This will serve as observations of my life and my beliefs and thoughts as a Christ follower and a devoted follower of my lord and saviour Jesus Christ. This is something I am opening up to all of you to know that not all Christ followers are perfect. We are people as well. God will not take away all your hardships, but he will be there for you every time to wrap his loving arms around you and comfort and tell you, you will be ok for you have him in your heart. As long as you have him, you lack nothing. I hope this will allow you to see if nothing else what I see on my walk with Christ. My conversations with Him and my understanding of his undying love and compassion for us all.
The newer posts will be on top and the older ones below. I decided to put this in the category of Life because although it does have to do with religion and my philosphy, people tend to get wierded out by the idea of religion and really what I'm posting here is about Life and what Life has shown me.
POSTED AUGUST 17TH, 2008
I am going back to school. I turned down a position last yea to move to Tennesse and work as a pastor. This time it's different. I am finihing up the process and am enrolling in Calvary Chapel Bible College. I'll be majoring in Biblical Studies and Theology. Getting my Associates in Theology then possibly moving and enrolling at another University to get my Bachelors. I'm doing this all at my own pace. I feel compelled to bring mor people to the heart of Jesus. Christ offers Salvation, what better gift to offer
POSTED AUGUST 17TH, 2008
Life isn't always as perfect as we'd like it to be. But we need to make due with what we have and regardless of our past downfalls thereis one persn I have learned is always there for me to tell me I am still loved and part of him. I recently wrote a song for my next album titled "Dandelion in Heaven". I'm sure many of us feel this way. I see myself sometimes just wreaking havoc in God's garden. There's roses and violets and lillies and I'm a dandelion. I'm a weed but somehow he stil invited me into his place. We all at some point feel as though we are bad and are poisoning those around us. But I need to believe that we all have a purpose here.
If I'm here it's because my part is not done. When God is finished using me I'll die but so long as I'm breathing it's because God still has a purpose for me to fulfill. I've had the good fortune of doing so much in my life so far. And I know He was on my side the whole time. Now more than ever especially with me starting work on my worship album I see my purpose is far from over.
I recently heard a great sermon by Pastor Gordon of San Jacinto Assembly (formerly of SJA). And it opened my eyes to so much. I make it a point to be picky about who I hang with and I now know why. In life it's important to see past people's vices, addicitons, tattoos, piercings, sexual attractions. As Christians we are to be used by Christ. If we can't see past people and see the person and not the character trait, Gos will never be able to use us. I see people, and so many people do not.
I differentiate in that I know what it's like to not be seen, so I make it a point in life to see people and lobe them. Love them unconditionaly. Because who they are means nothing when put side by side with who they are in Christ.
I challenge all of you to see people. Open your eyes, see past their issues and see the person and love the person. Even God ate with the prostitutes and tax collectors. Who then are we to seperate ouselves from God's love for all his children....
POSTED DECEMBER 23RD, 2007
I had a hard time this year with coming to terms with both my life as a Christ-follower and my attraction to the same sex. It's very difficult coming from a Catholic upbringing, walking away from the church then returning to a Christian more Pentecostal faith.
I recently came to realize that I learn more and grow more as a follower of Christ when challenged. I was very much so challenged this year in finding out more about homosexuality as it relates to myself and the Christ following faith. I'll be honest, it isn't difficult coming to church and belonging to a group of shutouts and persecuted. It's easy when it's a question of race or sex, but a question of sexuality, you're pretty much screwed because even the fellow shutouts close the doors to you.
Within the confines of your own spiritual family you find out people's true colors. I was told I was disgusting and not wanted and not a child of God. WOW!!! This from a Christian, a fellow brother. Which leads me to this. If this is what a Christian consists of, I am proud to be a follower of Christ because it's obvious anyone off the street can be a Christian, but to truly follow christ and grow in him is a ever changing growth. I was told also that god didn't want me in his family if I was not reformed. Hmm, does this not shut out EVERYBODY. Everyone has their something to deal with they should be reforming from. If god only wanted perfection not a damned person would be in church. And I say damned instead of damn because as human beings we are stupid individuals who are constantly damning ourselves. But see this is the thing. The word of the Lord tells us he forgives. HE FORGIVES. It's our fellow brothers and sisters who have taken the liberty of becoming these judgemental pompous pricks. It's them who are selfrighteous and adopt this holier than thou attitude. They are the ones having difficulty with forgiveness. I have learned not to care about anothers oppinions, because I know God forgives and Jesus saves. My fellow brothers in the Lord are the ones who condemn. And what is condemnation really rather than a selfgratifying action in which people offset the fact that they themselves have fallen short of the grace of God by rolling it onto another. I am not a stupid person which is why I have prayed so much for these people who I "disgust".
How can we really be part of Christ's family when we are disgusted by our own, when we can't handle the fact that people are different. I took it upon myself to look into the Bible and have found that NOWHERE in the word does Jesus address the fact of homosexuality as it is seen today. In the times of Sodom and Gomorrah it can be seen as a very machismo thing they were doing in raping the men. It was not as it is today. Where nowadays homosexual relationships are based on love and compassion, and commitment and the desire for a reltionship. In the story of S&G it was very much to humiliate and exert power over others. There is a saying in Mexico "el puto es el que se deja" translated "the faggot is the one who lets himself"... sound familiar. It was all a very machismo thing. And sure it still exists some places but not as it did in biblical times. When I am in a relationship with a male it is not as it was in S&G.
Yes I know man strayed from the natural and went to the unnatural. But the natural for some is the same sex. Straying from the natural for me would be to be with a woman. well not really as I'm attracted to both sexes. But you get the point.
Sexual perversions do not apply specifically to homosexual behaviour. I think sexual perversions can translate to masturbation to pornographic material, to use of sexual toys, to fantasies play, to any position that is not military position, to whipped cream all of that is a perversion if you wanna get technical.
Romans chapter 2 verses 1-3 states."You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. Now we know that God's judgment against those who do such things is based on truth. So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God's judgment?"
There it is. We have hypocrites in the church all the time and have had for years. The homosexual people have been beaten down by what one's ideas of church theology are. The word homosexual didn't even appear in the bible til I believe the early 50s. So what was it before than. I know homosexual marriages and or unions predate that by over 10 centuries. What the hell makes people think they can be these judges of what is and what is not right? What puts in their mind the idea that they are better than any of us. I will not succumb to that. I pray for everyone who has ever shut the door or judged one of their fellow homosexual brothers and sisters in the church. Who has ever shut the door to another. To you, YOU ARE NOT OF GOD. You can not call yourself of Christ if you cannot live the word and love one another. LOVE is all we are called to do. I am a servant to no other than Christ. However as a servant to Christ I am a servant also to the least of these for whatever action I take against my "family in christ, I do to god". To all of you out there who pass judgement and condemn others for their lifestyles only to hide it behind your idealogy know this. Hypocrisy has existed in the church for many many years. There were some before you and there will be more after you. However, know that you may have some people fooled but you can't fool Jesus, you can't fool the Lord, your Father.
Who the hell are we to judge what is right and wrong? I know many who take pride on telling you that it is part of being of Christ. You must run when you hear that because it is my experience that in the long runthey may as well be in bed with the enemy.
I know what I am called to do with my life. I was put here to love. Everything I do in my life is to show that there is love in my heart. Love for some that are unloved. I die a little every day in my work just to show that love still does exist. Genuine love. Christ's love. Christ's love is true. It is alive and it is in me pouring out. Look yourself in the mirror and if you cannot say the same please reexamine your view on how your living your life and how you're allowing others to live theirs.
Their are bigger issues than who you thing Peggy or Bob should be dating. Know we were put here to love, not to judge. Homosexuality is very different now than it was in Biblical time. Reexamine your views. Many people are still not willing to change their thoughts. Many are not willing to realize there is more to what we have been conditioned to believe. Learn for yourself. Seek for yourself. Don't go on what you have had drilled into your head. Christ was sent to love us and to save us. We were sent to love. But are we ready to love?
Are our hearts and minds and sould ready to love? And not just love, but love like Jesus loved. I've met people who get sick to their stomach when they find out about my sexuality. I very much doubt Jesus would've thought I was disgusting. All I say is homosexuality is not a sin.
Plain, simple and true. Homosexuality is NOT a sin.
I struggled with that for 26 years and now I am happy to say I am a Gay Christ Follower. I say Christ Follower to not confuse you with Christian. My faith and heart and dedication are to my God and my Saviour. My religion is a way of growing and learning but not a way of believing. I believe in Christ. I worship the Lord, I do not worship my religion, I do not worship my beliefs.
Yes, I am gay among other things. I am a son, a grandson, an uncle, a brother, a cousin, a friend, a confidante, a former youth ministry member, an Ambassador to the United Nations Refugee Campaign, a fundraiser, an advocate for Gay rights, an Asexual, an advocate for reform to asylum law and legislation for hate crimes. I am a musician, a producer, a writer, a creator, a source of hope and inspiration. I am so many things and yes I am also a Gay Male.
But before all that let us not forget that before all of this I am a Child of God, I am a Christ Follower, I am a believer, and I am sent by God with a mission to show the world true genuine love still exists.
Joalby
POSTED AUGUST 7TH, 2007
Someone posted this in a bulletin. Well actually over 30 people I have seen alone have posted this and I HAD to address it. Sorry if it offends you.
~SAD NEWS~
Unfortunately, 96% of myspacers won't repost this. When Jesus died on the cross He was thinking of you. If you are one of the 4% who will stand up for Him then repost this with the title: SAD NEWS :(
JOALBY'S EVEN SADDER NEWS
Ok so I've been seing this on myspace for awhile. But I got to thinking and I didn't post it because it's all too damn fake. You know what the real sad news is. A lot of you guys out there are hypocrites and yeah you make a big deal over posting this so people can see you believe in God, but the Bible says to not be prideful of what you believe. Do not believe and do everything in your power only to impress others.
So I'm sorry everyone, but before you post this ask yourself honestly. How many of you actually read the Bible? How many of you pray every night? NOT JUST IN CHURCH. How many of you have a relationship with Christ? How many of you pray FOR OTHERS? How many of you GO TO CHURCH? It's easy to post a bulleting but let's not shit ourselves. A lot of us on here are full of crap and just post this so people can see and be impress by who we are. Get over your damn self already. Nobody is impressed by your beliefs. Be a true Christian. Be a true disciple and follower of Christ. Get over your selfpride for one minute and DON'T POST THIS. Instead pray that all the mindless thoughtless people who do post this get to the point where the relationship with God is established. I'm sick and tired of seeing this from 30+ people in one day. Many of whom do NOT go to church and will not go when I ask them to. Others who always have something else to do when God comes up.
GOD IS NOT STUPID. He is not impressed by your pretty little myspace page. You are fake, you are a hypocrite. You are lying to God and He does not like to be seen as a fool.
So if you wanna prove your love for God and Jesus Christ. READ THE BIBLE, PRAY AND GO TO CHURCH! END OF STORY!!!!!!
I think I said everything I had to.
POSTED MAY 26TH, 2007
I get irritated by hearing people ALL THE TIME telling me "Joalby, you don't understand why I do what I do" then they go on to tell me about their screwed up life. Their problems and such. I'm not heartless. Don't get me wrong. But NOONE CAN MAKE US A VICTIM EXCEPT OURSELVES. It took me a long time to learn this. My friend Janifer pretty much had to shout it at me through the phone before it caught on and I thank her so much for it because once we realize that we can grow and it has made me a completely changed person. Sometimes we need someone to grab us and yell at us and shake us and tell us we're being stupid and to get over ourselves.
In the same way from a Christian perspective this can be applied to cleanliness in God's eyes. In Mark 7 Jesus tells the Pharisees and disciples that nothing that we take in makes us unclean it's what we spew forth. So basicall what we have inside of us inflences, past and such is just that. Nothing more. It's what we let affect our heart that ruins it for us.
I know many people who blame their promiscuity, attitud, negativity and self defeating behaviors and actions on their childhood, their parents, abuse, neglect, sexual abuse, believe me every single thing you can think of I've heard it before. An absent parent, an overprotective parent. We're never happy. We need to cut this crap out and stop victimizing ourselves. Stop blaming outside infleunces for who you allowed yourself to be. If you're unclean then it's because YOU allow yourself to be so. Outside influences do not make us clean or not clean. They are only infleunces. When we allow our hearts to be controlled by it then it becomes a problem. But like I said it's when WE ALLOW it.
As Christians we need to learn to get over it, knock it off and stop making ourselves victims. As I learned and not quickly. It took me a few times of having it beaten into me almost that "Noone is going to make you a victim except you." I had to have her yell it to me through the phone several times for me to get it. Maybe you're not as hardheaded as me and just hearing it will help you. If that's the case KNOCK IT OFF stop welcoming this into you.
Jesus says we will be saved of our uncleanliness. Why then would we want to keep going back to that?
POSTED APRIL 1ST, 2007
It's a beautiful day. - Thank you Lord Jesus
Today was a beauitful day. The temperature is perfect. It's nice and warm, which is strange cos I normally prefer the cold. But as I was walking out of the store I couldn't help but realize how tranquil and calm everything felt. There is a sense of peace and comfort I feel all around me right now.
The sun is out and it is just incredible. A beautiful day and I thank the Lord that I am able to see this.
Everyday I go on and can continue loving you as the Lord, my father I know I grow closer to you. Opening my heart to you has instilled a sense of peace and tranquility in my heart that I could not have otherwise possessed. You have been a father to me when I had none and a source of belief and inspiration when I was unispired and did not believe in me. You have truly taken me under your wings and led me on the path to a better life. I am better because of you.
To everyone reading this, you can have this as well by simply giving yourself over to the Lord your father. He shed his blood for you, because he loves you and believes in yo. he aches to have you in his heart and in his family. Let him wrap his arms around you and welcome you to a better life. Renounce whatever is restraining you from living a life for the Lord and ask yourself if all you're doing right now is worth not having your saviour and
father in your heart. It is not easy to go back to Christ but it will be the best choice you ever make. I had a very bad idea in my life of what a father was so it was hard for me to open myself up wholeheartedly because in my past experiences I knew not what a father was, as I never had my father around. I love the father figures I had in my life but it is different when you do not have a father with you. Knowing that I am now the son of the highest and allloving and accepting father has given me the strength to change my life.
You can do it too. EASTER SUNDAY is this coming weekend. I invite all of you to attend church services and hopefully allowing the love of the father and our family be poured out to you.
Jesus Loves You and so do I,
Joalby
I love this song. Performed by Maire Brennan. Maire/ Moya is elder sister to Enya. Her music is very spiritual and I have been a supporter of her for many years. This is one of my favourite songs. The song says "Only you can make me shine, Only you, can days be right
In your perfect time" and "I know You told me that I'm not alone, You know I couldn't do it on my own....Fill my heart with precious love, I know it's there to find"
This is what the Lord, our father wants for us. he wants to take us under his wing and forgive our past lives and erase that all and allow us the chance to start anew with him. ONLY HE CAN MAKE US SHINE. It doesn't matter how perfect your life is, if you do not have Jesus in your heart no amount of achievements will make you shine outward. God is not a respector of titles. You can not come to Him with a title. It means nothing to him. What matters is the love you have for him. You are not alone, and as it is said. We can not make it on our own. I tried and tried for years. I loved God and had him with me but I struggled and tried to make it on my own, but I will tell you it is not possible. If you do not have Jesus, you have nothing. He is waiting for you to open your arms and fall at your knees and ask him back into your heart. He wants to fill us with a love like no other. A love only a father, only THE FATHER, SAVIOUR and the great I AM is able to impart upon us.
"I want to heal this pain I hide inside
Free my fears and promise me
That you won't let me go
You're the one to comforrt me
The past my God You know"
^ How beautiful is that. He knows our past and knows our needs and our pains and he is there to free us from them and tell us to hell with your past. If you come to me you are a new person, worthy of my love. Allow him the chance to love on you.
MAIRE (MOYA) BRENNAN - PERFECT TIME
Joalby
POSTED MARCH 28TH, 2007
RID THE WORLD OF HATE - Read & take something away with you
"Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs." - Proverbs 10:12
I love that passage. It is true that in our hearts we should not harbour hate or evil thoughts. It is my belief that if we embrace a new attitude and direction towards tolerance and acceptance, we can live a fuller life in Christ and will not be consumed by what society drives us towards. Accept one anothers differences whether you understand them or not. We can agree to disagree and if it doesn't work for us so be it but that is not any reason to lead your life breaking others down.
I know that we are called to speak the truth of the message but when it changes from education to an assault of sorts it crosses the line. I myself have been a victim of attacks from individuals using the bible in a manner it was not intended for.
I just believe that with tolerance, acceptance, understanding and compassion we can achieve our true mission and calling on our path with Christ towards complete fulfillment and spiritual enlightement.
Love one another. Loving and embracing one another does not mean you are full accordance with who they are, how they live their life and their beliefs. As true Christ followers we are instructed to love one another. We are all one family and Leviticus 19 states I think it's verse 17 or 18 "Do not hate your brother in your heart". Hateful speech is hate. It may not thrive or present itself from the same place in your heart but it is still one in the same.
"Try to rid the world of hate, we all know there is no other way. for to live our life in God's eyes will be the only escape. He'll take us to a place that's safe, where there's hope and parents watch children play. Where we all can coexist in peace. In the beauty our Lord has made." - Rid The World Of Hate by Joalby (Crazy Baby Records, ASCAP)
I'm really excited to say that upon releasing my debut in Spring I will begin work on my worhsip album which will include some of my favourite worship songs from Elvis Presley, Bob Dylan, Carter Family, Lebo M, and Abyssinians along with 5 originals one of which will be Rid The World Of Hate.
The song by Lebo M might sound familiar to anyone who likes Disney, Diana Ross (she recorded it as well) or Broadway Shows.
HE LIVES IN YOU. One of my favourite worshiip songs.
Here is Diana Ross performing HE LIVES IN YOU live on Oprah
Here is when the Broadway Cast appeared on Rosie O'Donnell and performed a medley, including HE LIVES IN YOU. Jason Raize was incredible. Unfortunately for all of us he died way too young for anyone to see just how far he should have came in his life. Extremely talented and way too young to go. He did well for the time he spent here though.