"Let me give you a little inside information about God. God likes to watch. He's a prankster. Think about it. He gives man instincts. He gives you this extraordinary gift, and then what does He do, I swear for His own amusement, his own private, cosmic gag reel, He sets the rules in opposition. It's the goof of all time. Look but don't touch. Touch, but don't taste. Taste, don't swallow. Ahaha. And while you're jumpin' from one foot to the next, what is he doing? He's laughin' His sick, fuckin' ass off! He's a tight-ass! He's a SADIST! He's an absentee landlord! Worship that? NEVER! "


and if i offend any of my christian friends, im sorry.......

true happiness
true love
true romance.................
...............not trying to sound like a total skeptic, but i wonder if any of this exists. seems someone has always gotta be shitting on your parade. trying to tell you what to do, trying to ruin your day when you should be on cloud nine...trying to tell you they love you and then acting like you dont exist. keep you in the background like a piece of furniture..
i wonder if we're all just lying to ourselves. totally deluded by countless romance novels and sappy chick flics where everything ends happily ever after.
AM i a skeptical fuck? have i turned into a cynical bitch? i think im just a realist. now if you'll excuse me....i must go tend to some errands, but i shall be back. shame on me for starting this when i knew i wouldnt have enough time to finish it.
and now im back, and my train of thought has totally derailed and i have no fucken idea where i was going with this. im sure it had to do with the fact that i was having a wonderful evening with my ladies, and somehow everyone in my immediate "life" had a fit and totally pissed me off. shat all over my fucken parade.

oh well..........PHACK it.
remember kids, not everything you see on tv, movies, read in books or hear in songs is true.

are you fucken kidding me? this is coming from the bitch who's man i TOOK, TWICE. and who im SURE if i tried, i could take again, and again and again. thats why the bitch keeps sweatin me. two years later, and shes still cryin about shit. still talking shit, still trying to taint my name. well let me tell you something HONEY, ive got a man, a real man. one that doesnt beat on me the minute he gets drunk and called out on his shit. so dont worry your pretty little head about "your man". you see, the truth here is simply that I WAS TOO MUCH WOMAN FOR YOUR "MAN" TO HANDLE, SO HE SETTLED FOR YOUR ASS.

today marks the fifth year of the day my lil family (well what is left of it) was blessed with two very beautiful, wonderful and unique souls. today, the two very important very special lil men in my life will be tuning 5. GOD DAMN 5 years old already. it feels like only yesterday i was visiting them in the hospital while they were in the incubators. (the were premature) and now, if fills my eyes with tears of joy and my heart with an over whelming sense of happiness that god, or SOMEONE blessed us with these two little people. sure, ive turned into the biggest puss, ive turned into a total softy....and i worry about things that ive never worried before, but its ok. for them, i dont mind changing the person i am. for them, i would do anything. for them, i am truely thankful because if it wasnt for them, i probably wouldnt be here right now.
happy birthday to my little twinkies. your tia (nina) loves you more than she ever thought she could possibly love another human being.
 

i'll never be "the hot girl". the one boys take one look at and swoon and act a fool over. im usually the chick that sits there and has to hear it. "that girl was hot mars did you see her"
i'll never be the hot girl with the perfect make up, and perfect hair. with the skinny jeans the nine inch heels and the blouses with my tits popping out. my uniform is a little less revealing.
and if and when you do pay attention to me, i wont be the perfect girlfriend. im not the pin cushion type of chick that will just lay there and let you do your buiz when shes not in the mood. wont suck your dick just cause you had a shitty day at work. doesnt mean i love you any less, just means you need to work a little harder to get what you want out of me. but oh, how dare i? when you could of been with the sexy hot pretty girl that would suck your dick at the drop of a dime? well thats just me.  i am the girl that has insecurities. ive been hurt. my heart shattered into a million pieces, shit, im even the girl that has been beat by the man she believed loved her. i will put up a wall. and it will frustrate you. and you will think im over you, and chances are, you might be right. impulsive, reckless, flakey, confused the list goes on and on. but i'll tell you what, i am the girl that is always going to have your back as long as you have mine. the girl that will be there ready to rumble by your side. the bitch that will throw bottles and break poolsticks over any mother fuckers that try to do you wrong.
aahhhh, the life of the dude chick......maybe i'll write a fucken book about it.
p.s. sorry i turned out to be less than perfect.

good friends are hard to come by these days. they're either fake ass bitches that are friends with you for their own hidden agendas, or they're fake ass motherfuckers that will stab you where it hurts most and leave you high and dry when you really need them. i am glad to say that this is not the case with a handful of my peeps, but perhaps the one friend i KNOW i can always count on is mr. ward. been through thick and thin with this fool, and we've stuck by eachother through the good times and the bad. ive said it a million times and i'll say it a million more, i dont know where i would be today if it wasnt for eric.

so here's to you my bff, on this, your 30-? bday. here's to making it through another year of craziness, here's to you, and your family, and here's to us, cause weeze some badass mother fuckers!!  and if no one else thinks so, its all good cause we do, and thats all that matters. ahahahahah i love you man!!

i hope everyone has a great xmas...and that you all get to ring in the new year with those you love.

i realize this has been a very trying year for a lot of my friends, dealing with heartache and loss, but remeber that life is what you make of it. and you just have to take the punches and keep on L-I-V-I-N!! i hope that next year will be a better year for you.

i love all of you guys with all my heart. be safe....and be merry.

I have NEVER agreed with ANYONE as much as I agree with my friend Benny today!

 

"it is a shame stupidity isn't painful"

It really is folks….it really is…..if I had three wishes, that would definitely be one of them. And I don't mean, "oh that dumb ass cant spell or do math" stupidity, I mean fucken idiotic, lack of common sense stupidity! Uugghh I know I am not the sharpest tool in the shed at times, but COME THE FUCK ON PEOPLE!!!

Anyways, other than THAT, I am feeling great today! Hope everyone is having a great day!! Love you guys!