My Dear Friends,

My heart is saddened to write you this message.    Not for me but for the fact  I feel there is enough negativity in the world, so I try not to add more to your lives.  Unfortunately it seems that by keeping silent about the topic below I have done a grave disservice.    This blog is intended primarily for friends of mine who have been members of the Humanity Healing Ning Network.  Even though I will speak my truth to you here about my personal experience I am doing so only because others are being unjustly targeted as retaliation for my actions.

Let me begin at what I had hoped was the end even though I was well aware that normally when an Ambassador resigns from Humanity Healing (HH)  for any reason other than physical health,  HH has a history of lashing out in some form or fashion.

I could have easily claimed that because of my diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia  I was struggling far too much to maintain enough energy for my work load.  This would  have been true but not the real  reason why I chose to  quietly resign the positions that I had voluntarily held with HH.

The true reasons were that  I did not like the way the Owners of HH would often talk down to people  and I could not support the hypocrisy that I had observed behind the scenes.   I will not ask you to take one side or another and I am not trying to get you to leave HH.   I only ask that for those of you who recently received an email from  HH about my leaving their service you hear, this side of the story and make up your own mind.

During my year as Administrative Manager and an Ambassador for Humanity Healing (HH) I encouraged many to join with me there.  Among these were some of my dearest  friends who had already  become close spiritual family.  Like  any good family we are supportive of each other so they joined me there, some created groups, others became  major contributors and supporters, one translated the entire HH ning site into French and served as it’s administrator and one had planned on lending her notoriety in working for Peace.

Because of their Wisdom and Lifelong selfless service to our world, (sometimes at great cost to themselves)  I knew that they would be perfect candidates to  help fulfill the original dream  that began HH.   So I spoke to the HH creators  telling them of these individuals good works . After this  & upon being told to do so, I asked my friends if they would consider becoming Ambassadors.  ~   It was the founders  of HH that gave these positions to my friends.

As time past, working directly with HH cofounders (Liane and Chris) I became disheartened by their often unprofessional conduct.  Still ever the optimist, I looked for reasons to attribute their behavior and attitudes and tried to be a shoulder personally while professionally I tried to ease their burden by taking on as many duties as I was asked to do.

The proverbial last straw came when I read their replies to  another  Ambassador  in the  site's  private "Leadership Team" group.  At the time this group  was solely for Ambassadors and HH Ning Administrators (not including group administrators)  In a group discussion the co founders were ignoring requests from all ambassadors for some form of organizational structure to give the origination stability when they had to be away.  

Because of my close working relationship with the cofounders  I could easily recognize when they were twisting words and talking down to a member or an Ambassador ~ I know that most of you only really know me through the bulletins and blogs that I post  but I will not ever promote or support people thinking they are better than another because of their heritage or any other reason.

So  after talking with my husband  (or as he likes to be known.. “the storm behind the Rain“)  just to make sure I wasn't being  unduly emotional,  I gently resigned my positions with HH ning by leaving a simple resignation in the private "Leadership Team"  group and a slightly more detailed one to Chris and Liane in their private emails. ~  This for me was heartbreaking because I knew all of their personal struggles, I don't like to give up on people and I felt that I was having to relinquish my hope of future efforts toward that with them.  I turned off my computer and went to bed.

When Phoenix came into the "Leadership Team" group the next day and saw that I had resigned,  he quietly resigned as  a HH Ambassador also.    His wife Mistweaver also an Ambassador did not feel that a resignation in this group thread was necessary for her since her Bio had not yet appeared on the main HH website.

Phoenix continued to maintain his advanced meditation group  "The Light Circle" which also had a private setting.  ~  This private setting was reviewed by and approved of  from the beginning by the cofounders of HH (Chris and Liane)  and Liane was herself a member of this group.   Just to clarify  this,  at the time Liane joined this group she was using the main HH ning profile  but has recently begun using her RAK profile there.  

Mistweaver  continued  as administrator to the  group she had created, "Herbal Wisdom" until January 1st.    At which time she changed my status from a group member there to the administrator.   As her New Years resolution  she deleted her  HH  profile  and all of the entries she had made on groups automatically  left with her.  ~ 

Now even though I had resigned my positions with HH and probably because I tried to be so gentle and quiet about it.  ~ Chris (HH president) continued to express that they hoped I would change my mind and return. 

Rather than look within for the reasons that I had resigned, Chris and Liane chose to unjustly blame Phoenix and believe that he was the cause of  my decision or in some way had influenced my decision.   As you read me say earlier here,  he didn't even know I was going to resign until he read it in the private Administrative group thread.  The only person I consulted with about my resignation was my husband.

While  Chris maintained a quiet reserve Liane began writing angry letters to my private email address.

Here I should tell you that I am the mother of a young adult son born into this world with Bipolar disorder with rage and who has  Aspergers Syndrome.  ~  It has been my experience that the best way to deal with someone who is  experiencing a rage episode is to not respond but to quietly give them time and space to calm down, so I did not respond to Liane's  angry letters.   Unfortunately  her anger did not subside.  

After some time, Liane realized that Mistweaver (Phoenix’s wife)  had deleted her profile. So she wrote a letter to the members of Mistweaver’s group “Herbal Wisdom” telling that Mistweaver left the group and network and saying that if no one  stepped up to be the group administrator  the group would be deleted in 7 days.  It knew it was unlikely that Liane didn't know I was the group administrator,  but I gave her the benefit of a doubt.  However another member who was a major contributor to the group  on seeing this email decided to delete her profile.  ~  Of course when she did all of her topics were automatically deleted also.  I honored Mistweaver's request to remove the name and picture she had created for her group and then removed myself as part of the group.

On seeing this, Liane's rage  flamed  anew toward me effectively admitting that she knew I was the administrator of this group in emails. (which of course brings the question as to why  she was asking for someone to administrate it).    It just so happened though that the creator of  the Vegetarian Group who is the translator that I mentioned earlier and I were visiting at the time.  On seeing these events she deleted her group and her profile.


Liane also wrote to Mistweaver telling her that she had no rights to the name or picture for her group, because anything posted on Humanity Healing's ning network  automatically became Humanity Healing's  property. 

It was this last statement that promoted Phoenix (Mistweaver's husband) who is a distinguished artist and writer to delete his popular group “The Light Circle” because he did not want his words, artworks and meditations to be HH property.   He also deleted his profile.  

After all this I decided to delete my profile as well, enough was enough.   I wrote a farewell note to those of you on my friends list there,  telling  that I was deleting my profile and where to reach me and left the (HH) network.

This all would have been left unsaid had it not been for letters that  Chris and Liane began circulating to email boxes of their HH membership and yahoo group insinuating that  Phoenix's group  because of it's private setting was some kind of secret  rogue group - one which Liane herself was a member of .  This group was no more secret than any Myspace group with a privacy setting.    

I have already been quite needlessly threatened by Liane with Legal action should I say anything publicly.   So  It is likely that more retaliation  in some form or fashion will be publicly forthcoming toward me or toward any of the Ambassadors I have named here that also left HH.    Still as I sit here writing, I can not help but hold onto the hope that Liane’s original dream for Healing Humanity will ultimately come to pass..  

Sincerely  & with my Love,
~Rain

~*~