Crimson Coated

Without a spark,
Embraced by the dark

I lie in bed,
Erasing what you said

Obscurity... Indefinity...
How I've spent every night!

Wandering... Wondering...
Is anyone "all"-right?

Family, friends, goals, love
Such dreams are unrelated to sleep

Restlessly tired of
Any promises I couldn't keep

Questions... Decisions...
Hard to word, yet harder to ask

Physically... Emotionally...
Are you selling me a mask?

Is mine not good enough?
Does this glue make it rough?
Me and my motley disguise

Are you scarred or scared?
Treated wrong and despaired?
Filling voids with pointless guys

Shouldn't have to leave
because you can't believe
Why try to deceive?

Pushing away
Wanting only to stay
Victim of dismay