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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 29
Sign: Capricorn

City: Tulsa
State: Oklahoma
Country: US
Signup Date: 8/13/2005

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September 30, 2009 - Wednesday 10:54 AM

Current mood:  optimistic
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
Peak experiences, transitory by neccesity with corpal forms poised to rend, bellies to fill: a glance of the sublime is a boon- for sure

yet be glad for it's impermenance

lest, in a stupor, you make an easy meal

the task would be to cup the tiny moment, as though it were a spark

draw it too quickly to yourself, it will go out

try to crawl and curl up inside it, you would be vexed
November 4, 2008 - Tuesday 8:09 AM

Current mood:garishnotful
to feed the belly couple cans of tuna through the day

biscuits and grazy at night

maybe with some chicken

brain nourishment juice

v8

coffee

air

light

motive
Currently watching:
King of California
Release date: 2008-01-29
September 6, 2008 - Saturday 10:36 PM


Chapter I:
Setting The Stage

 

 

 

 

 

 Dust motes shimmered. The angle of the setting sun sent a shaft of light through the battered windowpane. Leaning back against the crumbling wall of forgone paint, he laid a hand on his bruised knee. To the knee, the warmth of his hand seemed inexplicable. As though a power greater than he used the opportunity to query his vexed mind.

 Never could he remember a time without it, as though it had always been there. Inexplicable. Dauntingly unspeakable. Where were the words? Had they overlooked something when piecing cognizents into language? Perhaps they were too busy dealing with everything else.

 Inwardly he caught himself chuckling. Outwardly, his face set into firm resolve. Questioning the facts would take a lifetime at least. The lingering knowledge of his vision haunted him. Impertinent, it demanded of him. A nameless wonder had shown itself for but a moment, but it had changed him. Now there was nothing of going back to the way life was. He was sure of that as anything he had come to know.

 "Barack, it's time to go."

 Glancing up from is moment of reverie, he saw her standing where the door would have been, had it been closed. A faint smile played across her face.

 "The time ripens, and there is much to be done." Alice gently reminded him.

 "We've been through this." Barack shot back, with a touch more bitterness than he had intended. "I'm not what you think."

 Freely she laughed, and soo quickly that he was reminded of how close she was paying attention.

 "You've more in you than you suspect." was all she said, as she turned and left.

 In the distance, a dog howled. Once... Twice... Thrice. Before the sound had faded, he knew it was true. It was time to go.

 "?" Barack muttered. "How is it supposed to happen?" he wondered aloud, as he pulled himself upright. Already gone, he didn't expect her to answer.  The only answer came from the crumbling room, as though it was relieved to be left to it's own thoughts as well. Silently, it wished him luck, if you could put such a thing to words.

 The night was warm and thick. The low clouds did more than simulate dreaming... They hinted at a primordial time when the world was content with a little less atmosphere. When the grip of strange creatures was a little more firm. Strange creatures. Oddly he felt more akin with strangeness than the hum of the city life encircling him.

 "Where are we going?" he asked when he had caught sight of her again.

 "We go." was all she had to say.

 Somewhere, the sun shone, the rocks spun, and there was nowhere left but forward. Widening his stride, he was soon at her side. Stealing a glance of her umbrella, he stiffled a shiver. No matter when or where he looked, the damned thing was always changing color. Not exactly changing, as far as he could tell. Though he assumed there was a transition somewhere, he had never witnessed it. It merely was a completely different color whenever he looked, acting as though it had never been any color but the one it showed.

 Absently, he kicked a rock off the edge of the curb.

 "So, let's say we do this. And by some off chance, people take to refining themselves more than oil. What then? Propagate and die happy?" Barack lobbed the query, more interested in her style of response than any concrete assurance of their plan.

 "Sure." she said. The humor had left her tone. "Though, first... a place to be."

 With that, they strode firmly into the night. An unspoken agreement lingered beside what was spoken. He knew that whatever might come, they would act together, as one. Her mind was leaning forward into action. He could feel it. Like a man caught in a tree, with nothing but the ground to look forward to, his fate was sealed. Some secret part of himself welcomed the absoluteness of it all. But there was something else. Something on the surface of his mind. An insidious doubt masquerading as surety. Like a film, it all but obscured his deeper instincts. How could he sit in a darkened theatre and see the screen beyond the movie?

 She looked sharply over while he was gently stroking his darkness. In an instant he saw himself raise hackle. An old habit, defensive of his illusions, he felt the tendons just next to the bone tighten ever so slightly. As tension hit his realization, he paused.

 As though changing lanes, he dropped it. Barack dropped the cloistered opaqueness faster then he realised he'd had it, and walked on.

 With a smug grunt of satisfaction, she carried on as well.

 In a desert, half a world away, a whirling dervish puts on his accustomed garments.

 "This place to be, shall we find it, or make it?" Barack asks as they walk from one streetlamp to the next.

 She lingers with her response. A full two lights glide past before she quietly replied "There is nothing made that is not found."

 "Hmf..." He grunted. Pushing his hands into his pockets, he shrugged his jacket a little more comfortable.

 The city around them went on about it's business, as though there was nothing strange about the pair of them. Wives and husbands drove towards or away from each other, absorbed in the thoughts only a city would think. Bikes carried children withersoever they would go. A plump housecat gazed down from above, content behind it's glass window, while an emancipated alley cat howled it's heat across the way.

 Near an ocean, a woman placed food in front of her revered deity, only to remove it and offer it to another.

 "Which would you have?" Alice asked of him, not bothering to mask the amusement in her voice. "Debate or decision?"

 Barack glanced at her, and it turned itself into a gaze. Her eyes shown with a knowing he couldn't quite fathom. When the left of his mouth twitched into a smirk, he found the words. "Leave the debate for the others."

 His smirk found it's way to her face. "A town that weathers the storm is a town that requires a norm."

 "True enough..." Barack sighed. "But evolution favors the strange."

 "In days of old, a kercheif was enough to send a knight along." Alice quipped. "Shall we content with a roof to sleep under and a labor to keep it so? Many a truth was wrought from humble beginnings."

 "Wise beyond your years, as they say. I conceed. Do you fancy a place?" He asked.

 "I am but a yolk if this world be an egg." The tone of her voice showed that much was meant to be left unsaid.

 With that, the two went off into the night. In the shadows of a nearby stair, a man in rags lay on his cardboard bed, staring off into space. He had caught the last bit of the conversation, and now lay thinking thoughts he hadn't had the day before.

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter II:
Mastering A Door

 

 

 

 

 

 Janet pulled off the freeway just as the stereo found room for one of her favorites. By the time she pulled into the parking lot of where she worked, she was singing and almost giddy with excitement. She knew the words, she knew the pitch, and the tone was no mystery. A glimpse of the dashboard told her she need not rush. A full fifteen minutes before they expected her, Janet sat in her parked car, singing and dancing in her seat as she let the song run it's course. When it had finished, she collected her coffee and lunch and headed indoors.

 Deep in the bowels of the earth, a bit of super-heated lava swirled together, forming a clenched fist. Satanfist, created fist first, eventually smiled as the rest of him slowly took shape.

 Janet smiled and waved to Linda, the receptionist. Linda had done her hair up into a bun, and had her usual librarian spectacles. Nice once you knew her, she had a strange detatchment most the time. The office quietly attributed it to her past fling with some cults. She did her job quite well, and seemed to bring the tension level down a bit, so they kept her on.

 Satanfist began ascent from just to the left of the exact center of the earth. This is what he thought.

 "winds whisper more than roar?"

 

 

 

 


 "sure, they didn't have medicine like now, but to go around poof-ing it away isn't sustainable. It's the point of fact: investment of powers"

 

 

 

 

 "if a cave's in a boat, and intentions to float, a course must be set, lest nowhere you get."

 

 Janet flipped on the light to her office, everything where she had left it. She set her purse next to the computer and opened her coffee cansiter as she sat down. Always a go-getter, her inbox had a warm welcome for her. She felt needed.

 

August 27, 2008 - Wednesday 11:56 PM

how the fuck does the protean cell differentiate usefully

and if it can repress, regress, what does it mean for the state of things?

 

for the body is the robe without seams

June 4, 2008 - Wednesday 1:09 AM
May 28, 2008 - Wednesday 6:11 PM

 

"it was actually a rare piece of ancient Persian treasure, beaten out of a single sheet of gold hundreds of years before the birth of Jesus Christ.

Experts said the method of manufacture and the composition of the gold was "consistent with Achaemenid gold and gold smithing" dating back to the third or fourth century BC.

The Achaemenid empire, the first of the Persian empires to rule over significant portions of Greater Iran, was wiped out by Alexander the Great in 330 BC."

Currently listening:
KCRW: Sounds Eclectic 3
By Various Artists
Release date: 2005-01-11
May 23, 2008 - Friday 8:17 PM

the charge transfers and the beats and the breath, organic knowledge of light

if the same things happen, the breath the sight, the express
they have equivalence if ever there'd been had

however, roots know leaves

they use knowledge in another sense

 

HINT:

couple of demons were clawing their face said 'you're early, can we go in the pigs' to which he treated them as subordinates

Currently reading:
Whitechapel Gods
By S.M. Peters
May 20, 2008 - Tuesday 3:47 AM
MONKEY: The infamous irrepressible Monkey King, Trickster God, and Great Sage Equal Of Heaven.




Star of stage, screen and scroll, MONKEY is the true hero of Journey To The West (Xiyou Ji) — the amazing novel of frivolity and profundity written by Wu Cheng'en in the Sixteenth Century. (It's one of China's Four Great Novels, and we highly recommend it to anyone seeking enlightenment or entertainment.

)

From the beginning of time, a certain rock on the Mountain of Fruit and Flowers had been soaking up the goodness of nature and QI energy. One day this pregnant rock released a stone egg, and from it hatched a Stone Ape, who solemnly bowed to the Four Corners of the Earth — then jumped off to have fun.



This was MONKEY. He was high-spirited, egotistical and full of mischievous pranks. He was soon having a wonderful time as King of the Apes. But a niggling worry began to gnaw at him — one which would change his life. The Monkey King feared Death.



To find immortality, MONKEY became the disciple of Father Subodhi, a rather dour DAOist sage. The sage, unimpressed with his simian tricks, gave the Monkey King a new title: 'Disciple Aware of Emptiness'. MONKEY was very pleased with this epithet, not realising it referred to the vacuum in his head.



But after much haggling, Father Subodhi uttered the words of Illumination, explained the process of Cloud-Flying — and also revealed the secret of the Seventy-Two Transformations. Which, thought MONKEY, was extremely good value for money.



Returning home to his monkey subjects, he discovered they were under seige by a fearsome monster. Magic tricks were no good — what he needed was a weapon. So he whizzed off to the Dragon King AO-KUANG and cajoled his way into the Treasury. There he found the great Magic Wishing Staff, a huge rod of black iron which Heaven had used to flatten the bed of the Milky Way. It weighed 13,000 pounds but could expand to fill the Universe or shrink to the size of a needle. MONKEY was delighted with this Weapon of Mass Destruction and used it to bludgeon many a demon thereafter.



It wasn't long before reports of MONKEY's tricks started to reach the austere ears of the JADE-EMPEROR. First the DRAGON-KINGS complained of rudeness and theft. Then YEN-LO-WANG, the God of Death, lodged a formal protest. "That intolerable ape has just vandalised my filing system and made monkeys immortal.

What are you going to do about it?"

Not wishing to shed needless karma, the JADE-EMPEROR invited MONKEY to Heaven and gave him a job. Without pay, of course. This plan to keep the peace was amazingly successful for an entire day. Then MONKEY discovered that his post as Keeper of the Heavenly Stables was so lowly, even the horse manure ranked higher than him.



Insulted beyond belief, MONKEY ran amok, burst into the JADE-EMPEROR's court and dared to threaten his august person. The Ruler of the Universe sighed, consulted his advisors and bestowed a new title upon him: Great Sage, Equal Of Heaven. "That's much better," said MONKEY, impressed.



But by his very nature the Great Sage was irrepressibly naughty. He just couldn't help it. He gobbled up LAO-ZI's Longevity Pills, stuffed his face with the precious Peaches of Immortality, gatecrashed official parties and made insulting gestures to all and sundry. Finally he left Heaven in disgust, claiming it wasn't good enough for him.



Now the JADE-EMPEROR finally lost his esteemed cool. He sent the Heavenly army to obliterate MONKEY once and for all. Nothing could withstand this mighty force... But the Great Stone Ape — immortal, spiritually illumined and filled with Heavenly essences — was not only indestructable but also pretty handy in a fight. The forces of Heaven made an embarrassing display and slunk off in defeat. There was nothing for it — the Ruler of Heaven called for BUDDHA.



Now BUDDHA, in his infinite wisdom, knew better than to subdue MONKEY by force. Instead he offered him a wager. "If you're so clever, jump off the palm of my hand. If you can do that, I'll take the Emperor in as a lodger and give Heaven to you. But if you can't, I'll expect a full apology and penance.

"

The Monkey King laughed to himself. He could travel thousands of miles in a single leap. The bet was on. BUDDHA stretched out his hand and MONKEY jumped...

Several thousand miles later, the Great Sage landed in a desolate plain with great columns reaching up the sky. "These must be the Five Pillars of Wisdom at the end of the Universe", he thought. "That BUDDHA is just plain stupid to make such a silly bet." And, to show his disrespect, he pissed all over the nearest pillar and jumped back to claim his reward.



"Is the Emperor packing his bags yet?" asked MONKEY as he landed. The Holy One raised a sublime eyebrow. "I don't know why you're grinning," he said, "you've been on my palm the whole time. Look." An astonished MONKEY rubbed his eyes and stared at the five familiar-looking pink pillars of BUDDHA's hand. Then he smelt the stench of monkey pee and trembled. The next thing he knew, he was lying on the ground with a mountain on top of him.



And there he stayed for five hundred long years, being fed molten copper and iron pills by an attendent demon while the moss grew in his ears. By the time GUAN-YIN came along, the Great Sage Equal of Heaven was a thoroughly humble creature.



As told in Journey To The West, GUAN-YIN enlisted MONKEY as chief disciple of the young Buddhist monk TRIPITAKA. Together with SANDY and PIGSY, he protected the boy on his quest to India, battling demons and righting wrongs along the way. His natural monkey trickery now had a holy purpose which he unleashed with much enthusiasm — and his uncontrollable ego was kept firmly in place by a little device of GUAN-YIN's devising: a head-band made of gold.



The unsuspecting Great Sage was not prepared for the terrible torture of the Headache Sutra! Whenever MONKEY misbehaved, TRIPITAKA recited the Sutra and the golden fillet squeezed until his very eyeballs felt like bursting. Try as he might, he could not remove it. There was no defense except submission, and pretty soon MONKEY was the most humble disciple the world has ever known. Usually.



After many many many many adventures, the travellers fulfilled their quest. MONKEY was rewarded for all his efforts with the title 'Buddha Victorious Against Disaster' and finally made his peace with Heaven. We don't know what the Great Sage gets up to nowadays, but presumably he keeps himself occupied.

May 19, 2008 - Monday 6:19 PM

Category: Art and Photography

imagine that discord of the mind over long durations alters the minds outward expression...

it's the trick of standing the awareness upon reality, not words composed of no atoms

Currently listening:
Critical Fuse
Release date: 2004-05-18
May 12, 2008 - Monday 2:21 PM

Current mood:  adventurous

he was hailed by magi

if we were to steal into the age of witch burnings and seemed likely to burn

why not wait?