Please note this is still in the planning stage but an actual social life is within grasp!! Hope and I have decided that we need to actually start going out more - simply doing the school run every day isn’t enough and we’re driving ourselves nuts just staring at the same 4 walls and streets every day. So, we’ve decided to go to the cinema once a week or bowling or something similar - mum and dad have Hoppit once a week anyway so we don’t have to worry about being back in time for the end of school and for some strange reason J and Ellie are trusted with a key so they can let themselves in. It’ll be fantastic actually getting out more regularly and it’ll certainly make a difference to the usual doctors/school run trips.

Currently trying to sort out flights to see the inlaws at somepoint in May. It’s half term the last full week in May and Hoppit has got SATS throughout May so we’re probably going to go out halfway through the half term and come back the following weekend. Sounds daft only going out there for a week but as I’m going to ask mum to have all three of the little darlings and dad’s 70 it’d be pushing it to be out there for much longer! Plus a week is about as long as we can cope with the MIL before we start wanting to throw things! So, I’ve got a couple of months to lose a couple of stone in weight (OMG!) - hmmm, wonder how likely that is! Also means I’ve only got a couple of months till I can get more ink (YAY!!). Gonna have some dragonflies/ladybugs and a humming bird added to my lilies on my back and I know Hope is after something else but I’m not sure what - I know what she does want but I don’t know if we’ll have time to get it done. I think we’re going to end up flying Emirates - which will be pretty good, but we won’t know until we get it all booked.

Fi
xxx

Should you ever find yourself in Glendale, Newcastle, NSW, Australia pop into the Crossroads Tattoo Studio and get some ink - the guys there are amazing and seriously talented.

My latest piece of ink is by Brock (very shy man with warm hands and thighs) and it's a full custom piece, totally hand drawn.  I'm hopelessly in love with it and very, very happy.  Was a very surreal experience, took over an hour to get all drawn up and then another 4.5 hours for it to be completed.  Many a time I had to be propped back up on the chair as I was falling off while snoozing and I know I came to with a start on at least 2 occasions!!  There's something about the noise that sends me to sleep, works like the drill at the dentist - I always end up snoozing at the dentist.

Managed to totally embarrass myself by moaning like a whore whenever he rubbed Vaso into my back, it felt so damn good and I just know I was moaning and arching back into his hands - how embarrassing is that???  Especially as Hope was sitting in the other room waiting for me!  Still, not as embarrassing as when we were both singing to Love Shack on the radio!  Brock was doing the male bits and I was doing the female bits!!  Was bloody hysterical and definitely helped to pass the time.

I'm completely desperate to get back over there and get the damn thing finished though, just as he'd finished Brock mentioned loads of other little bits he could do to complete it and damn it! I want it done now!!!

Overall I'm a very happy bunny and can't wait for it to stop scabbing, there's still one very, very stubborn bit that won't quite peel.

As an aside - I'm still in absolute agony, fucking leg/back/hip hurts soooo much.  Basically I'm fucked from my knees to my shoulders and there's fuck all I can do about it until it heals of it's own accord.  Oh joy!  I'm walking slower than a dead snail at the moment and on Sunday I have to take J and Ellie bowling!!  Bowling!!  In my state??  Thankfully there's a bar there so I can drown my pain with some Jack.

Oooops!!  Didn't realise it'd been that long!

Where to start - I'm now almost half way through my degree, studying Criminal Psychology and doing pretty well with it.  I passed my law course at Christmas (no idea how) and have got a couple more months to go before I have 4 months off.  Can't wait for that - will be good to actually pick up a book for pleasure rather than for work.  Might actually be able to do some writing as well you never know, the world needs more of my random ramblings!!

The kids are doing really well, J is now 12 (OMG) and more than half way to his first black belt - he's loving TKD and doing bloody well, still gotta sort his knees out and we'll be happy.  Would help if he'd do his physio but try telling a pre-teen boy that he doesn't know best!

Ellie is nearly 10, my little girl isn't so little anymore.  She's a complete pain in the arse at times but can also be completely adorable - just depends on how hormonal she is.  Managed to make her cry within a few minutes the other day and all I said was 'are you sure you want to wear that dress?'.  Will keep my fingers to myself in future.

Hoppit, well what can I say - she's still got a mouth like a trucker and an attitude to match!  She's so damn funny when she falls over - all you hear is "fuck!  I'm alright!" and she's off again.

Obviously by now we've been to Australia and come back again :(  Seriously didn't want to come back, as you will have realised if you saw us on the planes back!  The kids managed really, really well on the flights considering they'd never flown before - Hoppit declared flying to be boring, which I suppose it is, and J and Ellie just played computer games the entire time.

We had a fantastic time over there, admittedly Hope's mother is a little nuts, but her dad is gorgeous, totally adorable.  We spent 4 great weeks sunning ourselves and generally leaving the stress and crappiness of the UK behind - it was amazing.  We were all so chilled out and then we had to come back :(

Since being back we've all been a little snuffly and sick and then monday I managed to completely fuck up my pelvis - all I did was bend over and something went snap!  Without going into details the moral behind this story is never multi-task and always sleep in your knickers!!

As a result of my injury and subsequent codeine 'incident' (never realised a codeine allergy left you with pins and needles all over your body - had tingling cheek bones and nose!- and shaking worse than a very shaky thing) I hurt like fuck and ache all over.  Took a short walk today which normally takes less than 10 mins, was almost 45 mins from leaving the house to getting back through the front door.  Doesn't help that Hope damn near had an accident laughing at me trying to get out of my chair yesterday.  Bitch keeps calling me gimp girl and sniggering at my best efforts to move.

Still, at least she's smiling - even if it is at my expense.

Till next time, hopefully it won't be anywhere near as long till my next post.

Fi xxx

Nothing terribly exotic or exciting just a chronic case of kidney issues and cystitis - OMG, can you say burning pain and throbbing in areas that aren't supposed to be burn or throb!!  I have been through many things, many many things but holy fuck this is by far the worst!

I'm tired, crabby, in extreme pain and very, very, very pissed off.  Can't concentrate on my writing enough to actually put down anything of any substance and I've totally abandoned my RL friends lately.  I am a bad friend :(

I am broke, in pain, drowning in hassle and aggravation but on the whole pretty damn happy - I must be a freak!

it's rained every day for the past 4 weeks and it's seriously time for it to stop - sick and tired of getting wet knickers every time I go out.

got divorced!!  finally!  happened very quickly really considering the time it took to actually get there - 11 years, 8 months and 29 days of marriage all over in less than 10 minutes.  Still at least I'll never forget the day of the divorce as it was Hope's birthday!!  Chris won't forget either as it was the day before he got married again!!  Nothing like leaving it to the last minute.

The studies are still killing me but it's all my own fault - too damn disorganised for my own good.  MUST try harder with that.

Got the new OPERATOR album on Monday (Soulcrusher) - it's fantastic, well worth the 2 year wait and it should be a huge hit.  The quality is exceptional and the guys sound amazing together.  All we need is for them to hit Europe and we're sorted!

My dad's not well - he's got a compressed fracture of the 4th vertebrae from the bottom and is really struggling.  He's coming up for 70 and seriously needs to start taking care of himself.

Hoppit's surgery went really well  - she now has full field of vision in both eyes and is no longer classed as legally blind.  Ellie is moving up a school in September and she's so damn excited.  The school has a fantastic dyslexia support program so we're hoping she'll continue to do well.  J, well he's being a total shit but that's nothing new!  He did manage to score 3 school years ahead in his exams this year which we're thrilled about, he worked so hard and deserves the results he got.

Hope, well she's still fantastic - still loving her and still enjoying her living with me.  She might be a little weird but she's my little weirdo which makes it alright!

Knee is still fucked, seeing my surgeon in a couple of weeks so will hopefully have a date for actual surgery then, anyone know the recovery time for a patellaectomy??

Till next time guys,

Fi xxx

Still not divorced!!  Getting closer though, we have a financial agreement worked out (finally, I'll be getting some cash) and just need to get the financial order sorted out then it's on to the decree absolute.  Doubt we'll get it done in the time frame idiot wants though so he's going to have to cancel yet another wedding.  Somehow can't see it all happening before Friday!!

Studying is killing me, just can't find the time what with the kids and everything else going on - plus my extreme lack of willpower which is pretty much ruining my efforts to work.  I have an assignment that's due on Friday (which is going pretty well) and some fiction to write for a publication by the end of the month.

It was fathers day today in the UK - as usual my brother didn't bother, my sister sent dad some crappy card that she bought at a flea market by the looks of things (she earns a fucking fortune but never spends it on anyone) whereas I made my daddy a trifle.  He loved it!  Made the cake for the bottom and everything.

J and Ellie both passed their gradings - so proud of them, if J sorts out his nerves he'll be passing with distinction every time.  They've got a competition next weekend (have to be up at 5am) and with any luck they'll come back with medals.  Both of them are in the patterns competition (Ellie doing Saju Jirugi and J doing Do-San) and then J is also sparring.  He got a Bronze last time so fingers crossed he keeps it together well enough to do himself proud.

We're supposedly going to be flooded out next week, the town that is not us personally but we'll just have to wait and see - very much doubt it'll come to anything but any excuse not to have to get up to take the kids to school works for me!!

Have to have surgery on my knee within the next few months, just waiting for a date to come through.  With any luck it'll be during the schools summer break so I won't have to worry about the school run - almost certainly need my knee cap removing which is seriously painful and bloody inconvenient.  Hopefully once that's out of the way I'll be back on my feet properly and will be able to move around without a horrible grinding noise and worrying about my knee cap shifting if I put pressure on it in the wrong place.

Will update soon,

Fi xxx

Still not divorced, hubby is still trying to marry someone else, Hoppit is having surgery on thursday, I've an assignment due Friday which I haven't even started yet (!) and dad went arse over tit down their stairs yesterday - stupid fool, he's nearly 70 and needs to start taking care of himself more.

Will be back at some point, just not sure when!

Fi xxx