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Elaine



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Gender: Female
Status: Married
Age: 26
Sign: Gemini

City: HATTIESBURG
State: MISSISSIPPI
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/23/2006

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[21 Aug 2009 | Friday] 
[31 Mar 2009 | Tuesday] 

Current mood:  indescribable
I found out that this past weekend Drake passed away.   Noone really knows what happened.   JD went to pick him up and he was dead.  He was apparently fine the day before. 

Just wanted to let everyone that knew him know.


[20 Apr 2008 | Sunday] 

Current mood:  aggravated
Category: Life

Well I found out something interesting this week....   My students have no idea what Columbine means..  They didn't even know the word..
It really shocked me. 
Columbine changed so much for me and my friends, I swear if those guys had had the balls to live I would prob want to beat the crap out of them. 

After Columbine my friends and I were harassed on a daily basis.  It wasn't only by the other students.  I was a Softmore when it happened, and being one of the "Freaks" at my school was the most horrible thing you could be on that day...
They took away our trench coats, our baggy pants and our dignity.   One of my friends was beaten on almost a daily basis, another friend was expelled for wearing a dark BLUE shirt, all of us were CONSTANTLY told by students and faculty, "Your like the columbine kids, your gonna blow up the school"  Some of my friends were searched on a daily basis (illegally mind you)  one of my friends was expelled because of his poems that he wrote and never showed anyone, I didn't even know about them until they searched his bag, and found them.  He used the poems to release his anger so he didn't do something stupid, and they expelled him for it.  

One guy in the group was told by some preppy idjut  "Your gonna blow up the school" and he turned and said "I don't care about you enough to blow up this F'n School!" 

There was just so much crap.  They said the columbine kids did it so that preppy's couldn't pick on the freaks anymore, so that they would respect us,  It did just the opposite it made our lives HELL...   It gave them something to use against us, Took away our rights, and degraded us to worthless status. 

Couldn't they have just done like the rest of us do?  Grin and bear it, then go on to make WAY more money than the preppy assholes? 

I guess Columbine is part of the reason why I became and Art teacher,  The art room was the only escape from that, I know that we "Freaks"  need our sanctuary and need a release from all that frustration... And I have always felt that the art teacher should have in some way seen it coming...  

All of that crap happened years ago today.  

[01 May 2007 | Tuesday] 

Current mood:  determined
Category: Romance and Relationships
Ok this is a wish list of a guy that I know.. I will not reval his name.. but I would like my CHIC friends opinoin on his wish list for a girl.. tell me what you thing..
(Oh.. yes he is single.. this is why I have the list.. I'm trying to help him find someone.. so if you want to meet him or know someone who fits most of these areas let me know)

The List (Below are his words only)

On the above physical characteristics this is just a basic outline; certain looks look good together and might fall outside of my list but would still be attractive to me. And I am being as honest as possible; some of the characteristics might seem harsh or offensive but I am not trying to be. I am just being honest. Well have fun reading and laughing at my list.

Physical Characteristics

Hair: Light Brown, Dirty Blond
Hair Length: Long – Down below the bra strap –
Hair Style – Usually in a pony tail or braided
Eyes: Blue and Green are my favorite colors
Chest: C-DD – Natural – Even – Looks good on her body type
Ass: NICE – What else is there to say? ;-)
Legs: Long sexy legs
Height: Shorter than me when she wears high heels
Size: Slim, Athletic, or Womanly Curves (Not Fat)
Over All Look: Cute to Hot (But she isn't all about her look. Natural beauty not makeup)
Can hold her liquor!

Some of the Non-Physical characteristics go in multiple categories so I might repeat myself.

Mental Characteristics

1. First off – She must have a mind
2. Intelligent but not full of herself
3. Can carry on a in depth intelligent conversations
4. Can carry on in depth not so intelligent conversations
5. Is a little bit crazy, but all-in-all she is mentally stable
6. Is willing to listen to new ideas that are in contrast to old ideas she may have
7. Is willing to speak her mind and back up her ideas
8. Is willing to admit that she may be wrong
9. Is able to find solutions to problems others might miss
10. Knows the difference between an argument and a debate, and doesn't let a debate turn into an argument

Personality

1. Someone that keeps life interesting
2. Mostly organized but willing to do something crazy from time to time
3. Gets along with most of my friends
4. Looking for a long term relationship
5. Looking to get married
6. Likes fantasy, science fiction, etc.
7. Willing to try new things
8. She needs to be open about her likes and dislikes
9. Like nature, camping, dogs, cats
10. Like to build things
11. Enjoys physical activities – No I don't mean just sex
12. Interesting to be around
13. Has a good sense of humor
14. Can take a joke about her
15. Likes games, reading, computers, movies
16. Likes to be around other people
17. Likes to sit up listening to the rain
18. Like to dance, sing, kiss in the rain
19. Likes to fly kites, play with toys, paint with her fingers
20. Likes to cuddle up on the couch reading a book or watching a movie
21. Likes to go out to the bar about once a month or so
22. Likes to go out on dates a few times a week or so
23. Wants to spend most of her free time with me, but still spends time with friends away from me, and doesn't get upset when I want to spend time with my friends alone.
24. Isn't the jealous type – But a little jealousy on rare occasions is cute
25. Is independent – Doesn't need me to take care of everything for her – But occasionally ask for help even if she doesn't need it
26. Likes public displays of affection
27. Has her own likes and dislikes that she doesn't try to force on me or she doesn't fake liking something because I like it.
28. She overlooks some of my flaws
29. Willing to support me in my decisions
30. Someone that has a shy, goofy, childlike, outgoing, professional, sarcastic, funny, open, energetic, hopeful, crazy, driven, reserved, spontaneous, organized, clean, cluttered, obsessive, free spirited personality
Doesn't:
1. Cheat – (I am very specific about what constitutes as cheating)
2. Flirt with other guys
3. Lie
4. Steal
5. Keep Secrets
6. Obsess about old boyfriends
7. Do something that I asked her not to do
8. Not do what she said she was going to do
9. Do drugs
10. Smoke – or is at least trying to quit
11. Let something bother her for days without saying anything about it, then all of a sudden explode about it
12. Complain to me about things she doesn't want my input on or my help to fix all the time

Style

I want a girl who looks good wearing a pair of sweats and a t-shirt and is comfortable in them. She feels as comfortable in a pair or sweets and a t-shirt as she is in a formal dress, bathing suit, or whatever else. She doesn't always have to look her best, but does know how to dress up when the situation calls for it.
Wears:
1. Clothes that are appropriate for her body and the situation – Occasionally not ;-)
2. High heels with blue jeans.
3. "Hooker" Boots
4. Sun Dresses
5. Sexy Lingerie
6. My t-shirts and boxers
7. Costumes to Parties
8. Clothes that I pick out occasionally – even if she doesn't like them
9. Wears a little makeup but not much
10. Pink bunny slippers – Around the house

Drive in Life

1. She must have an idea of what she wants to do in life
2. She must a little bit of a plan on how she is going to get there
3. She must always attempt to do something more or be more than she is
4. Willing to try new things
5. Wants to travel
6. Learn a new language
7. Give it all she's got to get what she wants

Religion

1. Someone that if they have a religious belief, she doesn't try to force it on me
2. Someone that is ok with me not being religious
3. Someone that isn't all religion all the time
4. Someone that doesn't take the bible or whatever religious text, word for word as right, is willing to concede that some of it is at least misinterpreted or borrowed from other religions. Such as the birth of Christ being December 25. Most religious scholars believe that if there was a Christ that he was most likely born in spring and the Christians used December 25 because it was already a pagan holiday.

Family

1. It would be nice if she is on good terms with her family, and they are mentally stable a nice people.
2. Believes that family is important
3. She needs to get along with my family.
4. She must like kids
5. She must be able to play with kids
6. She MUST WANT KIDS
7. A girl that wants to be a stay at home mom when she starts to have kids would be cool
8. It would also be cool is she wants to be a working mom

If she has a kid already that would be ok, but not my first choice

Sexual Experience and Drive

1. I want someone that isn't a slut
2. Doesn't have any sexually transmitted dieses
3. A girls that is willing to try new things
4. A girl that LIKES to have sex – If a virgin someone that thinks once they start that they will LIKE to have sex
5. Someone that isn't embarrassed about sex, conversations about sex, sexual/dirty comments, dirty movies, etc.
[23 Dec 2006 | Saturday] 
I got my first present of Christmas today :)
It was from Chris. :)

Des came over after work (she was in town for a bit, had to pick some stuff up so she stopped by for her Christmas present) She got to open it. Me & Chris have been excited about her getting her present for a few days since we got it :) We got her a Panda "Teddy" Bear, We picked purple eyes for it (her fav color) and I made a purple Kamono (please excuse the spelling) for it. Maybe Des will put a pic somewhere :P The she wanted me & C to open ours.
I got C a computer monitor that he so desperatly needed.. .OMG his old one was horrable...
but he got me something I never even would have imagined to ask for... (Des suggested it... she knew what we were both getting which is why we went ahead & opened our gifts)
well you wanna know what he got me? huh??/
curious?? really? wanna know?
fine ..
I won't tell you...

KIDDING!!

he got me a Green (duhhhhh) I-POD NANO!!!!!!!!!!
OMGGGGGGG

*bounces around the room*

well I have to update my I-tunes on my mac to run it :P
so will take a bit... so.. well I need to get offline... I'll talk to everyone later...
gotta get my new toy up & running :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

oh.. don't forget.. I only have 2 more days at OF. so who ever wants to come say bye. come by! :)

Talk to all ya'll later!! :)

*kisses!*
[08 Oct 2006 | Sunday] 

Current mood:  annoyed

i'm being good... so LEAVE ME ALONE!  If the only reason you want to talk to me is to "get with me"  then go away..  If you are willing to just talk to me.. or be JUST a friend.. then fine.. that is all I want right now...  Yeah.. I still want to go on dates.. for the experence.. but just don't expect to get any...  So... friends or nothing..  

 

[28 Sep 2006 | Thursday] 

Interesting facts you find out when you have sons:

1.) A king size waterbed holds enough water to fill a 2000 sq. ft. house 4 inches deep.
2.) If you spray hair spray on dust bunnies and run over them with roller blades, they can ignite.
3.) A 3-year old Boy's voice is louder than 200 adults in a crowded restaurant.
4.) If you hook a dog leash over a ceiling fan, the motor is not strong enough to rotate a 42 pound Boy wearing Batman underwear and
a Superman cape. It is strong enough, however, if tied to a paint can, to spread paint on all four walls of a 20x20 ft. room.
5.) You should not throw baseballs up when the ceiling fan is on. When using a ceiling fan as a bat, you have to throw the ball up a few times before you get a hit. A ceiling fan can hit a baseball a
long way.
6.) The glass in windows (even double-pane) doesn't stop a baseball hit by a ceiling fan.
7.) When you hear the toilet flush and the words "uh oh", it's already too late.
8.) Brake fluid mixed with Clorox makes smoke, and lots of it.
9.) A six-year old Boy can start a fire with a flint rock even though a 36-year old Man says they can only do it in the movies.
10.) Certain Lego's will pass through the digestive tract of a 4 - year old Boy.
11.) Play dough and microwave should not be used in the same sentence.
12.) Super glue is forever.
13.) No matter how much Jell-O you put in a swimming pool you still can't walk on water.
14.) Pool filters do not like Jell-O.
15.) VCR's do not eject "PB & J" sandwiches even though TV commercials show they do.
1 6.) Garbage bags do not make good parachutes.
17.) Marbles in gas tanks make lots of noise when driving.
18.) You probably DO NOT want to know what that odor is.
19.) Always look in the oven before you turn it on; plastic toys do not like ovens.
20.) The fire department in Austin , TX has a 5-minute response time.
21.) The spin cycle on the washing machine does not make earthworms dizzy.
22.) It will, however, make cats dizzy.
23.) Cats throw up twice their body weight when dizzy.
24.) 80% of Women will pass this on to almost all of their friends, with or without kids.
25.) 80% of Men who read this will try mixing the Clorox and brake fluid.

 

 

Ok & this part is written by my own mother (my siblings & myself actually did this.. :P)

A watermelon will EXPLODE if filled with enough fireworks and ignited.  To smithereens.  A 40 foot radius. So will army men, toy cars, pumpkins, coke cans, etc, etc, etc. (my older brother did most of these)

 
A spongy ball filled with red koolaid will leave a permanent stain on a brand new house's carport ceiling if bounced hard enough.
 
Small boys will urinate on ANYTHING that slows down long enough for them to catch and on some things that won't.
 
Spongy bath letters will disintegrate and put off a deadly gas if thrown into a toilet that has a bleach tablet in the tank.
 
Barbeque briquets are poisonous if eaten.  So is toothpaste (a large dose), dishwasher powder, iron vitamins, etc, etc.
 
Poke Salet berries are extremely poisonous - even one will hospitalize a small boy. (yeah that one was fun...)
 
One bottle of Log Cabin syrup can cover several rooms of carpet.  So can one large container of Baby Powder.  And amazingly, so can one small cup of chocolate milk - if shook hard enough the chocolate milk can also coat the walls and ceiling pretty well.
 
When the Sharpie says Indelible, it means it. (i dont' remember this one....kinna)
 
Small boys bounce when they swing themselves from the top of a 15 foot barn 2nd story and the rope breaks. (I was on the other end of the string)
 
Machetes are not good for barefooted boys to use. (older brother)
 
Boys learning to do flips on trampolines may need stitches. (same)
 
Girls jumping on watered down trampolines may need stitches and/or limb braces.
 
Roller blading is guaranteed to break bones, sometimes the same bones, over and over again.
 
If it has a hole in it, a small boy will attempt to stick something in it.  This includes switchplates.
 
Boys of all ages think they are inflamable and indestructible.  Boys of all ages have very tired guardian angels. (mostly my little brother... and those who know me well know the story behind this one.. )
[25 Sep 2006 | Monday] 

it has been such a funnnnnnnnnnnn day...  *sigh* 

I have been tired... and gicky all day.. actually for a few days..  fun fun.. had to work today...  had to yell at alot of kids... picked up food for R... went to my car... & guess what................ some ass stole my radio... Fucking thing doesnt' even work... but i report it.. security gaurd ass takes like half an hr to get his fat ass over there... HPD takes an hr... :(  R comes and hangs out for a bit..  made me feel better.. Unico came too.. which helped alot.. she helped me relax & quit thinking about feeling gicky..  I dont' have the serial # or nething.. I'm waiting on my cuz.. who had my POS before me... so he bought the radio so he may have it..  fun..

[01 Sep 2006 | Friday] 

Current mood:  lonely
i think i have lost it.. I really do.. i'm sitting here playing online.. myspace and excetra... eating peanut butter... MFn peanut butter..
I realize a little while ago (& figured i should put it down before i forget) that i live "in the momment" You know how those speakers always tell you that you should live "in the momment" Well they are lieing! You shouldn't.. I wish I didn't.. I don't have a good enough memory to remember much of anything about the past.. (heince i tend to get over things quickly- i just have to stop thinking about them... but when those things are NEXT DOOR it is hard) I have long since stopped planning for the future.. no point. prob all my friends know that my goal is to marry & have kids... so we know that no big... but if i had managed to stay w my original plan I would already be there... possibly unhappily married.. but still... I would prob be living in Germany rt now.. *sigh* so i can't think about the future ... it only depresses me.. & i never know what is going to happen.. so i'm stuck in the middle.. just letting things happen as they happen.. which is a HORRABLE place to be.. i can't think about the past, i can't think about the future.. i'm just here... i'm stuck.. like the peanut butter.
[29 Aug 2006 | Tuesday] 

Current mood:  anxious
Things just keep on changing.. When R&I began our relationship it was to give him the XP of having a gf. He had never had one... I wanted to date him... for longer than we have gone but *shrugs* That is how things go. The sunday we began I told him that one of us was about to step out of our comfort zone that day. He was used to being single and i was always used to being a couple. I told him that we couldn't do this half bs anymore. He was still being single and I was in a coulple... a very confusing situation. Well it seems that this relationship maybe having both of us step out of our comfort zone. I think I need some XP for myself. of being single. so now it is my turn. I have basically accepted that we will prob not ever be an actual couple again.. but the friendship is still there.. we acted more like friends anyway. I still love him and I will continue to. This is going to be weird.

It is good to have a best friend next door to keep me on the right track. So down the new path I trudge.