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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Sign: Aquarius

City: Queens
State: New York
Country: US
Signup Date: 8/15/2006

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007 

Current mood:  stressed
Category: Life
i never really knew how life can be so unpredictable, unaware of my surroundings and yet still hoping that everything would be quite alright... not really regretting what i have done in the past but it's more likely remembering all the things that i used to do and deal with are so different from what i'm doing right now...

wishing that my life doesn't change but unfortunately it did... wishing that life would be fair but it seems as if it's not listening to my heart aches... hoping that everything would turn out well but hasn't change one bit, life is just cruel bashing you onto your back without you noticing it...


here i am listening to my songs lingering on the past and present that was never before... looking back after all those years... still haven't make enough changes that would make me content with what i have and yet still not doing anything about it....


my heart questioning every single thing i have done and the motive that it would cost but am just getting tired of what i thought my life would be.... and still in the future....


where am i going through all this? where would i end up going? what will i do with my dull life? am getting tired and bored... and i just feel like giving up to those instances that would come out of no where... it hurts and i can't get through it... 
12:07 AM 
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Friday, April 20, 2007 

Current mood:  disappointed
Category: Life
i'm so disappointed reli... and i can't get the fact that i prepared myself for everything...
and i can't seem to acknowlegde that people just don't get it... they don't... just not the way that i envisioned it and i'm hating everything right now...
am so feeling unattached and so mad and so angry...
so so disappointed.... everything is just so not organize...
4:41 AM 
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Sunday, March 25, 2007 

Current mood:  giggly
Category: Life
i never thought that i would be so happy in doing this organizing work. and this afternoon even though it was done on a very short notice i manage to get everybody's thing together. people showed up at the event that i prepared. and it was successful. people participate and even brought foods. they even participated in the song that they haven't even heard before until this afternoon... i was just being spontaneaous and it work... but mind me... i haven't got any clue as to what to expect and hasn't done facilitating.. but it was fun... i was agitated by the movie that we watched and was even aspired to get the people involved or even ask theirselves how to get involved. though the audience was not that big. and after the main event some people stayed and have a little salo-salo with singing... i was happy... really!!
5:39 AM 
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Saturday, March 24, 2007 

Current mood:  depressed
Category: Life
i'm at the verge of giving up... really!!
i've been trying to get all these unpleasant feelings that i felt for the last couple of days but it seems like as if whatever i do wherever i go nothing changes in my life i'm still the same, and i'll stay the same. there might be some changes and people know that i'm so afraid of changes and it's really a struggle for me coz i don't really know where it would lead me to. but still i'm open to everything. and it's hard. right now i've been having all this problems that i'm not even aware of. that's in me...
inside of me. i want to give up coz as of today i can't see myself in the future... where am i going?...
who am i? i'm so lost... even i, myself don't know who i really am right now... questions, question... but no answer... where would i get the answer?
i would like to saty at the corner and curl up... not knowing what will i do next... i wanted to be strong.. for myself... for the people that i've been serving but how?
i miss my old self, my old me, my old life... uncomplicated and yet troublesome life...
8:49 AM 
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Saturday, February 03, 2007 

Current mood:crushed
Category: Life
i Never thought that i would end up like this if i only knew then it wouldn't happen...
it started as a one lovely day and it end up me getting frustrated...


fell for the one person in my life that i thought i wouldn't feel one single mushy love or as you call it watsoever...
he was such a very good friend of mine, when i needed him the most he was there, was the one i cried to when everybody else was doing thier own business... i don't really sees him as me getting attracted to him but unfortunately i did become one and it sucks big time...
i'm in a state right now whereas everything would fall out of place coz everything that i cared to love and to hold on was all around him.
i tried avoiding him before... even flushing him out of my system then the unspeakable thing happened and now i'm in a deep shit really and i don't know how to get out of it or even deal with it...
can't even tell to my friends coz i dunno....
so awfull so dissapointed, so disgusted to myself
how to deal with my own unique problems?
how to get the person whom i started to love and care so much out of my system? how people? how da hell in the world would i continue living without him?
waaaaahhh i need help!!
2:28 AM 
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Thursday, December 07, 2006 
- Sneak up behind her

- Grab her by the waist

- tell her shes beautiful

- tell her she has amazing eyes

- when your friends walk by say this is my girlfriend

- Say i love you to her face not over the phone or myspace

- if shes sad take her in your arms and tell her everything will be okay

- kiss her on the forehead

- when you walk with her walk slowly.

- Tickle her even when she says stop

- Dont say i love you Unless you Mean It.

- Would spend every chance with her.

girls repost as - a true boyfriend would..<3
Guys repost as - I would do this for her anyday

In the next 525,600 minutes(?:) and something great will happen to you today. If you don't you will losse someone very important to you will begone in that
11:24 PM 
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006 

Current mood:  restless
Category: Romance and Relationships

ever had a moment pass by without you knowing that you're falling for the person you never thought you would? he's all that you could ever ask for... you tell him everything,even cry on his shoulder when you thought that all else is fallin apart? be a friend for you when no one else is there? you never expected that for just one single minute that you would notice all the sweet things he has done for you would mean a thing?

i do....

he is all that i could ever ask for...
at first it was all because of what we do and what we both have then as time pass by i've noticed that little by little i am falling for him and now my world is just plain messed up

i kept thinking what we both could have if i haven't felt this way or what we could have if we feel the same like i do right now...

 i tried to avoid this uncertain feelings but to my dismay i only did not like him but unfortunately i've fallin madly in love with him [head over heels]

now more than ever i just wanted to see him even for just a glimpse of his smile
i never thought that i would be soooo jealous of everything.... even though i don't want too but i do... it's all so complicated and i just hated it

oh why oh why does it have to be like this?
why do i have to keep falling for him when i know for the fact that all of this is just a wishful thinking? or maybe just a mere nonsense?
why do i have to spend each and everyday living thinking bout him? from the moment i opened my eyes till the moment i closed it?
why do i have to fall in love with him?
is it me or is he worth my time?
one thing is for sure i do really fell in love with him from head to toe... nothing could ever change that i know for the fact that he'll stay in my heart no matter what happens i might give up, i might move on but no one's gonna change the way i feel for him

it's just frustrating really.... why can't you see that i'm falling madly for you? why can't you say the words that i am waiting for? why can't you profess what you truly feel for me? why can't you love me?

1:16 AM 
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Monday, December 04, 2006 
sage: flirting tips
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Girls : If you want
to hold
his
hand,
gently
bump
into it a couple of times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than
once.


Cuddling

Girls : When you want to cuddle with
him,
tell him
you're cold
Guys : Automatically move closer to
her.


Movies

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his
arm
around
you, tilt your head on his
shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.


Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you she loves
you,
look
deep into her eyes, give her a peck on
the lips,
and
tell her you love her too... And mean
it.


Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both laying under
the
stars,
put
your head on his chest and close your
eyes as
you
listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your
hands with
hers.



now make a wish about
something
you
would like
to happen
Between you and your crush....

guys:no grabbing!!


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Stop!! Stop!! Stop!!
Stop!!

-Now copy and repost this; if you don't
you'll have
bad relationships for 69 years

By 12am tonight your one true love will
realize
how
much they want you.
If you don't repost this, you will
have bad
luck for
your entire life!
repost with name flirting tips
12:44 AM 
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Monday, December 04, 2006 

do you love someone enough to do this??
DONT TURN BACK U JUST OPENED IT KEEP ON READIN IT IF NOT U WILL BE BRUTALLY PUNISHED...
If you would jump in front of a bullet for your girlfriend, boyfriend, ex-girlfriend, ex-boyfriend, best friend, family member, or just a person u love, repost this.
Tonight, your 1 love will call, kiss or ask you out...if you break this chain, you will be PUNISHED.
repost with title: Do u love someone enough to do this

12:41 AM 
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Saturday, December 02, 2006 

Current mood:  crushed
Category: Friends
he is sooooo damn cute...and damn him... really
3:27 AM 
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