I cannot believe it. Am I too emotional? I should use the word "amazing" to another person. Hmph...interesting

One year later I am here again with different mood and mind. I probably was in love with that guy one year ago but I do not really think I was in that state of mind any more. He is the one who makes me sick. I am not trying to be a bytch I just need freedom. I would admit that my intention was not completely pure but with time passed by I would fallen for him alittle bit.

Anyway now I am with this amazing guy who I will think of everyday. Eventhough some people will say he does not deserve I would follow my heart. I am not sure if it is another affair or what.

I am a little confused.

I am liking you more and more and I just wanna do what couple usually do. I wanna see you everyday, I wanna hold your hands all the time, I would make love to you everytime you want, I wanna sleep beside you and look into your eyes. Then I couldn't help crying. It's so beautiful but still leading to an end. Honey please, don't let you cry every night. I am becoming sensitive.

I really dare to use LOVE...it means too much that I can't say that to you. How much I like you even I know the seperation will be the result. I have no idea how we will be when I stand in the international airport. When will we be together next time? Or should we not meet for more? I am too selfish to have you involved. I should not take your request haf of year ago. I should not treat you so bad. Baby how I miss you even your now by my side. You said that you wanna be with me for forever and how I wish that is a lie because I would rather let myself hurt I don't want you to be hurt even for a little. Sweetie how will I tell you the truth? How I wish you could lie to me. I like you very much honey.

nothing special, just say that am turnning 21 today.