By watching soap-dramas could really make you think of the possible things that could happen in your life actually. Furthermore, soap-dramas are mostly based on the reality of life, not forgetting the mutual romance love story that seems too boring for me. What really interest me in watching these types of dramas are the moral values in life on how to cope with problems regarding relationship, sociality, morality and even sensitivity as well as one self-esteem.

Then suddenly, this one very question always pop out and drag me to think about it over and over again.

What if?

What if you are born to have certain incurable diseases? Or you are suddenly been informed that you have that incurable disease and you have limited time to live this life? For example, syndrome-down; cancer; mental illnesses; severe heart diseases; even worst AIDS or HIV positive. Would you still get the love from the parents? Would you still be respected by friends and people surroundings? Would you still be able to do things according to your desire? Far more important, would you be strong enough to face the cruel world itself?

What if you were born with an identical twin? Wouldn't it be much fun? Would it be much better without your sarcastic siblings? Having someone to hold on to, to share with, and to talk to, to cry and laugh with, and having someone that could really understand you more than others would? Or could it be the worst thing that would have happened to you? Having people comparing one another – which one is prettier or good-looking? Which one is more brainy and diligent?

What if the person that you're holding now disappears from your life in a minute? The person that you mostly treasure, love and care for. It could be your mother, father, brother and sister, or even your partner. Would you treat him or her the way you treated them now, before they disappears?

What if the happy family that had all this while being tears apart by a third-party person?

What if you're not your biological child of your parents?

What if you're born as an orphan?

What if this, what if that? La la la la la…..

wah hebat, dh lame tak post...datte, this blog probably wont be browsed by anyone pon...

ape ini? transition? transit LRT kot....pergh, there were lots of things occured throughout this semester. don’t feel like writing though...personally, i’ve had left my diary to rot alone in the cupboard.

the semester went out very well for me. as usual, i was a little blurry at the very moment i entered class. but it’s a good thing to see everyone around though lovely Maya and my very good Basi have left us. wonder how are they now?...

this semester was a bit challenging for me as i explored a lot of things that i myself does not realise. i took 7 courses altogether which include interactive multimedia, creative illustration, graphic history, graphic communication, advertising design and media planning.

for the interactive, we had explored on how to use macromedia director. though someone said that this particular software is one boring application compared to flash, i believe that it still hard on me.....all those scripting...argh...peningkan kepala! ( go to the Frame) end if, else if.....hooooo

for graphic history, i had to deal myself with one ’lecturer lembut’ in which my heart rebelled to hate this ’guy’. overheard that he used to neglect his lectures in the past scarified us that we might get in trouble. for somehow, it ended up very well for us. though i just can’t accept who he is, for me he’s one diligent lecturer that is very open minded with surroundings. he taught us well with knowledge that most of us might have not noticed before. Pop art, Psychedelic art, Punk art...were discussed in detailed. i most certainly love his class....haha! coz every work and every task that he assigned us have made us race against time every week...

this semester alone, our past illustration lecturer, En Faizal had to take leave for a year which left us with no great illustrator to handle our lecture. then, En raff came in handy. surprisingly, he had took 3 courses altogether of our class - advertising design, media planning and illustration. he was strict yet lineal. proceeding and submitting his work still the same, turn our life upside down.

graphic comm is the worst class ever. no lecturer to lead us had left us terkapai-kapai takde kelas for about a month and a half. then, beloved YM Kumi came to teach us Matta!!!! AGAIN! half day at the studio stressed us all. sketching and dealing with experimental subject matter in order to fulfill final subject in building our own company corporate identity.

despite of all these crash and burn, there’s no turning back, i guess. i’m more than half way towards graduating...(ceh, abang dah dapat degree dah!) aiyo! my stomach is filled with butterflies...scared of the future, scared of leaving friends, scared of myself.....urgh! on top of that, i learned about men lagik! i wasnt wrong, most of them are useless. i believe only 0.2% of my heart, like them and the rest of it are just hate! but adele kwngkwan yang sgt hebat biler berdampingan...haha...chewah...

dah2...out!

Another year has passed by and i'm getting Fatter everyday!

Yes, thanks to the happy life in Malacca...I was able to look for the cure that i needed to coax out my depression out of me..I've learned new things regarding serious relationship and I admit that I'm very full of fear of  getting thru one. I'm scared to explore the lads life again coz you never know that it sometimes could turn out to a mess and you'll discover the hell that hidden inside of them...i do admit too that I'm not a kind person, that never said 'Bodoh', 'Sial', 'Babi' and other harsh words ever in life...it's a natural thing to react with those words...in reality, those words don't meant a thing coz they does'nt come from the heart.

My friends serious relationship with their partners has taught me a lot on how to deal with men's attitude that is very unpredictable. Men are sometimes sweet with this kind of attitude which evidently created surprises. but when it comes into blaming people, becoming mad or angry, they let the ego took control over his acts...where did men put their brains at?

Men are pretty good in everthing i would say. We women sometimes feel stupid when certain things dragged us defeated. but we do have rational thoughts better that the men. I sometimes eager and anxious of finding one special man with credibility that does not think he's the best-among the best. yes, im too choosy coz i've felt being fooled by a man once. Precisely overthought about it over and over again and i keep tellig myself that i wont repeat the same mistake again though the mistake came from both sides. What is really important in a relationship is honesty, understanding, tolerance and commitment. I do hate people who tend to be partners based on desperation on having someone and also peer-pressure.

A night event with some awesome music and live performance will be performed by the distinguish band, Seven Collar T-Shirt along with guests bands, Estrella and They Will Kill Us All.

This 14th of June at The Actors Studio@ Bangsar Shopping Centre

8pm

Cheap ticket entry!!! Only RM37...

Grab Your Tickets there while stocks last! Haha!

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Dated on 28^th of April, 117 graphic students of UiTM has set a record in building the longest sand sculpture along with PLKN students at Pantai Pengkalan Balak, Malacca. I was one of the contestants felt very proud of what we had achieved in three hours of sandy day! I just could not believe that I'd really had a good time and enjoyed the day. Yes,  we had achieved and we has set a new record in building the longest sand sculpture, the largest number of participants in building the sculpture and the longest 'Tarik Tali' event. Honestly I don't even want to participate in the first place. I was tired of VCR's assessment and I wanted to go home. Unfortunately, I was targeted by my co-coordinator to in-charge for Part 2 students. I had no choice but to follow.

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A few days before, we had several meetings at night and not forgetting we needed to study for CTU final paper. Though we had a packed time table, we still struggle to come out with the best ideas and sketches for that big event. Night after night we met in studio 5 for briefing and doing sketches. I do remember that my group's ideas were rejected few times. It was a bit disappointing to see that other students and seniors had come out with great ideas and I would say very creative. In the end, Noin, Din and me had agreed to build only fruits that represent the Dusun Paradise located in Masjid Tanah, Malacca. At last, the sketch was preceded. So far, we've satisfied and confident to built this sculpture and I'd finally could close my eyes.

The morning, we were very full of spirit. We were very excited to get this job done and over. At 8.30 a.m. we've started cleaning the beach that was divided into a number of rows. Disappointedly, they whole thing started at 9.30a.m and that's one hour late. As the horn sounded, we started working on our project.  With no experience with sand, we just follow our instincts and logical thinking as part of the creative students I would say. Haha! Luckily, we got the perfect spot under a tree. So, we weren't exposed to the hot sunlight of Malacca. Time passed by until they called it off. Huh, that's pretty amazing!

While waiting, we had our lunch and took some pictures too. After that we were asked to join the tarik tali. I was delightful to spend the time with friends. It was a spot to release my tension after all these while. Sugoi! Sugoi! The day ended well. Not forgetting, we've won the fifth place! Haha that's a good start!

We often seek a friend whenever we have problems. After all, people always say "a friend in need is a friend indeed". We often share feelings with them. No matter if those feelings are good or bad ones. Whenever we are down with something, a true friend will always be there to lend a hand or shoulder for us to lean and cry on. Friendship means that we are going to be together to get through thick and thin, face any possibility, share the smiles and joy and even feel the pain of each other. Friendship also carries the meaning of understanding each other. Well, basically for me, friendship has taught me to be a real person and also to reveal more about myself and my own personality. Friendship is more like a treasure that I had kept ever since I was born into this world. Making friends is all I do in this world. I just couldn't find the total sum of my friends throughout these seventeen years of living; good friends, bad friends, jerk friends, brainy friends, bastards and scumbags friends, true friends, maniac and psychotic friends, blurry and nerdy friends, evil and mean friends, big and small friends. All sorts of friends and all kinds of people had come across in my life...:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

A true meaning of a friend is the ones who could make you burst into tears, the ones who could make you smile to you ear and laugh your heart out when you're happy and lend his/her shoulder to cry on when you're down and low. The ones whom you could trust to share feelings and tell all your love secrets, your crush, your family problems (I believe everyone has one), your likes and your hates without any shame. He/She would make you feel secure and comfortable to be around with. Definitely, this person is not faux. There's no more doubt that this is the friend that you have to seek for. Just like 'One In A Million'. Eventually for me, I have lots of friends. Superlative friends I would say.

'Our life is both a major and a minor key', Travis. Sometimes we'll be at the top and at any time we'll be at the bottom. We could be the major or the minor key or even the other way. Friends would definitely be either one of it. We most certainly need each other in all sorts of things.  Whether we're the melody, our friends would be the chords.

I've went through a few levels to survive in this provisionally world. I admit most of my friends are supportive but I would say that they are all lasses. Lads? Hah! They don't play the role in my success at all and they are not even in my list. The only lad that is very supportive and put his faith on me is my own brother. Oh well, he's my idol actually. Why? It's all because of his hard works and determination to pursue his own dreams and interests. On top of that, the axiom that I always hold as my principle of life is 'Never depend on others to get your job done' even in group work. I have applied it during my studies in class, in assignments and also on projects, as a result I able to gain good grades for all subjects and the satisfaction was crystal clear.