Well, im back again, another 2 days have gone by, and since i know that ill be very busy these next few weeks, I figured i was due to post another entry as i head back.

This week for me has very been busy, starting off with shooting for a catalogue last tuesday (oh, i almost forgot that its been almost a week now). The shoot was fun; I shoot it with another 4 models on the set, another guy from brazil, and my brother (yep! my brother is also a model), and 2 other girls, one african-american nd the other was asian. It was a half day photoshoot, but still fun, cause we get to talk about cultures and past experiences. The shoot started earlier as expected at around 10am which ended up at around 7pm, its quite a long photo session (and i dont know why) maybe cause they let us have intervals after one another. We have lots of time to talk and mingle rather than take photos i should say. There a lot of food rather than the usual turkey sandwiches nd some cold drinks nd water on regular set. But i believe most of it just became a waste, since you know models (they eat only what they could fit into their mouth). But anyway, so after the shoot, all of us have nothing to do for the rest of the night, so we figured out that we should go out to party. We went to common friends' party bash (shes actually a designer) which i have worked with a year ago. But i went home earlier, cause someone called me and she told me that shes gonna head to my house that night (from i dont know where), so i left the party earlier. I was home at around 11pm, theres traffic all over the city, nd it surprises me, cause its almost too late to hold such traffic (reffering to as the casual traffic time here at the Philippines). so enough about that.. The following day, i woke up at around 10am by a phone call, it was my agency, telling me about my week's schedule.

To break it all down:

October 10 - Meeting with a producer (whos planing to have another catalogue shoot that week)

October 11 - runway castings

October 12 - runway show

October 13 - Event which i would be guesting on

October 15 - Another meeting (this time with familliar faces) regarding a photoshoot the day after

October 16 - Another photoshoot (and it super early, starting at 5am) *note - it would be within the next few hours...* (since its already 12am, oct.16) so it means i will just be having a lil time to sleep. Great!

October 20 - Another shoot

Busy, but i hope those days not mention would be actually a free day, since im wanting to go somewhere with friends (even a 3 day vacation on a beach at hawaii maybe or simply Boracay). Its been a while since i last vent on a vacation far from work.. I guess i just deseve to have that moment.

--BACK to whats up now, its now past 12am (oct 16) i got home at around 8pm from a dinner with some friends (models that i would be shooting with later). I ate a lot earlier, a bowl of pasta, a crepe and a banana split (which i shared with a friend). The catalogue that we would be shooting later would be for a halloween special. Producers would want me to be a werewolf or a vampire (yep, complete with all the long nails nd the side burns) anyway, this week is really a very busy week for me. Not to mention the pressure, cause my dad went home to visit. nd my mum told me that shes gonna be home again next week (to talk about some bussiness shes been askin me to do) not considering the fact that iam very busy with modeling now (i forgot, she dosent take modeling as job). Anyway, that would be a longer story...

Well thats about it for now.. Ill will post an entry as soon as i can or again, whenever theres a noteworthy happens.

Good Night nd Good Morning

-Marcus

i just blinked and years went by... i could see older guy now and i still dont know how to handle him. still learning to grow smarter while growing older.  its been a while since i wrote a blog. and as i sit and recall, i kept on talkin none sense and childish things, which constantly reminds me of how much i have changed.

last day, i saw monsters, i just smiled and think about those times, when they are still chewing on me. they hesitantly smiled back on me, maybe thinking how much they misses ganging out on me. im proud of myself, i have overcome something i thought i could not years ago. im more focused on life now, enjoying every single hour that passes by, but i never forget to work my ass out to where i would like to be tomorrow. the crazy world of modeling have me still interested, im not tiered yet, just getting started. theres a lot more for me and i know i could do it. but for the mean time, im having myself ocupied most of the time by doing photography and digital arts, trying to look for enough money to have my new studio and a new mac computer with a big ass gigantic screen, you know it comes with a high tag, so hafta work now real hard. im slowly getting connected again to old friends and coleagues, its hard looking for time these days, when everyone seems to be so busy, those whom you could call on to easily, are those who would just agree on a booze-till-you-drop session (cause thats the only thing they make themselves busy with) haha! but good times i say, just living the good life, but im done with that, but still having some once in a while to keep it balanced.

(Saturday) right now, im having my breakfast, a peanutbutter and jelly sandwich and a glass of milk, before finally getting day started. i decided to check on myspace and frienster then check mails to be updated. i have posted a new set of photos from the photoshoot last Oct 09/2007. that was a whole day of shoot then we went to a party later that night.

so.. im running low on what else to write, i just would like to thank you guys for the positive comments and messages, you guys are keeping me inspired. well, thats about it for this one, ill try postin again as soon as can, or whenever something noteworthy happens.

stay positive and get going!

-Marcus

tryin my luck.. for a hair product..

Time now is 1am, still I don't wnna sleep yet. My head cant think of any, just blank. Perhaps I would like to travel somewhere. Yawning right now, so you'll have the idea of how bored I am. Scratching my nose now. Anyway, I can see some dvds on my desktops, but all of them, I have finished watching. Serendipity, XXX (vin diesel movie), The Italian Job, Borne Identity, Fast and the Furious, Daredevil, Phonebooth,  and Fight Club which I think the best. Tyler Durden (from Fight Club), he sells soap, ironically, i sell soaps too. Played by Brad Pitt, Tyler is a guy without fear, he do a lot of crazy shits. Running around, fooling around, doing crazy stuffs. In that film he said, "how much do you know yourself, if you haven't been in a fight?". So I started askin that to myself. I haven't been in a fight lately, and I would like to be just like Brad Pitt. Yes I would like to be just like him. C'mon, hes famous, everyone likes him (well, most) he earns a lot of money and respect, not to mention his effortless good looks. I wonder, does he get into fights? I mean in real life? Should I be again in a fight too? For a change? I know everyone has a Tyler Durden, just waitin for it to show up whenever you are bored or just cant sleep. Let talk about Serendipity, a romantic movie, but does it really happens in real life? Two individuals met once, have this very interesting conversation, then got separated (by destiny) then all throughout their lives, they are still longing to be with each other (take note that the both of them is now engaged with their own fiancé). So they hafta search of each other. Then of course, a movie is not a good one if it wont end up in the way the audience would want it to be. So they meet again (by destiny, you hafta see the film for you to understand what I am talking about. Ok?) then they live happy for the rest of their lives. Oh wait, I don't really know if that's for the rest of their lives ok, I just assumed things would be like that for the both of them. Destiny, for me it is a perfect mixture of chance and choice. If you would to trust on destiny alone, then whats the reason for living, making decisions, and choosing what you want? If one strongly believe in his destiny, to the point that he is just letting destiny decides for him, does that mean he is destined to let destiny decides for him, then no one should blame him for that? For myself, I live my life to how I want it to be. I make decisions but with my intellectual capacity and experiences in the past (which in mostly I chose the right one) lol. I choose what I think I really wanted and what I think is good. If I don't want it then I would not even bother to think of it. As far as I know, no one should live in regret, regret for not choosing what they really want, for letting that chance slip away for not grabbing it because they think about other people. Well of course, I don't wnna sound rude, don't think of me that I do whatever, not thinking if I would to hurt anybody. Lets just say that I am in my perfect balance. Destiny, chances, choosing, faith is a very broad topic to talk about. Everyone has his own beliefs in life which no one can ever question. All through my 19 years of living, I can only think of few regrets in life, one of it is that, once in my life I have made the stupidest thing by choosing friends that eventually grew into monsters that in any time can eat you alive (that's up to now). But on the other hand, because of them, I am a changed man. Without them I wouldn't thought of any modifications. They became the best reason for want I am now. Second regret is, that I have chosen to be with that group of monsters that boost my counter identity that up to now I am still fightin on to. I have started on killing that other me, which iam really thankful of. Because my alter ego is a hindrance that stops me of doing what I want. Third regret is… uhmm.. see? I cant think of anymore… asking a person about his regrets in life means swimming deeper into his heart. It is the best topic to bring up to whenever I wanted know the person more. Up to this word I have made a total of  715 words 3 644 characters (with spaces), and 42 lines of everything I wanted say right now, cause I am terribly bored. Wait up, I hafta go to the restroom… back now, do you believe in what they say about your keyboard and mouse of your computer, that it is one dirtiest thing on a bed room? Well not to mention your door knob. Well I think its true, I forgot to wash my hands after taking a pee a while ago. Dammit! Haha!

I would like to be an actor, to be well-known, to earn money for what I enjoy doing. Yes I maybe happy because I love what I see on the mirror, but this face is barely even famous. I have came a long way, thinking about what I am before. but I don't wnna stop here, and I should not stop here. No one will ever be contented, for if he does, he'll die probably the day after. I would continue to dream, and to make them come true. Like what I always say, I am still young, I got more adventures to take and a lot more to discover. Changing is a process… a life long process. Every day I make sure that I learn, even if that thing to learn is not that important, I still make it a point to learn.

I wonder, how good does it feels like to go around the world with everyone knows who you are. They respect you, look up to you, and is interested in every thing that you do or say, like when you were just to buy something at the grocery or when you just want to park your car on mcdonals to get a big mac and a large coke. Even though I never fail to make a single head turn and gawk whenever I walk wherever, I think it would be amazing if everybody knows your name and that they know you are a movie personality. And they respect you for that and they give you certain privileges. But my life does not revolve just around that dream. I got a lot more plans, like, lets say how my wedding should be, my wife, how many beautiful children I want to make, how to have a house of my own, my plan about my family, my mom and siblings and my own family to be in the future. And a lot lot more to think about. This is getting too long… I have now created a total of  1200 words, 6020 characters (with spaces) and 72 lines. Again, I am writing this cause I am bored, right now, iam sittin in front my computer, just besides my bed. Besides my bed on the left are my shoes, some boxes, paper bags and a chair. On my headboard right above my bed, I got some magazines, speakers, some of my soaps (that are waiting to be delivered) bottled water, and my wallet. On the left side across my bed is my closet, besides it is a hamper for dirty socks, boxers and shirts. On the right side of my closet is a breakfront there I have a stereo, some cds, books, pictures and caps. Right across those is my tv which is right behind me. Then its my computer chair with me sitting on it, em in front of my computer, typing whatever crap that pops out of my head. Hahaha! That's crazy, I just want you to have a picture of where I am at the moment. Right now, I am wearing a jacket (cause its cold here in my room) a red shirt and a boxers, and a brown slip-ons which I use inside the house. Now em getting silly. Its almost 3am now, been sitin here for like 2 hours, drinking, eatin, thinkin and typin this shit out. Haha! em thinking about my princess, on how to give this gift for her birthday (that box is just besides my bed) cause that fuckin federal exchange is askin me to pay 6599 peso for this package alone. Anyway, as I was sayin, I am thinking about her, dammit! God! I got scared (suddenly I heard some cats fighting on my lawn and it sounded freaky man!). Back to what I am sayin, I am thinking about her, shes probably on work now… shes nice, but haven't seen her. That's my problem.. cassey who "used" to be my princess always tells me that this would not do me any good. But I don't mind her. But on the other hand, it would be much easier for me if my lucky princess is around. That's not necessary for now. But it will, eventually.. its now September, and a few more months it would be 2007, its too forwarded. Time is too fast, but as far as I know, it do me all good, this year is a 360 degrees turn, all about myself and planning. This is the time which I can say that everything is on its way to the better track. Em doin good right now, and thank god for that. Wait up again, I hafta go to the bath room… ok, back now! I did wash my hands! I know what you're thinking! Hehe! This is gettin too long, I wonder who the hell will read this crap! But anyway, its all about what I want to say cause I am bored.. em listenin to some mp3 now, theres the superstar playin… you said you'll be coming back this way again… thats a line from that song. Have you heard "the last time by eric benet" that would make you fall.. this is the last time, ill fall in love… that's a line from it.

And I didn't need to ask or even wonder why, because each question is answered when you are near, and im wise enough to know, when a miracle unfolds. This is the last time ill fall in love… now don't hold back, just let me know, could id be moving much too fast or way too slow, cause all of my life, ive waited for this day, to find that once in a life time. This is it ill never be the same. You never know what its taking me to say this words, and now that ive said them they could never be enough. As far as I can see, there's only you and only me.. this is the last time ill fall in love..

Now that's romance right there man! I am dreaming of that song to be played on my wedding! Haha! dammit! Em getting too cheesy man! But that song was well composed, the words in it are greatly picked by whoever made that. It gives me that picture of two people so in love, in a perfect setting, then that song is filling the room with love, just that perfect time, no turning back… Gives me goosebumps man! Its like when I would sing that song to a girl, then it would be forever, you know "that would be the last time I will fall in love" and that would be with her..  that song got that story, try to feel every word in it, then you will see that story I was talking about… I maybe a bastard most of the time, but, I got that in-loved-boy inside me, now dammit you have seen that boy.. hahahahaha! Don't freak out! Another song I love right now is "the distance by evan and jaron" from Serendipity movie. There was this line "I am not ashamed, that every breath I take im callin your name" and its like whoo! Haha! its like he can take everything just to see her smile again. Its like they are far away wit each other, and they would do anything just to reunite again… love is making them connected and it make them alive… hehe! Now em all cheesy and all sticky! Hahaha! Em kidding! (it just rhyme)

Up to this far, you have been reading a total of 2200 words, 10879 characters (with spaces) and 131 lines of a guy whos bored… and believe me you are just as crazy as me man! Is this a fairy tale or a tragedy? I don't fuckin care, em just killin time. It's a good thing to do when you are bored, think, write and share. Hahaha! Don't blame me cause you are bored too.. hehe! You have been reading a work of a guy who is extremely bored, but don't wnna sleep, crazy, passionate, smart, not to mention good lookin, a good teacher (hell no man!) an evenly great student (fuck off) and a totally lunatic person! Haha!

Yawn… blink for a second.. then think again…

September 9 2006, that alter ego is only ¼ alive… thanks to Tyler Durden and his project Mayhem. I have now discovered my twisted philosophy. Tyler said "self-improvement is for the weak--it is self-destruction that really makes life worth living" fuck that, I don't agree with Tyler on that, I think self-destruction are for people who don't want to see the day after. Hahaha! I can now feel that change, I now enjoy things that I never did before. (em not a member of fight club, hahahaha!)  I could be whatever I want if I really want it and if I would work hard for it.

I was reading this book, then in some ways this line struck me it goes "if one enjoys sunsets, he must be in deep sadness" and I was like, damn, I enjoy sunsets more that sunrise (right now) and I cant think of any reasons why, em I in deep sadness? Haha! do I sound sad? No I say, I am happy. That book must not mess out with my head man! Hehe! And you do not need to mess up wit my mind too.. em just kiddin! Haha! on the lighter side, I am about to end this crap.. haha! I just wanted to share things on my head whenever em bored like this, so you will have the idea of how I am if bored. Haha! 2538 words, 12825 characters (with spaces) and 159 lines, im off…

Try bringin up your Tyler Durden then relive project Mayhem… haha! its all worth livin. Good day!

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i was hangin out at the global city, with couple of friends, just people watchin then clubbin as usual.. i went out to buy a bottle of water, while sitin on a bench, someone came up to me.. she goes, "hi! are you waitin for someone?" so i said no.. she goes, "you got gorgeous eyes.." so i smiled back then still confuse.. then i asked what do u want? or if theres anythin i can do for her.. she said, "actually i need someones help.." looks like shes lost or somethin... then she frowned back at me.. she goes "i need to go home now.." em confused actually by that situation.. she added "my mums waitin for me, nd would kill me if i dont go home now.." then i said, "so why still here?" she said "unfortunately, i lost my purse, with my mobile phone, nd money.." so now i know the problem.. i looked at her.. she looks sweet, nd smells good, speaks proper english, about 5 ft 5 inch tall, with stylish clothes, then she looks pretty too.. so i asked.. "what can i do to help?" i offered her my mobile phone, so that she can call someone or better yet her mum to help her out.. but she said , she dont know her mums digits.. now shes actually askin for some money from me, its no problem, (shes askin money from other people "guys", she looks beautiful, so i thought someone might take advanrtage of her, so i said, i would help her) i asked her, "how did u get here?" "by cab" she said.. its 3am, nd i know it would be much dangerous if she go home alone.. so i said, "if you want, i can drive you home.." she smiled back, then said, "really?" thats no problem i said, (she looks harmeless nd ok fine, she looks fine..) i asked her where does she lives, she said, in greenhills.. so i really did helped her out.. at the car, she sits quietly, couple of chats, she told me shes only 18, few words.. then we arrived at her house, mums waitin for her.. she offered me a cup of coffee or somethin.. i said sure, then i explained to her mum what happen nd that em just tryin to help, shes very thankful that i accompany her daughter home.. her name is "Rea" she asked for my number, then told me that next time she wnna go out wit me again.. haha! then earlier, i was actually wit her, we go go-kartin, nd shes super nice, nd sweet.. so there.. i found a new crush i mean friend.. lol! just sharin my last night.. take care friends!

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