Greetings:

            I hope this finds you in good health and spirits.  Please enjoy this script that I started writing about a recent incident that took place in Chicago recently.  Enjoy

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SCENE ONE: INTERIOR OF A DETECTIVE OFFICE, EARLY MORNING, AROUND 6am.  OFFICER BRINGS OVER BREAKFAST TO SEVERAL YOUNG MEN AROUND A TABLE WHO GRAB AT THE FOOD AS SOON AS IT HITS THE TABLE TOP

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OFFICER: So just so we are clear, the bouncer at the club would not let you in, because you were not properly dressed?  You guys didn’t mouth off, nothing?

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STUDENT GULPS DOWN A BITE OF HIS SANDWICH, AND WIPES HIS MOUTH WITH HIS NAPKIN AND CALMLY STATES, AS IF HE ALREADY KNOWS THIS CONVERSATION IS BEING RECORDED.

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STUDENT: Detective, it was all because of the color of our skin. They let two of our classmates go in and we went to the same sneaker shop and copped the same swooshes, swag and all, and they would not let us in.

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STUDENT #2:  We even changed clothes, me and my man who is three inches smaller then me and white, so his sag was to the ground, got in no problem.

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OFFICER:  So you guys didn’t provoke the security, give him reason to question your motives for going into the club.

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THE STUDENTS LOOK AT EACH OTHER ALMOST IN AWE, AS IF WHAT THEY ARE HEARING IS IMPOSSIBLE TO UNDERSTAND

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STUDENT #3: Look, all we did was want to go in and enjoy the end of our trip to Chicago.  Our class President called months ahead and got all the info on the spot.  What to wear, what not to wear, ID needed, the whole nine.  We were not going to screw up and give anyone any reason to not let us in.  WE ARE GEEKS, officer.  We are MATH MAJORS at Washington University in St. Louis.  We are middle class kids, we know how to behave, sorry, how to act in a club.

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STUDENT #4, STANDS AND APPROACHES THE OFFICER: I am finding it strange why we are hear and the not the asshole who would not let us in.  He is the one who acted unlawfully.  Why is he not here telling you why he did not let us in.  Why are we dragged here to spend the rest of our trip to the Chi, in this fucked up station, while Joe Racist is still at the club, with our classmates.  He is the one who committed a crime.  He is the one who broke the law by using bigotry as a condition to not allow us entry.  I am confused

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THE OFFICER SHAKES HIS HEAD, LOOKS DOWN AND THEN LOOKS AT THE STUDENTS, ALL OF WHICH ARE NOT RIGHT BEHIND THEIR CLASSMATE WAITING FOR AN ASWER.  THE OFFICER SLOWLY LOOKS FOR HIS WORDS, BEHIND HIS FACE AND SLOWLY ANSWERS:

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OFFICER: You are here because we don’t understand and can’t understand why this happened.  It makes no sense to us and it will make no sense to the rest of the country that finds out about this.  I only hope that when people hear about this, they will see that this is not a reflection on Chicago, but on the actions of one stupid individual. 

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THE STUDENTS LOOK AT EACH OTHER WONDERING IF ANY OF THEM ARE TAKING THIS TO HEART OR CAN THEY SIMPLY LET ANOTHER RACIST SITUATION GO BY WITHOUT RECOURSE.

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FINALLY THE LAST STUDENT AMONG THEM WALKS UP TO THE OFFICER, TIRED EYES, FEELING DRAINED AND UNFULFILLED AND SPEAKS AS IF HIS WORDS WILL BE THE LAST HE SAYS

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STUDENT #5: I am so thankful that I have the internet and the ability to contact every media outlet out there so that I can bring to the national forefront what the biggest city in the Midwest, the city that gave Barack Obama his senate seat, the city that created the lottery system by the black community in the early 1900’s who built black colleges and hospitals, only to watch the government take it from them and destroy the South side of Chicago;  so that on November 13^th when MC Serch comes to my school and speaks about are we living in a “Post Racial Society” we can be heard from a place not of fear but from a place of strength, and show the continued ignorance of white people who are in fear of losing their power in this country.    This is just the beginning.

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END SCENE

(OR IS IT)

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See you soon Washington University, Looking forward to it.

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Love is Love

Serch 

What do you want from me?

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Peace:

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            I hope this email finds you in good health and spirits.  As we approach the end of the year, I realize that either A) I blog too much or B) I do not blog enough.  I see other bloggers out there and the sheer amount of blogs they put up is amazing.  I wish I had time to sit in front of my computer and talk about every little thing going on in the world, whether it is news, or Hip Hop, or politics, or relationships, or fashion or current events.  I enjoy when I can to get down and write something that means something, even if it is a bit of a reach (Judging from the response of my blog about Gaga being the new young Madonna?).  I put these blogs up as a way of shedding some weight off my mind and shedding some light in what could possibly be your darkened hallway.  I started to go back over the last two years and looked at all my blog posts and the comments.  I was not looking at the comments to see what people said but more importantly, what you reacted to the most. 

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            Look, I know that many of you would love me to talk about the inside of the business and gossip.  Sorry, but that I will not do, ever.  There are plenty of great blogs that do that already and I personally feel that gossiping is a female trait and that guys that gossip are doing themselves a disservice by practicing in gossip.  I rarely read gossip and I am not moved by those that do.  I have never been on Perez Hilton’s website even when he did talk about me during both of my shows.  I also know that many of you would like me to talk about the music business and how to be more successful and to get more awareness for you music.  Again, I am going to keep it one hundid, I could give you all the info in the world on this blog, and for the most part it would fall on deaf ears.  Many of you could give two sh*ts about the game and the ones who do care usually with send me an email to ask a question.  To those of you who think I have the answers that will help your career, I don’t.  I only have experience and knowledge, not answers.  If you don’t listen you will not learn and will not grow.  See, wasn’t that simple?

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            I want to know what you would like me to talk more about, so I can be focused on what your needs are.  What service can I provide for you that will give you the most enjoyment when you are reading my blogs?  I do not take for granted that many of you stop your day and take the time to read.  I just would love some info on what you would want me to write more about.

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Please advise and that will be my guideline for 2010.  I am all eyes people, open them wide.

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Love is love

Serch 

Peace:

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                        I hope this finds you in good health and spirits.  I was on a plane recently and saw a piece on Gaga and her career.  I have seen her perform and have watched her act.  I thought she was really good on Saturday Night Live and her performance, especially her piano playing, was impressive.  I really like her interpretation of her hit single “Paparazzi” at the MTV Music Awards.  I really enjoy artists who step out and create their own lane with fashion, music, and performance.  She reminds me a lot of Madonna 25 years ago.

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                        When I was in high school (Shout out to Music and Art, 135^th and Convent, Harlem Baby) Madonna was the business.  Her first single “Everybody” was the first glimpse we heard in the clubs and on the radio.  Then came the images and the white lace, fingerless gloves with the black rubber bracelets, numbered in the hundreds, dangling from her wrists.  Her heavy black eyeliner, red lips, blonde hair, became the fashion staple for young females for the early 80’s.  She had a huge following and when she would do shows, there was always some sort of story reported about her stage show.  Her risqué body language, her sensual interaction with the men in the crowd, and crazy pictures of her becoming, lets just say, less covered as shows went on.  She was the chick every dude wanted to have, and every girl wanted to be.  For more than 20 years she was the fashion female to follow, creating lanes for female artists ranging from Christina Agullera, to Gwen Stefani and now Gaga.  I really felt like that after I saw Gaga’scover on Rolling Stone.  How she exudes confidence and vulnerability, even in the face of defiance and artist freedom. 

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                        Some of us who are a little bit older know she has a long way to go and hopefully she will have a tremendous career, but you cannot discount the impact she has had on young women fans today.  She is brave when most female artist succumbs to sexual pressure to compete; she is creative when most artists are just trying to copy a sound that is successful.  More and maybe even most importantly, she is sensual without being overtly sexual.  She is commanding without giving up her own values and her privacy.  This really reminds me of Madonna from early on. 

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                        I am looking forward to seeing her on tour this winter.  I am hoping that her show and her music combine for a extremely stimulating show.  I remember the first time I saw Madonna in concert.  The Beastie Boys opened for her and they got booed off the stage.  Then she came out and for one hour and change she made me, for the first time in my life, want to date a white woman LOL.  I am not in the same place with Gaga, but I know that if she can blow me away on stage, she will have a lane that we as a music culture have not seen open in a long time.

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 I am looking forward to what you have to say, if you have anything to say.  If you have not listened to her album, then do so, it is worth the listen.  If you have not paid attention to Gaga, then do so.  She is worth your time.  I love when artists push me to become fans, and she has pushed me to the ledge and I am ready to fall over.  She is just one good live show away

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Love is love

Serch   

What up doe (Shout to the D)

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            As always I hope this finds you well.  I was sitting in my car a few nights ago and thinking about many memories that I have with my wife Chantel.  I think about how many wonderful memories I have about her and spending time together, go on trips, spending night at home with the kids, our kids being born.  I think about how many times I could not be home due to outside events and how much I wanted to be with her.  Then it hit me…I have many memories that are not true.  Memories that are made up because I created a lie for selfish reason and the explanation I gave her was such an amazing story, that not only did I have to remember it, but so does she.  Lies that have become truths over time because they are a part of our life together, intertwined with the good and happy and fulfilled.  I thought about this and felt compelled as I sat there in my car to call her.  We are in a great place in our relationship.  No bumps, all good, and this is in no small part to my focus on being more present and being able to talk more honestly.  So I called her and after some small talk, I quietly said to her that I was sorry that some many of our memories together are my lies to her.  She paused for a long time, so much so that I thought we got disconnected.  I asked if she was there, and she told me that she forgave me.  She did not want to know which ones, cause I think deep down our partners know our bull better than we give them credit for, she simply accepted my apology as a symbol of continued growth and prosperity for our future. 

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            Relationships are so much about growth then we realize.  We are not the same person we start dating; as we grow we become different.  We get into situations and difficulties that change us, sometime for good, sometimes for bad and sometimes in separation.  I only state this as a way of you maybe looking at your situation and saying, how many of my memories are lies in my relationship?  Lies that may be dormant for years and then pop up when a memory is brought up and your mate or you talk about it, and then the facts are screwed up, or the stories change. 

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            There is a very simple fix to this.  Simply do not lie about a situation.  If you cannot be honest about where you are or who you are with, just don’t be there.  If you cannot get out of it, then tell your partner about your situation (For example: Honey, I am with these guys and they stopped at a strip club and they are my ride home.  Can you come get me or is it cool with you if I go in and chill for a minute?)  This request helps put you and your mate in the same space.  If you want to be at the club, then say that.  If you know you are in the wrong then change your space.  It is not easy, but if your relationship is as important as you think it is, then change your space, which might include your friends, and your partners that you chill with

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            I have had enough lies personally in my life.  I am ready for my relationship to be more about honest memories and not forgiving lies

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What about you?

Love is Love

Serch 

Who gives a twit?

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What is up:

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            As always I hope this finds you in good health and spirits.  Many of you who read my blogs know that I run my mouth.  I know that my blogs are long and trust me I really try to edit them down, but to keep it 1hundid, I really think that I don’t waste words.  I put a lot of effort into what I think and write.  I really have a hard time texting people too, for the very same reason.  To give me 140 characters is like asking me to, well, only write one paragraph on my blogs….can’t be done LOL

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            I am hearing from many celebrity friends that they are “Twittered Out”.  I have heard a lot of blogging about Miley Cyrus and her giving up her Twitter page, due to not only boy friend pressure (From what I read today it seems like her man think it is a waste of time, and he must be giving her some good love cause she agreed without an argument), but her belief that if people want to talk to her they can visit her website.  I remember my man Kay Slay on Street Sweeper Radio saying that he thought that Tweeting people was “Gay” as hell and that no dude, especially not him would be caught Twittering.  (BY the way, Kay Slay has a Twitter page).  I was not really down but thought to myself, why not.  It can maybe help me limit my musing to a few choice words or some daily affirmations.  Let me tell you, I fight with myself to get tweet because I hate having to edit myself, and I am not trying to send out three tweets cause I was running off at the mouth.

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            But is it really that important for the world to know what people are doing are every moment of the day.  Have we become so disconnected, as a society that we get close to people because in 140 characters some one tells you they are doing “Something” that has nothing to do with what you are doing? 

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            Twitter became really hot a few years ago when CNN reported that during an airplane crash, a man twittered updates about the plane and the survivors.  It was all over the news and they showed his 140 character blips about blood, and fire, and victims and having to find his glasses in the wreckage and being mad at himself for taking off his shoes and now he is standing in his sock out side the fuselage of the plane.  Man, after that, people like Ashton Kutcher, Demi Moore, Jamie Foxx, 50 Cent, were tweeting like they were looking for breadcrumbs.  Then every one thought they should have a page.  Many people really do a great job and I like to follow them.  I like to hear about DJ Drama and what city he is djing in and who is in the spot.  I like Michael Beasley and his photo of his new Tat and his bag of weed.  My homegirl Kelley Carter, the Entertainment Reporter for USA Today, is really good at writing sh*t that I could care less about but are interesting cause she is my girl.  The list goes on, so I am wondering now why the entire backlash?  Many of my boys have called me saying “Yo, why do you still have your page up?  That twitter thing is done”.  What is this now, high school where peer pressure should lead me to jump on the anti-Twitter bandwagon?  Oh if they are taking it down then I must not be cool if I still have mine up LOL.  Please, I might never write on that thing again, but I will make that decision based on me, not my boys, not Miley Cyrus, not her man and certainly not because people are thinking that it is not that deal anymore.  I like whom I follow and I like to catch up with them.  I also like to figure out what I am going to say on it.  It might take me 30 minute to figure out 140 characters, but at least I am thinking about my message and what I can say and how I can say it.  Which is more than most people do, when they just talk without thinking.  Or Twitter without thinking LOL. 

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            Please feel free to follow me on Twitter as I will continue to keep people up to date on my mental state, my bowel movements, and what the cost of bread is today.  Or you could just come back hear and read my true thoughts, or even feel free to call me, 305-432-9904

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Love is love

Serch 

A note to my beloved

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Peace:

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            I hope this finds you well.  I needed to share this Poem-Styled note dedicated to my beloved:

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My Beloved

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You have truly opened my eyes this year

You have given me hope when in the past you have shown me that hope was not enough

You have brought me smiles and I return the gesture by offering words of encouragement;

I scream and shout to you, my beloved, to push on, to charge, to go for it, to not be afraid of negative cause I now think only positive

You stumble and temporarily I get frustrated but now my frustration is quickly tempered for you have found out how to get on the right path so quickly

You show me glimpses of what it felt like in years past when we basked in glory and found each other in the throws of jubilation, I see that now more than I have in years past and it feels right.  It feels like it used to feel back in the day.

I find myself inside of your moves, I feel myself inside of your decisions, and sometimes when I question your motives, I go along, for I cannot control what you do, I simply lean forward and splendor in your marvel, my beloved. 

Your control, your strength, the strong that you find, even when I feel you have no more to give, how you push yourself to get it done. I am truly amazed by your constitution.

I loose myself in your emerald color, in your deep green hues that call back to me when I look at you with my eyes fully wide and open

I feel like all of my emotions are exposed as I sit with you and make that important time for you and me, and let no distractions, not friends, not family, get in between us.

When it is our time, I fight for it, tooth and nail, and it becomes almost a religious experience how intense my feelings are for you.

You have been my beloved for as long as I can remember.  You have been there for me since I could recognize my own memories and I am so lucky that we have grown up together. 

That I have watched your growth, and in some cases your rebirth, as you have morphed into a new you, the new you I see this year.

I love to scream your name, I love to hear it back to me, as an echo in my heart and as a tingle on my skin…

You will always be my beloved, no matter what road you choose to take, and no matter what path you choose to follow.

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Forever

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My beloved

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My New York Jets

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(Oh and I love my wife too)

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LOL

Serch 

What are my goals and aspirations?

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Peace:

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            I hope this finds you in good health and spirits.  Well I have not been asked this in quite a while, so thanks Kniff for asking me this in the last blog.  I was going to answer it there but I figured why not put it out there and see if we all have the same type of things we want for ourselves.  Pleas remember that if you do not manifest your future then your future will not manifest.  You must say what you want and worked towards it in order for it to happen.  This is different then telling people your dreams, most people are so caught up in their own lives they have no time to hear what you are trying to become.  I am talking about self-realization and manifestations of your goals.  You MUST say it and then do it.  With that being said here are my goals first, then my aspirations:

1-To work out at least 30-45 minutes every day.  I don’t care if I am sick or in pain or lazy or hung over, I must work on my body

2-To cut back to eating 1,500 calories of food per day.  Mind you this is not some sort of diet but I am tired of carrying around this extra weight and if I can just focus on smaller plates of food and not munching in between meals I can lose without the feeling of loss.

3-To go back to writing every day.  I love to write and have much to say so at least once a day I will write something: a blog, a rhyme, a poem, and an email

4-To meditate once a day.  You forget how precious your breath is and how much we take it for granted.  Take a small moment out of your day and be thankful you can breathe

5-To be more present, more often.  I am a daydreamer; I love to stare out into space, openmouthed and not being productive.  This is not meditating by the way LOL.  If I am more present then all the things above can come to pass

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These are my aspirations:

1-To be on another 40 radio stations.  I am sorry but I love radio.  You can say what you want about iPod and MP3 players, but give me a good DJ and some good tunes on the FM dial and I am there.  I love to listen to a good DJ, like a Star and Buckwild, or Frazen Wong, or Chuy Gomez, or Scott Van Pelt on ESPN Radio.  They keep me captivated and evoke emotion out of me.  I get that from Satellite radio, but to keep it 100, I like commercials.  Always have.  I love a break in the action to hear about a party I might want to go to, or a special at a store that I like, or some funny ad that I don’t care about the product, the commercial sounds good. 

2-I want to be a better father.  I will do my best to maintain a level and standard for my relationship with my kids that makes them feel safe, protected, enlightened, spiritual and grounded.  I need to be theses things as my father was for me.  He might not have been the easiest to be around but my dad gave me all the tools I needed to succeed.  Even when he did not understand what I was doing he gave me insight on how to do things correctly, and I learned that no matter what you do in life there is only one way to things….that is honestly and with integrity.  Thanks Dad

3-I want to be retired by 50.  I feel so good about my life and its direction, and I know it could all change in an instant, but I am working towards being totally retired by 50.  Now, what does that mean?  It simply means that whatever I do, I decide to do it and not have it controlled by outside forces.  I am not retired now, far from it, but I do what I like and I am not forced to do things for money only.  I do things for the thrill of them and for the enjoyment.

4-I aspires to be a better and more learned person every day.  I have always been one who listens and tries to learn.  I would like to learn more, especially about my religion, and about spiritual energy and its connection to our source.

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Thanks again Kniff, for asking me that wonderfully thoughtful question. This was what I missed when I was locked out of my page for a month.  You guys and how motivated I am by your words and thoughts

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Love is love

Serch 

So here is what happened….

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            Peace to all:

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                        I hope this finds you in good health and spirits.  I want to apologize for being MIA for like a month.  I could not remember my password and to get it from MySpace was an ordeal.  I even thought about starting up a new page but that was not going to fix this problem.  I need to remember things that are important to me and blogging here is really important to me.  I realized something when I finally got back on my site.  Well, I realized two things: The first thing is that those of you who read my blogs and respond are some real people.  You are people who are dealing with life and figuring out how to cope without excuse or blame.  The second thing is that you are not followers, being blindly led by my words or my thoughts, you challenge me and make me thing about what I write and what impact they have.  You have no idea of how grateful I am for that.  I love to be involved in dialog that at the end of the day makes me a better communicator and even a more well rounded person.

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                        I have much to say but for right now I gotta bounce.  Now that I will never forget my password again, I am back baby.  Hopefully you will be here for the words and for the ride.  So much has gone on and if you know me then you know that I have an opinion about it

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Love is love

Serch 

Gotta Love it. Listen to our President and what he thinks of Kanye

My views on Kanye:

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            Greetings:

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                        I hope this finds you in good health and spirits.  So this has been the question to me at every event I went to after the VMA’s.  What is my opinion?  What I would like to do is to introduce you to my 12-year-old daughter who would like to let you know her thoughts:  Mia, if you will

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                        “Hi I was watching the VMA’s cheering like any girl would, it was the first award of the night right after the Michael Jackson memorial and amazing speech by Madonna and everybody was pumped! So the nomination were out and Taylor Swift had won she looked absolutely baffled and almost crying tears of joy, everyone was excited for her, she started her exception speech and was interrupted in the middle by an angry Kanye who took the mic out of Taylor’s hand and said and I quote “I’m very happy for you and I’ll let you finish but Beyonce had the best video of all time”.  When West handed her back the mic the look and her face melted away and the tears went from joy to sadness. She looked confused as two men walked her off of the stage”.

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                        Thank you Mia.  My daughter saw this  as a pivotal moment for Taylor Swift.  Her first Moonman, her first be proze at the MTV awards, and then Kanye makes his statement.  He really needs to be examined or someone should have taken the Hennessey bottle that he was drinking from all night away from him.  He has made himself and public figure by putting out great music as well as Internet content, but his actions need serious consequences. 

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                        Do you remember back in the day there was a group, I believe it was a rock band, who went off the deep end after winning an award, climbed up some stage props and began to flip off the audience.  The reason I can’t remember that bands name is that MTV banished them for life off the channel, the same thing they did to Andrew Dice Clay and some other actors.  Now a days, 50 gets to call Fat Joe a Pu$$y and get heavy rotation on everything.  Kanye basically disrespects Taylor Swift and get front page stories and no repercussions from MTV brass.  We need to do some neck checks, if you ask me

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                        The one sliver lining for the evening it that it showed us once again what kind of human being Beyonce is.  To connect her first win at 17 to Taylor and to give her moment, speaks volumes to the kind of human being she is.  I am going to walk away from this incident losing respect for Kanye (Even though he mentions me and my group in “Digital Girl”) and growing more admiration for Beyonce.

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Lets begin discussions with this question

Should Kanye be banned from Music award shows that are taped live?

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Love is love