss her and the menagerie that was my life for several years.

I've never been one to mourn much - in any capacity. But I'm sure learning about grief now. I have so much better understanding now of how it feels to MISS someone or something. Gods, I hope it passes soon.