"...chalk on his
fingers,
ash between
his knucks,
snot on his
sleeves match
the glue in his desk,
left-over lasagna
found a hitchhike
ride on his chucks.
he look at me like
i know where
he'll land in 4 years
cause we crawl
threw the same
cabbage patch,
but my baggage
far more than the
average,
so his back pack
the only carry on
luggage until he
grow man hair on his sacks.
oxy-moron-ic>
he got such
innocent pupils
but innocence
in peoples far
gone like sonnets.
and i wanna
be his big brother,
but look how
all the other ones
turned out,
my track record
proceeds me,
and if math
adds correctly,
i'm ineligible cause
of last quarter...ouch
so i'm just there
to make sure the
principle dont end
up knowing him
on a first name basis,
but the principal is,
he running the same
field of dreams i
gave up on,
so i'm watching
how he runs his bases.
when he grow
up he say he
wanna be just like
me,
but i advise him
contrary,
hero's are located
in the comic books
&
character found in the
dictionary.
i hurt people i love,
i tell him,
and i dont' know
if you wanna do
that for a living,
he said,
but to who much
is required,
isn't as equal given?
his pockets filled
with tardy notes,
but the absence of his
father dont' need
to be documented,
docked points from birth,
but [M]om x [C]ourage
squared enough math
he understand to
believe he's the greatest
theory invented.
barely mediocre,
but hardly nor-mal,
2 sides like Harvey,
he been dropped
like service
but not a dent in
his mo-bal (mobil)
and he just a kid
from the streets of
mo-val,
and as bad as life is now,
i just wanna tell him,
it gets more vile.
he put me on a pedestal
if he only knew
what kinda stuff i been framed for,
no plague,
just plagued,
all dogs are of a different pedigree,
some stray
just cause others wear a leash
it don't mean they obey.
his smile never caused
grief,
false hope,
or insult to injury,
so he don't
wear it forbiddingly,
but the bidding be,
much higher
when the stakes
larger,
stocks cobbler,
do or die,
or become
martyr.
his heart
never been
heavy enough
to weigh,
but he ain't
got to step
on a scale
to see life
ain't always
gone his weight.
he makes me a bracelet
from class room
construction paper
and lose ends he
collected,
says as long as
you wear this,
no matter what
hall or wing of his
campus i walk-on
i'm thorughly protected....
he expect the world
from me,
and i wish,
i could give him everything
that's still of life in it,
but he just an example,
what good a man can be,
when he realizes no
matter how much he
stumbles or how dark the
light bulb has been,
it takes but a candle
to re-kindle the light
thats flickers but
never flies away within it..."
-j

"...i had a talk with you,
i opened up
arteries
that closed
like jobs
in our
modern economy's.
confessions
i told,
my ace
in the hole,
from heartbreak
to whore,
but alas,
amore
vincit
omnia,
cause love
conquers all.
my broken record,
on repeat,
you soaked in
seconds,
bathtub wasn't
clean,
the ring around
the tub
was the
pedestal i
refused to take
her off,
and the thin line
between love & lust
that you
double douched
but never crossed.
my sword danced
with your shield,
but you were no
knight's tale,
heard her piano notes
during our night tale,
and when we could
have circled bases
i wasn't man enough
to pin our coffin with
9 inch nails.
awkwardly
we laid
like sardines,
as i pondered free
if she was in
similar
predicaments
with other fish
in the sea...
all the while
our eyes
meet at a
standstill,
lips wet
from the
sample,
body
revved for
the gear
uphill,
if love in the
air,
what was this
gas up here?
we re-treated
like
couples,
but even
tails of a
feather
get
ruffled,
carried bags
under my
eyes like
duffles,
added another
seat to this
2 passager,
call this ride
a carpool...
liked our
convo,
you opened
doors
in my condo,
that had
master locks
on top of
slave locks
to bondage
of our cottage
you goldy locks.
you got a
taste our our
porridge,
sat in her
chair,
ate from
her plate,
laid on her
pillow,
our water ran
dry but
dandelions don't
require water
to flourish.
never intended
to use or
confuse you,
but men tend
to act without
lack of a better
word, their
Rubik's cube.
conveniently,
i partook
of your
parfait,
sweet as
strawberry
pistachio,
but my
peach fuzz
was
faithful
to her
mixed fruit
sorbe,
and even
with
mixed feelings
the road lead
me back
to the paths
we crossed
that i promised
my heart never
be caught dead.
your care
came tru
secondary
warnings,
your body
melted icebergs
global
warming,
but truth be told,
when sun rose
on your face
all i saw was
eyes that
resembled
her morning.
condolences
to any part
of you that
became
black roses
in the healing
of what we
were,
but keep this
between us,
from me,
to her..."
-j

"...
her smile only gets
larger,
even when life
gives strikes
she run bases
like Dodgers,
how dare she
look
star-struck
when her
heart
gets
pot-lucked,
cause
she
factor
happiness
love factory
multiplying
laughs, a must
she is the
product..
by the bonfire
or under
the spot-
light,
she light
up each spot
like she
got
LA gear
shocks
under each
toe,
9 lives
feline
when
she catwalk
can't lie
females
would die
for her
dynamite
cause TMZ
watch
her TNT
lights,
camera,
ghost-ride
cruise-control
every stride
of her stroll
square inch
she
explode.
she steps in
the
name
of love
so
literal
wings
of a
feather,
so aerial
got a
birds eye
view of
her nestle...
no
cookie
dough
she
so raven,
as quoted
never
more,
you condense
your feelings
well,
too Virgo,
immense
sun beams
in your smile,
or shingle,
impress
with ease
hard to find a
counterpart
with adequate
needs
so single!
we gone
for the
winter,
Jupiter
bound,
cupid
shuffle
na,
cupid
shot feel
straight
from his
bow,
and tribal
as your
ink is,
we
ani-morph
so we
liable our
own
species,
in line for
more
pieces,
fly beyond
NASA
space ships.
ya eyes
near
gentle
as your
touch,
no
mirage
dear,
i'm clear
as the
picture
you
paint
no brush,
we
comm.
in a
cypher,
and when
i'm with you,
we
calm
in a
crises,
we gone
like the
viper
cause
since i met you
so gone
are our
vices
love notes
heard em,
moments,
spured em,
pass ports,
board em,
anonymously
from him...

-j

"...duck em
&
dodge em
before
the cam
froze em,
just eye's
still art
but i's
stood out,
pic-shy
no
pixar,
blink-proof,
no
peep show,
no
poppin
off
with the
razzi,
calm
before
the flash
set off
a kami
kaze...
adjourn
any
fuji film
add more
drama
to the
freak show
he in...
admission
free,
they broke
& enter
my dorm
room just
for a
peak,
just information
or their
justification
for the
news break
scandal
from day break
to night mares
on ELMS street...
was it
make up
or mac
homo
or fag,
attack
then
questions
asked,
blade
to his
face
remove
wings
from his
back,
trial
& sentence,
a trail
most men
couldn't
walk with my
shoe's lace...
close
to
a freshman
drop-out,
didn't have
2 close
my eyes 2
black out,
blast street
always,
entertainment
at a probate,
1 day,
heavy
traffic,
1 way,
release
therapy
verge
of run a way,
but i'd die 4
i tap out,,
planes take
off against
wind not
with it on
the runway...
soar
past
conformity,
death row
from
sororities,
rowed the
boat merrily
till dreams
flowed off
short
stories
& into
the life
i showed off
so ordinaries
could witness
bicariously...
flash em
&
cheese em,
camera guy
if you need
em,
why he
take so many
pho-tos?
cause
tragedy
into
triumph
is what
i promo,
capture
each
moment
4 every
second
i post
poned it,
show
teeth
not
defeat
for the
short time
i condoned
it,
kodak
coat-ed,
swagger
load-ed,
catch me
if you can,
gingerbread
code-ed,
murder,
wrote-it,
advice 4
life,
OWN IT
greatest
revenge= just
prevail so
in this tug-a-war
i pull,
past the fame,
beyond the glory,
enjoy the prize,
i just wanna be
successful..."

-j