This is getting old

The way that you speak to me

Never could decide

How you wanted us to be

I never know when your speaking sincerely

Why wont you show

Your intentions towards me

You think you know

The answers to everything

I want to go

My own way this time

And when you show me that

You can be trusted

Then i will show

You truth in your lies



Past all the time we wasted

I saw the end

This wasnt what you said

It would be when i

Heard the words and they began

Past it all

This wasnt what you said

It would be when i got there



Why does it always have to be your way

I tried your way before

Dont want to try it anymore

Why cant you let me do this my way

Im tired of the ends

The means are all pretend



Past all the time we wasted

I saw the end

This wasnt what you said

It would be when i

Heard the words and they began

Past it all

This wasnt what you said

It would be when i got there



And when i got there

They didnt even recognize me

When i got there

In the end



Past all the time we wasted

I saw the end

This wasnt what you said

It would be when i

Heard the words and they began

Past it all

This wasnt what you said

It would be when i got there

See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

like to blame others for there problems some people r the first to say oh hes the reason im sad or man this is all bullshit every guy is bullshit or every girl is bullshit but have u ever stoppped to wonder......... that maybe ur bullshit? maybe people have been there to love u n to help u n ur just pushing them away with ur lies and with ur bullshit? ive been in this situation shit im in one rite now someone who claims they love u n down for u n will ride with u forever n u do something so amazein for them only for it to get smushed in ur face n it go unnoticed n unappreciated its fucked up but u live n u learn n with every pasin day u jus grow colder n then ones u used to say i love u to jus become a memory.....i love u girl but u needa change u say u love me but u realy dont u said it to my face n promised u did but a promise was broken n now ull never find tru love cuz u had it n lost it i dont noe  u choose to do this to ur self cuz u n i both noe this isnt the first time but i guess one day ull notice that what u had was the truth like i told u be4 who else u noe would do wat i did for u?

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

And when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some girls have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better man to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I dont just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I dont just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No nothing else matters

It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all.
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost.
It's not right

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants and this is what
she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life

                                                          

well im writing this cuz w.e im bored and i feel like writing now so ur probably wondering what the hell is 99.9% all about well thats how i feel towards woman in my life well at least the ones ive met up untill nov 5th 2007 at 1pm lol i feel like 99.9% of ya are all the same i know the girls reading this r like fuck u guys are all the same well thats why i said 99.9 and not 100 because i dont thinnk all of you are the same i jus think most of you are lol alot of you seem different but in the end it always turns out the same wheter its in a relationship or friendship some how ive been managed to get fucked over quite nicely in my life to all my ex gf's  u noe who ya r thank u for makin me smarter it really helped in makin me the guy i am so when i get to where i wanna be dont worry ill make sure to shine on ya and to the girls i havent met yet hope ya prove me wrong!! cuz this shit is crazy yo lol from miami to cali all the way to dirty jersey ive met all the same girls where my REAL WOMAN at?

well since im always gettin messages from ppl particually gurls i love u ladies lol asking about personal questions and telling me to tell them more about more about my self i guess i should finally write this first things first my myspace doesnt really have anything to personal on it becuz i use it for bisness i work for my cuzin cubo and thats what my main focus really is i mean if u ask me a question bout something else of course ill respond am not a robot and i do use is personally too

but anyways heres a lil info about me that not alot of ppl noe unless ur really close to me which alot of ppl arent lol well i guess here we go

Music: when it comes to music the first name that will always pop up in my head first is tupac the man was a genuis he used the beef tool to sell records incredibly the man sold 6 million records in about 2 months he was a poet and a very out spoken young man its way to rare now a days to see someone like him his upbringin made him the man he was for this he will always be the greatest musician to me his music was so real you could feel it he wasnt a lyrical monster but he put the words together just rite that he hit u in the chest

now when it comes to rock witout a doubt my fav musician is kurt cobain (nirvana) his song writing skills r immaculate for example the song rape me shows a touture soul you could tell something was wrong but no one seemed to noticed or do somehting about it i vibe out tremendously to nirvana makes me very mellowed out

Sports: heres the really good part lol when it comes to Football theres no question about it its all about the dallas cowboys they r second to none u can take away all the other teams ama name on this list and leave me with them and ill be good lol but anyways i love the cowboys to death ive been thru ups and downs wit my team i became a fan when they won there first superbowl in the 90's y?

becuz as a kid growing up my big brother was a bills fan (still is) and of course u gotta go against ur brother so i started likein the cowboys alot and the first year i watched everysingle nfl game was probably the 94-95 season when san fran cheated and beat us in the playoffs =/ they went n got the superbowl here in miami but then dieo sanders came to the cowboys lol i was there for the 3 superbowls i was there for the three 5-11 seasons and now im here now when they whooppin ass so it feels good to see them doing good again

Baseball: its all about the marlins and boston the reason ama marlins fan is simple i moved to miami when they became a team and thats that lol the reaon ama red soxs fan is becuz bak in the mid 90's they drafted a young man named Nomar Garciaparra who was the greatest player ever to me so i feel in love wit boston and been a fan since so to see the boys bak in the world series wow awesomeness lol feels good when both ur teams doing off the chain lol

Other: hmmm far as basketball goes its all about the heat even though this year there gonna suck really bad hmm hockey all about the nj devils and international soccer Germany Baby my second fav team in sports period been a fan since diapers and gerber lolol

well u noe that now lets see anything else my fav color is orange and that goes perfect with blak lol i dont have anyone to personal on my top list except music friends who im really tight with and some friends on the bottom and of course Cubo i dnot have my brothers and all that becuz it gets a lil to personal they should noe i love em hopefully they dont read this lol =) i love going to skool its a nice get away and its fun lol i go to skool for marketing gee i wonder why lolol oh and yea i look cool but yes am one of those nerd guys who plays video games lol sorry ama big kid =) well yea thats alot of info about me i guess shit noe one noes unless u noe me (alot of noes) holla back!

this isn't a poem this is more like me venting out I've held a lot of shit in cuz thUr the days n months I've jus been watchin but I think I've held this in long enough theres to many fake ppl in this world ppl who put up fronts and say they'll ride wit u forever and tell u fake I love yous and u noe wat im sick of it im talkin from personal experience I really chill with many ppl those who noe me noe that and shit like this makes me trust less ppl im not talkin bout one person im talkin about a couple of ya if we were ever tight if I ever helped u if I ever said I love u n we haven't talked in a while im talkin about u the shit suks its not the same but u made me smarter sad truth is it hurt at first but now its like fuk it u do u and ill do me don't even holla cuz I won't respond da friendships n relationships we built r done u jus lost da realest nigga u ever met I don't have anything else to say except it is wat it is s

as hard as it is to say this I jus gotta say it I mean come on u knew it was coming I mean its finally over all the lies all the bullshit the secrets its finally over how do u feel about it? u probably don't even give a fuck its over becuz u never even cared it begun I wasn't even with u I was more of ur toy you would use me when ever u wanted to and made it seem so real all the late nite talks all the I love yous it was all a game to u rite? I mean I guess that's wat happens when u mess with the devil I wish all my times were with that angel the one I once knew but now it seems like all I see is you maybe one day you'll stop playing tricks and maybe one day there will be someone more decitfull then you and you too will know how it feels to suffer like this to lose the one thing that mattered the most even if it wasn't even real it was unreal just know ill never forget it and ill never forget what you did becuz pain like this I've never felt if it wasn't what you wanted then why did you lie? why did you stick around you could have left along time ago and saved us both the trouble I can't fully say I regret becuz its an experience but I can say it hurt more then anything becuz you know all my weaknesses and all my fears you noe all my dreams and all my moves what I plan to do and how to do it you are the only person who knows my future and I thought for sure you'd be in it but then again I should have known it was to good to be true you hid your self in the dark and never showed your true colors maybe I should have done the same maybe there was never really a US maybe it was just a lie or maybe you did care but didn't known how to express your self maybe just maybe but I don't know why I leave you with this take this home and remember it before you say things happens or it was just the way it is just remember true love never fades if it was there to begin with...........