its a reality check for sure. I have been a part time smoker for a few years, not really a lot, mostly at work, drinking, stress, any excuse worked for me. But about a month ago I found out my Great Aunt has cancer. She surivied breast cancer for about ten years and now uderan (sp?) cancer. And at Thanksgiving she has two spots on her lungs. She is 90 years old and I  feel really bad that there is nothing they can do for her.

So back to a month ago when I found out. I stopped. Cold turkey. Dead in my tracks, no more. I cannot even justife it anymore. I am done. No more excuses. Pretty much since my Great Aunt, her sister (my grandma) have had breast cancer and if my mom gets it too. I have 95% chance of getting it. Pretty much plan on it..... so I stopped..... Sure I have been places and stressed out on a number of things, but it doesn't matter... I won't do it.... its a disease and smoking won't help....

So its done. I am working out, slowly getting back on track with good home cook meals with fruits and veggies and just slowing down. Sure school is always there and so is work, but I need to take a day and just do me stuff. Derek and I had a great sunday together. Nothing planned, just playing it by ear. Movies, cuddling, popcorn, and pissing off the dog, with our endless laughter is just amazing. Plus falling asleep all cuddlely in a nice warm bed, still brings a smile to my face and my heart swells... nothing like it.

I started christmas shopping, which is pretty amazing for me, cause I wait until the last dog is hung, before I start. Funny how I love working in retail but cannot stand shopping for long periods of time. Hate it... really......

So peeps, have fun this week. Twilight freaks run to Hot Topic and get your stuff. Ps. No we don't have any extra tees in back. This is it people. You waited too long..... Kisses!!!

So this is my day off and many things need to be done.

Breakfast with Derek at the local pub is in order.

Read and post assignment.

Running and getting food, for me and the dog and many other running around stuff. E gahs!! I like how all my days off fills up so fast before I know it.

Also this cutting, sawing and what not noise is outside. Because this fine city of De forest decided to trim trees so early in the morning that you feel your skull crack along with this eeky weather to match. Crap!

Did I say this was my day off?? Shouldn't there be a law saying that it should be sunny, and you should have nothing to do except what you want to on your day off?? I need President Elect to work on that. Screw bail outs.... ijk....

I have been on vacation for over a week and many things were done, but not as much as I planned of course. Things done.

*got math week 5 done and I am ahead and have 3 more days left. (Thank you Jesus!)

*clean out all kitchen cabinets to make sure the mouse is in fact gone. (Gods speed little guy)

*Rearranged the bedroom and added many candles, stars and dusted. Very romantic (sp?) and comforty.

* voted (good luck my friend you are going to need it- find a big shovel.)

*Had dinner with Pam finally and Ms Chloe who is an angel. (good friends are hard to find. Thanks for that Pam)

*Halloween was short be fun as always. Love you Darrin and Dave and many others for great friendship.....

*Miss everyone at work. Thanks to everyone to holding down the fort. Much love to Chad and Justin.

*Thanks for the awesome haircut Megan. You are an artist for sure. Your little shop is beautiful and so comfty.

*Most of all I loved all the time I spent with Derek. The laughter and love I hope will never stop.

I have recharged my batteries and rady for the holidays craziness. (I think)

Pink - So What ( Official Music Video )

Even though this is a break up song, this has become my anthem. Enjoy!

Go to Shockhound.com

Your music future will never be the same.

Peace....

Holy Shit! Manson! I still cannot believe it! What a trip. Good times, drinks, fashion, and music! Now that is a business trip. Now it is getting back on track. Detox the smog, crappy food, soda, and not much sleep. The schedule needs to set. I must get back to normal. (whatever that is)

Fall is here. Halloween is around the corner. I love the smell of Fall. Cool and crisp.

Peace Peeps!

Much love

So I just got back from California for my Managers Meeting. We always have a party on the last day. Who played at the party you may ask? Fucking Marilyn Manson thats who!!!!! Holy crap I love my job! Mind blower for sure. Pixs later. Much later. School started today. Gotta go..... HOLY CRAP!!! Marilyn Manson!!!!!!

More later.... I am beat....

Hello everyone!

I am off to California for work and it should be a lot of fun. With music, free swag and Fashion.

So I wish everyone a fun weekend and be safe and good to each other.

I will miss you guys at my little store.

See you soon and there will be pictures

Besides having the best birthday weekend ever, I started back in yoga. I promised myself that I am not too busy with school and work to set aside time for my health. I have had terrible leg pain that requires me to take advil like candy and it must stop. I hate taking drugs just to function and I hope yoga is the answer. My mind seems clearer anyways.

I have a busy two weeks ahead of me. I finish my class this week and along with a class union on Saturday. The following week is getting outfits and costumes together for Cali. I am excited and the free swag to give to my staff is always a treat. It is busy and exciting but I get worn out easy so another reason to get yoga going and make the body want to move.

Now I must go and collect my homework so I can finish a revise on my final part of my class. Don't ask it is a nightmare. This class has bored the hell out of me and I thought it was going to be fun.

So peace peeps and have a great week.

Works been crazy with many changes, changes for the better. The mgrs meeting in Cali is coming up fast and that always makes us happy and gives you hope for the holidays.

School is tough and just out of control. Alot of reading this time. I read all the time. But it is interesting. Like did you know that in the US we get over 3 million tons of junk mail daily!!???!! Seems  impossible...

Justin today introduced me to a new CD from a gal called Kurli (sp?) Good stuff.

Well Peeps. Peace out. Call out to Lynn. Be safe in huricane land. Pam. Need drinks together.

Count down to Motorhead...starts...