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Last Updated: 11/24/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 18
Sign: Leo

City: Where the wild things are
State: Washington
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/28/2005

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009 
I've lost everyone.
I've lost everything I've ever known.
I have Nick.
That's about it.
I have no real home life.
It's me against the world.
No friends.
Just him.
Let's see how this goes.



Wanna bet it ends in me losing him as well?
I don't doubt it a bit.
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Remember Right Now
By Spitalfield
Release date: 2003-06-17
6:54 AM 
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009 
  
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Wednesday, November 04, 2009 
There is always that one person.
That everyone turns to.
For everything.
Because they are strong and have been there before.
They just keep running and dumping things on this person like it's nothing.
Until the person reaches their breaking point.
The breaking point that sents a reality check to everyone.
Well I just reached my breaking point.

I don't believe anyone.
I don't trust anyone.
I don't want anything to do with anyone.
They all rely on my.
And when I need something,
I get my own advice I gave them.
Which isn't what I need.

I'm over caring.
I'm done trying.
I'm fending for myself.

Hermit status here I come.
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MMHMM
By Relient K
Release date: 2004-11-02
6:44 AM 
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009 
So she didn't fit in she said.
She wasn't going to force it.
And there she went.
Never to be seen again.
All because she wanted some "cheap thrills" at other suspense.

The day after it happened.
Everyone was over it.
But her.
She gave up.
She didn't want to try and fix it.
So we walked away never to look back.

Numberous people have said,
"she fit, like a glove with you guys"
But in her eyes I guess she saw a different situation.

So now, she's back to her start.
With the person she abandoned and talked shit about.
They are together like nothing happened.
Odd?
Yes, very much so.

Who thinks she's gonna do the same about us.
Run to her friend and talk shit about all of us.
I do.
I know it for a fact.

So this is to you.
Leave me OUT of this bullshit.
I have way better things to deal with than someone like you two.
Currently listening:
In Your Dreams
By Gregory and the Hawk
Release date: 2007-06-19
11:43 PM 
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009 

Current mood:Clean
Time has gone by.
It's been months since I last saw your face.
Since I last heard your voice.
Since I last felt your warmth.

Nothing ended like we wanted.
A war broke out and shattered every last hope we ever had.
Every ounce of patience we had.
We said our farewells and walked away slowly.
Slow enought to know that if we wanted to fix it we could just turn around and face our problems.
But it would take more than both our efforts combined.

Our hearts were brokens.
Our worlds were collapsing.
And our sense of self and direction was gone.

We hoped for the worst of each other.
We fought and fought and fought.
For nothing.
Just because the pain we both felt was nothing we could handle.

I am writing this to let you know I am okay without you.
And every hateful thing I had said was nothing I meant.
I let my angry and pain get the best of me.

All I have ever wanted for you was complete and utter happiness.
And I hope you have found it.
I love you dearly.
No matter how much you hate me.
I don't hate her.
I have nothing against her.
She seems to make you happy.
And that's all I want.

I'll never know if what we had would had made it.
But that is my fault.
And I know that.
And I am sorry.
Just know I still care and want you to be completely happy.

So I will leave it at this.
To one of my bestfriends I have ever had.
Goodbyes aren't forever.
And my love for you won't fade.
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Saosin
By Saosin
Release date: 2006-09-26
1:41 AM 
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Monday, October 19, 2009 
Worn out.
Burnt out.
Broken.
Shattered into pieces.
Worthless.

All phrases that describe me at this moment in time.
This world has worn me out.
I've burnt myself out.
My heart is broken & in pieces.
Which makes me utterly useless to everyone around me.

If I can't give people something,
Let it be physically, mentally, or materical wise,
They want NOTHING to do with me.
And I'm done.
This is the breaking point I have warned everyone about.

There's no getting around this.
There's no hiding it.
The human race sucks.
And I want nothing to do with it.

My back is aching.
My heart is shattered.
My mind is in shambles.
My confidence is crushed.

I'm back to the starting point.
I'm not content.
Not in the least bit.

Asking me what's wrong wont help.
Asking if you can help won't do anything.
And giving my sympathy will just make it worse.

I don't want what you can do for me.
I don't want what you can give me.

I want what you can show me.
I want what you can teach me.
I want what you can do to me.
I want what to understand every inch of you.
Inside and out.
I want to be able to understand you better than I understand myself.

Show me something no one has ever shown me.
Not something I've seen and done before just in a different way.
Something I've never expericenced.
Something that will boggle all my senses.

Nothing but time and commitment can heal this.
Your words, your hugs, your thought are shit to me right now.
Because a week from now,
you'll probably be taking it all back.
And say I never really cared.
Just like everyone else.

It's all just another broken promise.
With every broken promise,
Comes another broke bottle.
Currently listening:
Dream Is a Question You Don't Know How to Answer
By Jonny Craig
Release date: 2009-08-18
1:47 AM 
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Friday, October 09, 2009 

Current mood:  artistic
Life is going by so fast.
Time is speeding by faster than I could have ever imagined.
I'm at that point in life where I'm growing up more than ever.
But I still want to be that little girl still.
Sometime, I catch myself thinking about what the future could be like.
What I'll be doing 10 years from now.
Who will I have in my life.
Where will I be.
All the decisions I make now,
Can affect everything in the future.
I am accepting myself.
I am no longer fussing over every little thing.
Which is something 99.8% of the human race needs to learn.
THE REAL WORLD DOESN'T CARE ABOUT YOUR BULLSHIT WAYS!
Just thought I'd throw that out there.
Live for something more.
Live for meaning.
Live for change.
Live for yourself.
And no one else.
2:26 AM 
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Sunday, August 30, 2009 

Current mood:amazing<3
Summer is coming to a close here shortly.
Yes, it's sad.
But really after yesterday,
I can't be upset.
Yesterday deserves a blog.
Really.
You had to be there to really get the full effect.
But first I would like to thank Sammy, Kyle, Cam and Everett for making the last great summer adventure amazing.
So here we go.
My day started off at 6:30 a.m.
Picture day.
Not to great.
But I got my picture taken and my classes.
Same shit different year.
Then I came home and napped for a bit.
Waiting around for my phone to show up.
1 o'clock rolls around and the FEDEX lady is at the door.
I was beyond happy.
I charged my phone and added the important number.
Sammy finally got back from pictures and such so I went to her casa.
We got there and we wanted to go hang with people uber badly.
So I called Kyle and asked what he was up to.
And he said he was with some people.
And he also said he would tell us what was happening later and such.
So we waited a few minutes.
And Kyle said we could come chill with them.
So Sammy and I got ready and left.
Kyle and Everett came and got us.
And we headed down to Shari's.
There were four people already there.
The only one I really remember is Cam.
(You'll see why)
We sat and ate and talked.
The we were like "We should all go to the movies"
So found out what time Inglorious Bastards was playing.
Movies said 9:30.
So we needed something to do till then.
And we needed money.
So we split up.
Kyle, Everett, Sammy and I went to Sammy's house to get money.
Then we all met back up at some park in East Wenatchee.
We swang.
We through rocks.
Boys played gay chicken.
We just had a good time.
The 9 came around, so we all got back into our cars and went to the movies.
Got in for free.
Cam, I , Kyle and Sammy sat down in that order.
Inglorious Bastards was amazing.
So worth seeing.
Cam about peed his pants at the end.
Movie ended around 12.
Kyle, Everett, Sammy, and I went back to Sammy's.
We attempted to play 'sex me'.
But Everett was the only one to commit.
Sammy and I got dropped off.
Her mom was kind of mad.
But she went to bed once we went upstairs.
1 am struck, and Sammy and I were out the dorr waiting at the church for Cam, Kyle, and Everett to come get us.
They finally did.
Off to Mcdonalds we went.
Kyle and I got out of the cars and messed around in the drive through.
They didn't seem happy with us.
So we got our food and peaced out.
We went down to the waterfront and played on the playground.
We ran around in the grass like little kids.
Then we all wanted to go swimming.
So we all sriped down to our undies.
But Kyle went down to NOTHING!
And we swam for about 10 minutes.
Then a cop drove through.
We all tried to lay low.
But he knew we were there.
So we got out got our clothes on and headed towards the car.
All the cop said was the parks close at 10 p.m.
We got in the car.
Then Cam couldn't find his wallet.
So we searched high and low.
Then Cam finally found it.
It was by where we were doing tumbles.
We got in the car and headed over to East Wenatchee.
We still wanted to swim.
So we went to this "lagoon" Kyle and Cam and Everett all knew about.
It was amazing.
And cold.
We all had fun.
We got out and we huddled for warmth while we dried off.
But when Sammy and I were put in the middle of the huddle, we got humped.
It was... different.
So dried off and went back to the car.
Sammy and I got dropped off back at the church.
We got hugs and said out farewells.
Honestly, barely anyone would have done that with us.
New friends are the best.
But really, Cam was the only new friend.
That was the best last adventure ever.
I wouldn't change a thing.
Not a thing<3
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Friday, August 28, 2009 

Current mood:  frustrated
Sometimes I feel as if I am running my mouth and using my words for no reason.
Only because people don't care about what I have to say.
I don't say things I don't mean.
Lately, I put everyone before myself.
And all I get is a slap in the face and a kick in the throat.
Never a thank you.
Never anything nice.
They usually get mad or upset because I am right.
And it's tiring.
I'm tired of arguing.
Tired of getting upset.
Tired of being alone 99.99999% of the time.
I'm over it all.
If you want my help, than ask.
But don't get made when I state facts or my opinion.
That's bullshit.
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009 

Current mood:You'reTheBestFriendEver:)
You are one of the most amazing people I have ever met.
You are honest and genuine.
And smart and confident.
And silly and sweet.
Beautiful inside and out
And if a boy can't see how much you shine,
Then they are an idiot and not worth your time one bit.
You deserve the nest in the world.
If I could find you the most amazing and perfect boy in the world, you know I would.
I'd travel high and low,
Far and wide.
To find that one boy that makes you complete.
That treats you right.
That makes your life easier, not stressful.
But you know I can't do that.
I do try my hardest to find one from where we are.
It's very hard.
Because boys here tend to turn out the same.
But I am trying.
Cause when you are happy, it makes me happy.
You're my bestfriend and my "little sister".
When I hear or see you down and out about a boy,
It makes me want to show that boy the side of Kate no one ever should see.
The side that could probably kill someone if it got down to it.
I may sound over protective.
But it's because I am.
I have been where you are a bajillion and two times.
And it's hard.
Some of the hardest times in life.
But as long as you have good people around you,
You can make it through anything.
So please try and smile.
And if you can't call me up
And I'm pretty sure I can make you smile and laugh in a heartbeat.
I love you so much Samantha.
I'd put myself out on the line to show you how important you are to me.
Because I know you'd do the same for me.
We're bestfriends till the end.
We have so much time ahead of us.
So don't twell on a silly little boy that is more concerned about his happiness than yours.
Life's too short for that nonsense.
You'll find someone.
I promise you that.
You are what almost every guy wants.
Just keep that head held high.
And know I adore you.
More than anyone :)
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