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Last Updated: 11/5/2009

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Status: Divorced
Age: 48
Sign: Gemini

City: Beaufort
State: South Carolina
Country: US
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October 6, 2009 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  triumphant
Category: Writing and Poetry
In honor of Domestic Violence Awareness Month.... this is my story.






JUST BECAUSE I LOVE YOU


Just because I love you
When you took me away from my family and friends,
I needed only you, and loved you with all my heart and soul,
Feeling our love was special and was never going to end.

Just because I love you
When you began to disrespect me, and started calling me names,
I began to believe I was an awful person, not deserving love from others too.
My self esteem was being battered, thinking my work, actions and thoughts were lame.

Just because I love you
I turned a blind eye to your sexual “giving to the needy’,
Which hurt to the core, because my body was given freely only to you.
So whenever you climbed on top of me, I felt always felt dirty, and seedy.

Just because I love you
I did not retaliate when you stabbed me in the breast,
Or threw me down the stairs, or locked me in the back room,
Or put that knife to my throat and raped me, praying to God to put me at rest.

Just because I love you
I made excuses for all my scars, bruises, stress and strife,
Walking constantly on eggshells, so I would not set you off to do
Those things which scared the hell out of me, pleading for my life.

Just because I love you
I still refuse to let anyone talk badly about you to the kids,
Even though you were never there when they most needed you.
To the grave I will take your animosity toward them, for what you never did.

Just because I love you
As the hurt inside began to well up, seeking a place to reside,
Murderous thoughts began running through my mind, to find a way to off you,
Get away with it, or come up with some ingenious plan to run away and hide.

Just because I love you
That night as I watched you sleep, I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a knife,
Came back to our bed, and dreamed what my life would be like, to be FREE of you!
I then placed the knife under my pillow, decided that you are NOT worth jail for my life.

Just because I love you
Doesn’t mean that I will allow you to treat me any old kind of  way,
I was not put here to be your doormat, your servant or your fool.
Nor am I going to crumble because you are away, and in jail is where you need to stay.

Just because I love you
Never should we see each other again, from the bottom of my heart, seriously, no play.
Stay out my life, and our children’s as well, no need of contact, be well in all that you do.
So I say GOOD BYE to you, forever and always, so long, starting right now - TODAY!!




© 2009, RM Green. All rights reserved.
No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.



July 17, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  vehement
Category: Life

 

As many of you already know,
I am a staunch advocate against domestic violence, and I urge EVERYONE, especially WOMEN and TEENS, to take a few minutes to ask themselves the questions
stated below:


1. Does your husband or boyfriend act controlling, putting you down in front of other people?

2. Does he act extremely jealous of others who pay attention to you, especially men?

3. Does he control your finances and behavior, even with whom you socialize?

4. Does he act violently, losing his temper, striking or breaking objects?

5. Does he make you feel uncomfortable, uneasy or afraid by using certain gestures?

6. Does he tell you that you that you are 'nothing', and can't make it alone?

7. Does he grab, push, pinch, shove or hit you?

8. Does he call or page you often during the day, or just show up to 'check on you'?

9. Does he blame you for how he feels or what he does?

10. Does he pressure you sexually for practices with which you are uncomfortable?

11. Does he make you feel like there 'is no way out' of the relationship?

12. Does he use drugs or alcohol as an excuse for hurting you?


IF YOUR ANSWER TO ANY OF THE ABOVE QUESTIONS IS "YES",
DON'T FOOL YOURSELF -

YOU ARE IN AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP!!!

STOP DOMESTIC VIOLENCE!!!!!!

**If you are in immediate danger, call 911!!**
*For confidential help, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255)*

OR

NATIONAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE HOTLINE
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
www.ndvh.org

OR

NATIONAL TEEN DATING ABUSE HELPLINE
1-866-331-9474
www.LoveIsRespect.org

Nationally, over 4.5 MILLION women and children, and 875,000 MEN are abused annually, and almost 20% of those abused DIE at the hands of their abusers.
This is NOT just a 'family matter' - it is a matter of LIFE AND DEATH - LITERALLY!!

I am not only a survivor of domestic abuse, but also a trained counselor. I worked in a domestic violence shelter for almost 4 years as in administration and as a case manager, so I know this issue from both a victim and victim advocate side. If you just wish to talk to someone, feel free to contact me here by sending a message through my MySpace page at www.myspace.com/msblaqbuttafly.
I am here and I CARE! If I can make it -
SO CAN YOU!

Peace and Blessings,
Michele
Currently listening:
Lifetime
By Maxwell
Release date: 2001-10-16
June 27, 2009 - Saturday 

Current mood:  blessed
Category: Writing and Poetry

 

THE CHAIR


My soul just yearned and screamed,
Reaching out to find someone who cared.
Then I opened my eyes, and it seemed
The only thing that heard was that empty chair.

When I realized that I was all alone
Tears rolled from my heart through my eyes
There was no need to talk on the phone
When all I heard was death and lies.

Deep down inside I felt there was no hope
All that awaited was pain and despair,
Until I felt that wind blow past my earlobe
And that raindrop caressed my cheek, resting there.

I knew then that someone heard my cry,
Came and lifted my spirits, brought me joy.
I turned my head and searched the sky
To see His face, and feel His presence to enjoy.

He made the sun come out and shine again,
Made the birds sing, the flowers bloom on the stair.
He heard my screams, and He cared then,
For He was the One sitting in that Chair.


 

 
 
 
© 2009, RM Green. All rights reserved.
No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.
Currently listening:
Still Here
By The Williams Brothers
Release date: 2003-11-04
April 17, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  artistic
Category: Writing and Poetry

EVERYBODY PLAYZ THA FOOL, Episode 47
 
At about 10 AM later that morning, a carpet installation van pulled up to Athena’s condo, and three workers got out with a huge roll of carpet. They knocked, then opened the door, and began to go to work almost immediately. Within about four hours’ time, they completely re-carpeted the unit, and then they removed the old carpeting and placed it in the van. They took the old carpeting to a waste management facility with an incinerator, placed the old carpeting inside, then one of them fired up the incinerator. They then headed back toward the office.


As they headed back to the office, one of the burly carpet installers sent a text message to Day which read, “The house is clean.”


“Good,” Day replied back, and he then knew that Athena’s body would never be found. He then made a call to the club, and Blu picked up the phone.


“Get ‘J’ ready, I’m on the way,” Day said to Blu. “You know the deal.”


“Ain’t nothin’ but a word, Playa - I'm on it!” Blu answered back, knowing fully well what Day wanted him to do. “How you want him?”


“Laid out,” Day answers. “He’s gonna get a little ‘Jenny Jones Make Over’…”


“Word?” Blu says. “This ought to be FUN! I hate that greasy little muthafucca anyway!”


“Huh huh huh,” Day chuckled, then hung up his cellphone as he drove toward the club. Just gotta make one little ‘pit stop‘…


________________________________________________
 


When Day finally reached the club and walked into the office, he found Blu sitting behind the desk, Jonas bound in a metal chair with his arms chained behind the back of the chair, and his legs bound by rope on either side of the chair, in the middle of the office in front of the desk. Lenny was seated on the opposite side of Jonas. There was one other man, one of Poppy’s trained bodyguards, also in the room posted near the door.


“I’m glad you finally got here, Homey,” Blu stated. “Dis muthafucca been buggin’ the shit outta us wantin’ to know why  his ass is tied to the fuckin’ chair, and I was about to put his punk fuckin’ ass to sleep again!”


“Whoa, good thing you didn’t, B!” Day stated. “You know we need his ass WIDE AWAKE to handle all our business TODAY - just like Pop instructed…”


“That’s the only thing that saved his monkey ass,” Blu said again, looking at Jonas disgustingly. “Sorry-ass muthafucca!”


“Hehehe, ok - time to get down to business!” Day stated. “And we gonna settle ALL BUSINESS - every last drop of this shit - TODAY, so I don’t want ANY interruptions, you feel me, my dude?”  Day directed the last part of that sentence to the bodyguard, who was instructed NOT to let anyone in or out of the office unless summoned.


“I gotcha, Man, no doubt - I'm on it!” the guard stated. “You need me in here or outside the door?”


“Go on outside, and I’ll holla and  let you know what’s up,” Day said, and with that, the guard stepped outside the door and stood his post.


“Now you two, just watch & listen - you ain’t gonna believe most of this shit, B!” Day said to Blu and Lenny. Jonas was still twitching around in the chair, trying to loosen himself from the binding, but to no avail. He instinctively knew the end was near and he was trying desperately to figure a way out of this, but he only had ONE hope, and he had been lucky so far…


“What’s up Jonas?” Day said sarcastically.


“How the fuck you THINK I’m doing, strapped to this goddam chair?!” Jonas asked wildly while breathing heavily. “Why ya-ya-y’all got me strapped to this fuckin’ chair? What the fuck did I do to y’all? I came to y'all for HELP!!”


“Help?” Day inquired. ”What kind of ‘help’ did you need from us? And WHY in the hell did you need this ‘help’?”


“Awww, Man!” Jonas almost yelled. “I told Blu I came here because Sheila and I found Stacy on the floor all shot-up, and that she needed HELP - and to also show him that I DID NOT shoot her! I wanted Pop to know right away it wasn't ME!”


“But when I asked you if she was dead or alive, you couldn’t answer me,” Blu chimed in. “And why the fuck would there be any QUESTION as to whether YOU shot her or not? Y‘all had some kinda beef or somethin?”


“So what you sayin’, Jonas?” Day asked. “You pop up in here and can't tell my man if Stace is DEAD or ALIVE?  Sheeeiit, sound like you coppin’ a plea to me!”


“As usual sounds like you tryin’ to save your OWN two-times, too-slick ass!” Blu said again. “This shit’s not makin’ any sense at all…”


Jonas, scared and exasperated, said, “OK, ok… I admit I came here to save my ass, that’s true - I just said that! But mainly I wanted to tell Poppy that Stacy was shot, and that me and Sheila found her, and she needed help BAD!!”


“Now we gotta rewind this shit a lil’ bit,” Day said. “I thought you and Sheila had broken up?” He then paused for a second then continued his questioning. “So why were the two of you even together?  And WHAT were the two of you going to see Stacy for?  And believe me, you got ONE SHOT at the  FUCKIN’ TRUTH, Jonas… or YOU'RE GONNA GET A TUNE-UP LIKE YOU AIN'T NEVER SEEN BEFORE!!”


“Well, Sheila and I were getting back together so that we could raise Stacy’s baby…” Jonas started to say nervously.


“Come again?” Blu asked incredulously. Lenny’s eyes popped wide open after hearing what Jonas said as well. “Last I knew, Sheila hated yo’ black ass, after the way you treated her… so why would she agree to do THAT?!?”


“Aww, Blu man… Lenny… - y’all ain’t heard SHIT’ yet!” Day said, still trying to fully grasp what he had recently learned. “Just sit back for the RIDE and listen to this shit…!!”


“You said that you and Sheila were getting back together to raise the baby?” Day shot back at Jonas. “Well, that ain’t exactly what I heard…” Day took a slight paused as he slowly walked in a circle around Jonas as he interrogated him.  “I heard that Stacy was gonna have the baby and give the baby to Sheila to raise. And that the two of THEM were gonna raise the baby!”


“I also heard that you and Stacy had a BIG beef because YOU wanted to raise the baby, and Stacy refused to give the baby to you,” Day continued. “Now just WHO is telling me the TRUTH?!” Day stood directly in front of Jonas as he asked this, and looked him squarely in the eye.


“I’M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH, MAN!!” Jonas nearly screamed. “Sheila and I are getting back together so we can raise Stacy’s baby together, the TWO OF US… because that baby is MINE!!”


“WHAT THE FUCK??!!??” Blu shouted in utter disbelief. Both he and Lenny nearly fell out of their chairs when they heard Jonas say it was HIS baby. “You mean to tell us that Stacy’s baby is YOURS?!? That YOU are the fuckin’ FATHER?!?”


Just at that moment, the door to the office flew open - and Poppy stood there, big as day and in the flesh! Everybody in the room was stunned…  Poppy was BACK!! Poppy then stormed in the room, and as Day moved over, Poppy stood directly in front of Jonas and bellowed,


“WHAT IN THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE??!!?? Did I fuckin’ hear you RIGHT??!! Did I just hear you say that Stacy’s baby is fuckin’ YOURS??!!”


Jonas pissed his pants right there in the middle of the room. NO ONE knew that Poppy was home, nor that he was going to be a part of this little meeting - except for Day, who went to pick him up right before this little gathering.


Sheila, who had also come along with Day and Poppy, stepped into the room right behind Poppy and quickly but quietly sat down in a chair in a far corner of the room, as much out of sight as she could possibly muster. She hoped to herself that she was out of everyone’s mind for the moment. She knew the truth had to all come out TODAY, and she was still extremely fearful of the consequences of everyone’s actions, all of which would also be handled - TODAY.


Poppy DID NOT PLAY when it came down to settling business - and she was surely involved.


Poppy continued to glare at Jonas, waiting for an answer to his question. After a long pause, Jonas finally recovered enough to answer,


“Yeah, Pop - Stacy’s baby is mine. I am the father!” Jonas actually felt a bit relieved to say that in front of everyone; the secret was finally out. But he also knew he might not see another day with this revelation, especially the way it all came about…


“I heard everything in here through the intercom at the bar, and I just can’t BELIEVE this shit!” Poppy said, stunned and bewildered. “I really can’t believe this…


“And why am I the fuckin’ LAST ONE to KNOW?!?  SOMEBODY better do some fuckin‘ explainin‘ in here RIGHT THE FUCK NOW…!!!”
 



 
 © 2009, RM Green. All rights reserved.
No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.
 
 

Currently listening:
Everybody Plays the Fool: The Best of the Main Ingredient
By The Main Ingredient
Release date: 2005-07-12
January 27, 2009 - Tuesday 

Category: Life

Are We Really Living The 'DREAM'?

Forty years ago in 1968, Dr. Martin Luther King delivered his 'I HAVE A DREAM' speech, which both electrified and infuriated Americans everywhere, depending on how one viewed the struggle for Civil Rights.
Dr. King stated in his dream that he prayed for the day that his children would be judged NOT by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character.
Do YOU think we are truly living Dr. King's dream after having elected and inaugurated Barack Obama, a Black man, as President of the United States?  Why or why not?
I have definite opinions about this, but will reserve my statements for now... I want to hear what YOU think!  Ladies and Gentlemen, you now have the floor...
 
 

Currently listening:
What's Going On
By Marvin Gaye
Release date: 2003-01-14
July 27, 2008 - Sunday 

Current mood:  determined
Category: Life

This is a REPOST of a blog I wrote back in the summer (AUGUST, 2007), and I think it's time the message were repeated...  Please feel free to comment and REPOST yourself!!  This NEEDS to Be Repeated.... AGAIN and AGAIN...

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I'd just like to share with you some surprising statistics regarding domestic violence...

But first, let's define exactly what 'domestic violence' is.  Domestic violence is defined as any pattern of behavior used to injure or control the thoughts, beliefs or behavior of another family member, usually an intimate partner. This includes physical or sexual battery, emotional or mental manipulation, verbal assault or physical restriction or privilege withholding. This includes but is NOT limited to cursing, spitting, hitting, blocking access to transportation or family, total control and withholding of finances, medical attention or law enforcement, etc..

Domestic violence is NOT limited to intimate partnerships - it also includes child abuse and elder abuse (children or grandchildren abusing their parents or grandparents).

According to statistics gathered by the South Carolina Coalition Against Domestic Violence and Sexual Assault (SCCADVASA):

NATIONALLY:

• Approximately 4 million women and 875,000 men are victims of domestic violence each year.

• Every 12 seconds, a woman is beaten by her husband or boyfriend.

• More than 3 women are murdered by their husbands or boyfriends in the U.S. EVERY DAY.

• Studies show that child abuse also occurs in 30-60% of family violence cases.

Homicide is the 1 leading cause of death for women on the job, and 20% of those were murdered by their partner at the workplace.

40% of teenage girls age 14 to 17 report knowing someone their age who has been hit or beaten by a boyfriend.

Approximately 1 in 5 female high school students reports being physically or sexually abused by a dating partner.

- Domestic violence is the LEADING CAUSE OF INJURY OR DEATH to women between the ages of 15 and 44 - MORE than auto accidents, muggings and cancer deaths COMBINED.

- 88% of PETS that live in homes where domestic abuse occurs IS KILLED.

- 25% of ALL WOMEN in the U.S. report being raped at some point during their lifetime.

- Approximately 8,800,000 in the U.S. are AT RISK of either WITNESSING or SUFFERING domestic abuse during their childhood.

- Almost 1/3 of SENIORS (adults aged 59 and over) in the U.S. report being abused by their children or grandchildren, having been beaten, cursed and/or neglected for their money or belongings.

IN SOUTH CAROLINA (the state in which I live):

o There were 39,803 cases of domestic violence reported in SC in 2002.

o 27,418 assaults were by spouses, common law spouses, ex-spouses, and boyfriends.

o In 2003, at least 36 women were victims of domestic violence homicides.

o South Carolina ranks 6 nationally in the number of women killed by male intimate partner.

o Domestic violence programs in SC sheltered approximately 4,400 women and children in 2003.

o Approximately 1 in 3 SAME SEX couples experience violence in their relationships.

As you can see from these simple statistics, domestic violence affects EVERYONE - It knows no age, color, race, religion, ethnicity, or socio-economic status. It affects us ALL!

I implore ALL of my friends to aid in the fight against domestic violence...

You CAN make a difference...

As you can see, domestic abuse effects EVERYONE, regardless of age, race, ethnicity, sex or socio-economic status.

What I learned after the fact and from being in counseling myself for years, and what I want everyone to know is that, even though the abuser IS angry - they are angry at THEMSELVES for feeling INADEQUATE in some way - and with many, it is LEARNED from their childhood from the people they grew up around. My abuser watched his father abuse his mother growing up - so he felt that was the way things were supposed to be. And I watched it too. As a matter of fact, I was IN DENIAL for much of our relationship. It was actually WITNESSING it between his parents that I began to SEE that I could very well be his mom - and I didn't want to think that way. I felt so helpless watching the verbal put downs and assaults.. and noticed how similar it was for ME at home! OH, we KNOW when we are abused - don't want to admit it to ourselves - nor anyone else. We are ashamed - but all we seek is the love and acceptance from our abuser - because we love them. We truly do.

The abuser is all about CONTROL - it is NOT and NEVER WAS or WILL BE about LOVE. They see a vulnerability in someone, and they use it to manipulate and control. They sweep the victim off their feet - Prince Charming-like - have a whirlwind romance and either lock them down in a relationship or marry them quickly - usually within two months. Then they systematically cut you off from your support system - either by moving away or by complaining so much how they 'hog your time' or they 'don't like them and they don't like me' and gradually you spend less and less time with them until you totally cut them off. That's when the 'fun' begins.

They don't like the way you dress... they don't like your hair... you are so _______ (stupid, fat, lazy, dumb, etc..... fill in the blank). Your self esteem is detsroyed - then come the physical smacking, then pummeling etc. Then they say their sorry, will never do it again... - which is called the 'honeymoon period' - then it starts all over again.

The average domestic abuse victim leaves their abuser SEVEN TIMES before they leave for good - or DIE. I left FIVE times and went back… the SIXTH was the charm for me. I was stabbed with a screwdriver, beaten, raped, thrown down a flight of stairs, humiliated in public, sleep deprived, locked in a room for more than 20 hours with NO WAY to eat or use the bathroom, called every name in the book… and STILL went back! People don't understand how completely defeated a victim feels if they have never been one. The hardest thing for s friend or family member to watch is to put their all out to help someone leave that type of situation - and then they go back! Friends & family members stop helping because they feel that if they put their all out to help, the victim will just go back. But that IS the reality. It took me to the point where I was literally PLOTTING to find a way to murder my abuser and get away with it to finally WAKE UP AND LEAVE - FOR GOOD. He wasn't worth my life. But TOO MANY don't make it out… too many.

While I worked at the shelter, I have witnessed the following women who WENT BACK to their abuser after suffering these horrible injuries... a young pregnant woman whose boyfriend literally tried to PULL HER EYEBALLS OUT OF HER HEAD; another who arrived directly from the hospital after suffering TWO BROKEN ARMS (from him twisting her arms behind her back), a BROKEN LEG and a black eye - all her FIVE children were taken from her by Social Services because she wouldn't leave; a woman whose husband pimped her out and beat her EVERY TIME she didn't bring home at least $300 PER DAY (he didn't work - she was the family's source of income) - she had NO TEETH left in her head, and her face was always swollen from the beatings.  ALL THESE WOMEN WENT BACK to their abuser - and I know TWO of the above are now DECEASED I attended both funerals.  I have seen much, MUCH more - but you get the picture...

My advice to the friends and family of those who are abused... PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON THEM!!  Just knowing there is someone out there who will help if needed may make the difference between deciding to LEAVE or STAY and risk being killed.

This is not just MY scenario - that is a literal DOMESTIC VIOLENCE PATTERN. And if someone recognizes themselves (men are abused too!) in any of the above, I have only one thing to say... GET OUT NOW!!"

This was laid on my heart today, and I just needed to get this message to you...

Please, Be Blessed and STAY SAFE, My Friends!!

If YOU or someone you know (yes, MEN are abused too!), please send me a message here  confidentially, or at my AUTHOR'S Page, which is www.myspace.com/the_passionwithin , or call your local domestic violence shelter or law enforcement agency for assistance.

I CARE, and I am here to help....!!

Currently listening:
What’s Going on
By Marvin Gaye
Release date: 2003-01-14
July 18, 2008 - Friday 

Current mood:  hopeful
Category: Life

DEBRA D. GRIFFIN,

author of the book,

"A JOURNEY TO WELLNESS; A Series of Collective Thoughts"

Has suffered a massive stroke and needs your prayers

to help pull her through.  This has left her partially paralyzed.

She is in good spirits, but I just want to let her MySpace family

know how much she loves you all, and how much more

collective prayer from her Friends can accomplish!!

To be honest, her prognosis in NOT the best right now,

but her fight and her FAITH is keeping her with us.

Her MySpace page is located at

http://www.myspace.com/serious1cancer

Thank You SO MUCH for taking the time to pray for my

beloved Friend and Sister, my Number 1 Friend on my

Top Friends List.

May GOD Bless You All!

Michele Green

Currently listening:
Moody’s Mood for Love
By James Moody
Release date: 1998-05-19
June 12, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  ecstatic
Category: Writing and Poetry

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Currently listening:
What's Going on
By Marvin Gaye
Release date: 2003-01-14
April 18, 2008 - Friday 

Current mood:  anxious
Category: Writing and Poetry

MY PASSION WITHIN

 

My passion within

Grows for you with each passing hour

Seeking to fulfill your wildest dreams,

Your deepest desires my mission to devour

 

My heart has been caged so long

Yearning to reach out and touch

The one who holds the ultimate key

To all that I am, whom I yearn for so much

 

I don't know what to say

Nor am I sure of what to do

The magic of that moment seems so close

But also so far away, the day I will finally taste you...

 

I must admit that I'm constantly in a battle

Do I please my flesh or God, this spiritual warfare

You know my body craves you more each day

But the love of my God carries greater care.

 

This I must say to you, my dearest,

That when I give of myself it is forever

Don't you see that I care for you so much

I want to protect your soul, so fire will not destroy it ever?

 

Can't you see that if I can deprive myself of you

The only man I truly crave more and more each day

Once we are together as one, no other will ever touch

That which belongs to you, whom I love in every way?

 

It is simply not enough to love the man

To whom I pledge my life to be my head

But to love Christ, Who shall always be front and center

And to Whom we both shall obey, and follow His mighty lead.

 

 

© 2008, RM Green. All rights reserved.
No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.

March 27, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  artistic
Category: Writing and Poetry

Welcome to the FORTY-SIXTH Episode of our Original Weekly Production of ’Everybody Playz Tha Fool’ on MySpace!  I want to thank everyone, especially all my Friends and Subscribers, for their time, input and support of this project, and I value your continued support in striving to provide you with quality entertainment. Your comments and feedback are welcome as always at the end of the performance.

You are invited to sit back, relax, and enjoy the show!

Michele Green, aka RM Green, Author
’EVERYBODY PLAYZ THA FOOL’, and the upcoming novel,
’SHE COULD HEAR THE SILENCE’, and Production Crew:

Terance ’Easy Tee’ Williams, Associate Producer, and Terri ’Bama Girl 4 Real!’, Copy Editor

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EVERYBODY PLAYZ THA FOOL - Episode 46

 

          When Day had hit the Florida state line, he knew that he was within just 30 minutes of Jacksonville. He had already had another bodyguard pick Sheila up from the hospital, take her home and stand guard until he arrived. She would be his first stop before anyone knew he was back in town - minus Poppy.

          In fact, he didn’t want ANYONE to know where Pop was… he felt he would get more honest answers to his questions if they knew the element of ’surprise’ may be lurking…

          In the meantime, Poppy called Day on his cellphone at almost the exact moment he had reached the state line…

          "Yo, B… I got someone I need you to check out for me, ya feel me?" Poppy stated. "Did you know that that crazy bitch had a sister in the muthafuckin’ military? She could very well be the one with stones enough to try to knock off me and the family, Playa!"

          "What bitch, Homey?" Day asked. "You talking ’bout Chance’s mom?"

          "Yeah, B!" Pop answered. "I completely forgot about that gung-ho Hoe!! Chance brought the bitch up after I saw a picture of a woman I barely recognized in Pat’s house, and wondering who the fuck she was. Come to find out, she’s a Gunny Sergeant in the Marines, and apparently skilled at combat and stationed out in Germany… she didn’t come to the memorial even though Pat summoned for her to come since she was the only family she could reach out too. See if you can find out where that bitch is and holla back - she may be our number one, for tryin’ to push Stace’s wig back. Chick’s name is Athena DelGado…"

          "Word, B?" Day answered, taking all this information in. "Good lookin’ out, Playa. A definite startin’ point! Muthafucca, you just CAN’T stay relaxed and enjoy your family, can you? Hard-headed muthafucca…you!"

         Poppy chuckled, then said, "I AM enjoying my family - but as ALWAYS, I gotta stay a few step ahead, B. Keeps me out of the bone yard and the pen - this is ME and my FAMILY we talkin’ about!" Poppy answered. "CAN’T NOTHING happen to me OR especially to my Seeds… We are better than the best and SMARTER than the rest. I’ll be DAMNED to let any BITCH OR NIGGA try to take me out or remove me from my family again!! They just DON’T KNOW who the FUCK they’re dealin’ with… "

          "But they are DEFINITELY ABOUT to find out!!" Day replied. "I feel ya, B!! I’m on this bitch like a hemorrhoid, seriously about to be a pain in her muthafuccin’ ASS! I’m out…B!"

          "Later," Poppy said, and both men hung up their cellphones.

          I think I may need to call in someone with some real ’special talents’ on this one, Day said to himself, and picked up the cellphone to make a call…

          "Yayi, Baby?" Day said into the cellphone when a female voice answered. "I need you, Ma!"

          "Yeah?" the female voice responded seductively.. "I need you too, Papi!"

          "Awww, YEAH Mami!" Day responded excitedly, but his demeanor quickly changed. "But I also need you on a ’professional tip’, too… how soon can you get to me down here in Jacksonville?"

          "You left already, Daddy?" Yayi inquired, noticing the now-serious tone of his voice.

          "Yeah Baby - emergency situation," Day said. "But I need you and your ’special services’ to be here with me A-SAP…"

          "I’m there in a few hours, Baby!" Yayi replied. "Down in Miami on a photo shoot, about to wrap now. Where do you want me to meet you?"

          "It’s too dangerous to have you meet me any place in particular ," Day said. "Just get here and contact me the USUAL way… and I’ll give you the next move, OK? As far as paper goes, I gotcha covered… just get here!"

          "You know how I roll, Honey, anything for you - I’m on my way," Yayi said, excited and eager to get to use her ’special talents’ once again…

~~~~~~~~~Meanwhile~~~~~~~~~~

          A nurse walked slowly towards Stacy’s room with gloved hands, a protective face mask, and a filled syringe on the medicine tray in front of her. She calmly walked toward the door and the huge bodyguard at the door stopped her and said,

          "Where’s your name badge, Sweetheart?"

          "Oh, I am so sorry," she said with a thick West Indian accent. "Me musta left it on de nurse’s sta-shun! Me just came out of surg-ree and me had to change me clothes quick-lee..."

          "Well I am sorry, but unless you have ID I can’t let you in this room," the bodyguard said. "I have strict orders…"

          "But miss is bee-ind on ’er medi-KA-shun!" the nurse stated urgently. "An’ She muss ’ave ’er medi-ka-shun now!"

         "I’ll tell you what - if your name is on the approved hospital personnel list, then I’ll let you in… so what’s your name?" the bodyguard asked, and he noted her face was partially covered and the meds were already in the syringe. He was suspicious because not only did she NOT have her name badge showing her credentials, this was a first - all the other staff who visited the room actually prepared the meds and syringes at Stacy’s bedside, and NONE of them wore the protective germ masks prior to entering the room. And none of them had a very thick accent either…

          "Me dun’t ’ave time for dis foolishness, boy!" said the nurse, and tried to brush past the guard and barge into the room - just to be confronted by yet another huge bodyguard. The first guard had a firm grip on her left upper arm so she could not get away if she were found to be a threat to Stacy.

          "We need to see your badge and have your name," the other guard said matter-of-factly.

          The nurse looked at them both with venom in her eyes. How DARE they fuck with me! The nurse thought to herself, becoming almost uncontrollably furious. "LET ME GO!" the nurse screamed loudly to them both, this time with so much anger in her voice, and such loud authority, that there was NO TRACE of an accent anywhere.

          When the guard tightened his grip on her arm, suddenly and quickly she grabbed the syringe with the hand that held the tray, yanked off the plastic tip cover with her teeth and plunged the bare syringe into the bodyguard’s forearm. The force and pain caused the guard that held her arm to release her, and she emptied the contents into his arm with a movement so swift, the guards could not react before the empty syringe was sticking out of his arm, and she was running down the hallway as the guard screamed in pain. That same moment, the medicine tray finally made a loud racket as it crashed to the floor.

          The convulsions the guard with the syringe in his arm began having delayed the other guard from pursuing her momentarily, and the first guard began to fall to the floor as he kept screaming. The guard posted inside Stacy’s room radioed ahead to the other guards posted on the floor and outside to watch the stairs and exits for signs of the ’nurse’ that got away…

          "MAN DOWN, MAN DOWN!! HELP!!" the guard yelled frantically as he watched his friend and comrade convulsing violently as foam was forming in his mouth, spilling out his lips. Doctors and nurses began running to him from seemingly everywhere as he lay thrashing about on the floor, and they attempted to treat and stabilize the huge man…

          She ducked inside a room that housed a staff locker room and calmly took off her ’uniform’, wig, shoes and washed her face in the wash basin located on the other side of the room. A few other staff members were also changing to either go home or start their shifts. She then stood in front of a locker, used the combination to get into the locker, and calmly changed into Capri jeans, a white knit blouse and neatly arranged her short dreads before calmly walking out the locker room, and taking the elevator down to the first floor. Althea calmly walked out the main entrance, seemingly totally oblivious to the chaos she just caused.

          They fucked up my plans again… but I will hunt their asses DOWN and get them one by one… when they LEAST expect it!! Althea was busy planning her next move as she was whisked away in a taxi cab, back to condo she rented below Stacy’s own.

          Thirty minutes later, Althea was sleeping comfortably in her rented bed… and the bodyguard was cooling his heels… in the hospital morgue, where he expired from arsenic poisoning.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Forty-five minutes after Poppy’s call, Day was sitting at Sheila’s kitchen table.  One of Poppy bodyguards was sitting in her living room watching TV while Day was with her at her kitchen table, having coffee as they were about to talk. Another guard was posted in front of her home, in an Expedition across the street from her house, so the entire perimeter of the house could be watched.

          "OK, Sweetheart… it’s time to come clean about EVERYTHING," Day told Sheila as they sat calmly having coffee. "People’s lives are going to be affected by what you tell me right here, right now, so I gotta know it ALL, OK? We settle all debts tonight and tomorrow - and I mean ALL debts!"

          "I will tell you everything I know," Sheila said excitedly, but very seriously. She knew instinctively that this was the time to tell everything - or else risk losing Stacy and the baby forever. "I promise!"

          "Now, first of all, I want to get all this clear in my mind… is Jonas REALLY the father of Stacy’s baby?" Day asked, still incredulous.

          "Yes, Jonas is the father of Stacy’s baby," Sheila replied. "I’m absolutely sure of it."

          "And how are you so sure of this?" Day asked again.

          "Because I actually SAW the two of them having sex," Sheila replied, with conviction in her voice. "I wanted to kill them both myself…and I almost did…" her voice trailed off as she remembered walking into the condo and watching the two of them go at it on the floor of Stacy’s condo.

         Day had to catch himself from allowing his jaw to drop. "Now you first told me he RAPED her, and now you say you saw them having SEX… which is it? And WHY and HOW did you nearly kill them yourself?!?" Day asked, still finding all this much too crazy to believe.

         "Yeah, I know how strange it seems, but… in short, Jonas came to Stacy’s looking for me," Sheila began. "I had left him after a particularly nasty argument… I just couldn’t take anymore and was lucky to get out - you know his temper and controlling ways…"  Her voice trailed off again.

          "Go on Sweetheart," Day coaxed Sheila, wanting to know every detail.

          "Well, I wasn’t there, so Jonas apparently jumped up in Stacy’s face in a threatening manner, and she had a gun hidden somewhere in the apartment and she went for it," Sheila stated. "Stacy explained they were wrestling on the floor for the gun, and she was about to get the better of him when he all of a sudden kissed her, to keep her from getting to the gun and blasting him… threw her off…"

          "OK, what happened next?" Day asked soothingly, still trying to get the whole story out of Sheila.

          "Well after he started kissing her, he started feeling her up as well, and I guess it started feelin’ a li’l too good to her," Sheila relayed to Day with some difficulty, then continued.

          "Anyway he was able to knock the gun out of her hands across the floor and get his jollies off on her at the same time. He always said that ’all Stacy needed was a good screw from a man like him and she would turn back into a straight female’, and they ended up screwing right in the middle of the room, on the floor…" Sheila put her head down and sighed, and Day noticed that recalling the events was taking a toll on Sheila emotionally.

          "Can you go on with the story, baby?" Day asked, concern in his voice.

          "Yeah, I can go on," Sheila replied. "I just hadn’t thought about all this in some time, so it gets to me a little, you know?"

         "I feel ya, Babe," Day answered, trying to give Sheila a little comfort. "What I want to know is, how is it you say you almost killed them yourself?"

         "Well, truth was I was on my way to Stacy’s anyway," Sheila continued. "I had just stopped for a few minutes at the waterfront to cry and let it all out, then I pulled myself together before I actually went to Stacy’s, and when I walked in, they were screwing on the floor… my man, and my best friend…" her voice trailed off again momentarily before she finally continued, "and I remember feeling the worst kind of hurt - I can’t even describe it. They didn’t even notice I was watching them…" Sheila said then paused for a moment before continuing again. "I saw the gun on the floor, picked it up, and I think Stacy finally noticed that I was there with a gun in my hands, and got both of them out the way before the first shot rang out…"

          "You mean you actually SHOT at them?!?" Day asked, truly surprised that Sheila had the guts to even pick up the gun.

          "Yes, I shot at Jonas as he ran out the door," Sheila explained. "But since I had never fired a gun before, it knocked me back a little and I missed him. Then Stacy tried to get the gun away from me, and she sweet-talked me into not blowing her away… I was real hurt…" Tears started rolling down Sheila’s cheeks, and Day saw that this was very hard for her to recount the memories, but she did it.

          Sheila continued, "I know Stacy too well, and she would have never willingly screwed a man - I know her history and that is what saved her from having me shoot her, let me tell you! And also knowing what an asshole Jonas is… I knew deep down that he did what he did to save his sorry ass and get his shit off at the same time…" She ended the story sounding thoroughly disgusted.

          Day was thoroughly disgusted as well… with Jonas. All he needed was to clarify what happened with Jonas - then he knew what his next move would be…

          "And this is what is fueling the beef between Stacy and Jonas… the baby?" Day asked again.

          "Yes," Sheila perked up again. "In all this confusion, Stacy was gonna abort the baby… but I talked her out of it and asked her to have it - and give it to ME to raise, and that we would do it together, but she felt Jonas should pay his share since he fathered the baby. But now Jonas wants the baby ALL to HIMSELF, and wants Stacy out of the picture - TOTALLY - and he wanted to use ME to do it legally, through the courts. That’s why he wouldn’t let me go when I went over to his place to try to reason with him…"

          "So he wanted to eliminate Stacy, huh?" Day said suspiciously.

          "Yes, but just out of the baby’s life - not LITERALLY eliminate her," Sheila said in Jonas’ defense. Then she thought about it a moment, and then said, "At least I don’t THINK so… but I DO know he couldn’t have shot her, he was too busy beating up on ME!"

          "A mere technicality," Day said. "He could have put someone else up to doing it…" He was thinking that Jonas COULD have hired someone to take HER out… but try and keep the BABY alive, hence the wound to her shoulder. So now we got suspect number 2! Day thought to himself.

          Just then, Day’s cellphone rang. It was Poppy, and he was furious.

          "THAT PSYCHO BITCH JUST TOOK OUT ONE OF MY BEST MEN!!" Poppy screamed into the cellphone. "And I just got word that I have to be in DC tomorrow afternoon for the hearing to pick up my babies. I’m rollin’ out in the morning, B - ME and my FAMILY - and this time I’m playin’ for keeps! I NEED THAT BITCH CANCELLED IMMEDIATELY!!"

          "What ’bitch’ you TALKIN’ about, B?!?" Day said. "What the fuck happened?!?"

          "I just got off the phone with my partner… and that bitch tried to pose as a nurse to get into the room and poison Stacy, but my men stopped her - and she poisoned one of THEM to get away… and now he’s DEAD!!" Poppy said. "Take a look at your cellphone - I just sent you a picture of Athena. See if any of the other bodyguards, Sheila, Jonas, or anyone else recognizes her… And if it’s her - MAKE IT HER LAST DAY BREATHIN’!!!"

          "Hold on, Pop - Lemme get a look at this pic," Day said, and a few seconds later, he saw a facial close-up of the picture of Athena that was hanging in Pat’s house.

          Sheila wanted to know what was happening too, and she took a peek at the picture that had just popped up on Day’s phone. "OMG! That’s Althea!" Sheila exclaimed.

         "Who the fuck is Althea?" Day asked.

         "That’s Stacy’s downstairs neighbor," Sheila stated. "She was the one who came upstairs with me when we found Stacy, after Jonas ran out. She even came to the hospital with me and the detective…"

          Day calmly got back on the phone with Poppy, "Pop, it’s her alright, just made a positive ID."

          "Damn, get the fuck outta here! Already?!?" Poppy said shocked. "From who?"

          "Sheila," Day said. "I’m here with her now."

          "Yeah? Then, WASTE THAT BITCH!" Poppy exclaimed. "I’m comin’ home…" then he hung up the phone.

**********************

          About 7:30 AM the next morning, Athena was awakened by an urgent knock at her door. She walked quietly to the door and peered out the peephole, and saw that an extremely beautiful but obviously distraught Latin woman was at her door. Wonder what she wants, Athena thought to herself. She looks lost… then she opened her door...

          "Yes, may I help you?" Athena asked.

          "I’m so sorry, but I am looking for someone," the woman said in a thick, Spanish accent, then she looked at Day, who was standing on the other side of the door, hidden from Athena’s view, but he could plainly see and identify her.. He gave her a quick nod, then the woman said,

          "Special Delivery from Poppy," and before Athena could react, Yayi pumped two quick bullets from her pistol with a silencer into Athena’s forehead, right between her eyes at point-blank range. Yayi then quickly but quietly closed the door with gloved hands as Athena’s body fell back onto the floor, which was already splattered with her brains.  They then quietly walked off, hand-in-hand, like two lovers out for a morning stroll…

          About 15 minutes later, Poppy got the call. "It’s done." Poppy smiled, knowing that now he could bring his family back home safely.

          One down, one to go, Day thought to himself as he sat in a coffee house with his beautiful companion. Next stop was a date with Jonas…

 

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