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Michael Cano


Last Updated: 3/12/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 48
Sign: Pisces

City: EL MONTE
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/28/2006

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Saturday, February 07, 2009 




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Friday, August 15, 2008 

So, a bunch of years ago

I am sitting in this bar

Called the Big O

In Eagle Rock

California

 

Drinking

Sitting

Smoking

Drinking

Just hanging out

At a bar

 

Group of folks sit next to me

Start gabbing amongst themselves

Rather loudly

That's all right

That's what bars are for

 

Soon enough

I catch on to the tone of

Their conversation

 

This was it:

 

"Oh, the glorious day is coming soon, my friends. Soon, very soon, our lord Jesus will come back to us and He will judge the wicked. They shall be struck down by his Sword of Vengeance and sent, screaming, to the Lake of Fire forever and ever. But He will also judge the righteous, those of us who love Him and lived as He wanted us to, and He will gather us to his bosom and He will take us to our rightful place, to our God in heaven.

Oh.

Friends, what a truly glorious day that will be!

The wicked judged and condemned.

The righteous saved and loved forever.

Oh.

Friends, what a day, indeed."

 

Or some such like.

 

Either way,

As the syllables poured forth

I could not help

But

Become bothered

By it

I mean

Bar talk

Is

Bar talk

But

Damn.

 

I am sure beers consumed had something to do with

The expression that was on my face as I eavesdropped

There at that bar in Eagle Rock, California

 

The Ones Who Were Saved

 

Looked my way

 

And asked

 

If there was something wrong with me

Why was I looking that way?

Was I bothered by what it was they

Were saying

 

(Hey, they asked….)

 

Yes.

Yes, there is.

 

This is it:

 

As far as I know, this Jesus, He was all right, He was a good man. Maybe He didn't like moneychangers so very much, but He was a good man. I seem to remember hearing about Him hang out with people that a lot of other people wanted nothing to do with. And a lot of those people would more likely than not, not fulfill the criteria that you all just laid out that one needs to possess in order to avoid being cut in half by this Sword of Vengeance that your Jesus will be wielding when He finally gets back here.

 

And while we're on the subject:

 

Where in holy hell did the "Prince of Peace" get His hands on a "Sword of Vengeance" with which to slice "sinners" in half?

 

What the hell is up with that?

 

The Ones Who Were Saved

 

Recoiled back in horror like a snake that was ready to strike, then leaned towards me in a group and with devilish smiles on their faces said this to me:

 

"Oh, wicked one, oh, you, you sir, you and your kind, the unbelievers. The ones who do not accept our Lord Jesus' message of peace and love, you, sir, will be the first to be rendered bloody and halved, to be cast screaming into the Lake of Fire to suffer forever and ever, and you will be cleaved and hurled by none other than the one you reject, our savior Jesus Christ, on the glorious day that He returns to our earth. Sir, your days are indeed numbered."

 

I, the condemned one, grinned back at my judges

And said:

 

Let me get this straight, ok? Let me ask you something.

As far as I know, having had these types of conversations before, when Jesus does come back to visit us here on this mortal coil, am I correct in understanding that He may not, this time around, come back looking like Ted Nugent in a bathrobe and sandals?

 

That He will return in a form that is somewhat anonymous, generic if you will, so that He may walk freely among us, gathering information to use in this Judgment that you all speak of so passionately.

 

Am I correct in this assumption that Jesus may look like any other human walking the earth and may show up at any time, without warning, with no advance notice whatsoever?

 

The Ones Who Were Saved

 

Leaned back on their bar stools with very smug, satisfied grins wrapping around their saved little faces and said, "Yes! Yes, my friend, you have finally said something correct. That is the Way It Will Be!

Praise Jesus!"

 

I, the condemned one, picked up my half-full glass of beer from the bar, looked them dead in the eye and said,

 

Bad news, bitches.

 

I'M Jesus Christ.

 

I'M back.

 

And YOU are all in big fucking trouble!

 

Then I drained what was left of my beer, put the empty glass back on the bar and walked the hell out of there.

 

Behind me, I could hear very shrill and worried voices all rising in a chorus of fear and disbelief.

 

As I walked to my car so I could drive my Holy Ass home, I turned and took one last look at the bar, in the direction of

 

The Ones Who (Previously) Were Saved

 

And

 

Said unto them:

 

God Bless You.

 

Motherfuckers.

Thursday, August 07, 2008 

About this "Peace" they speak of:

 

I myself used to get very drunk and wander/stumble on various railroad tracks and scream at God to come down off of his high horse and fight like a man, ya fuck!

Peace is useless unless it is a personal peace that occurs in moments away from the glorious and very necessary violence that is other people, the fucks.

This peace that they speak of,

Especially this "World Peace":

Please.
Like that's happening.

Please.
Like we'd like it.

Please.

Let's fight.

Let's fuck.

Fight it all.

Fuck it all.

 

Peace.

Thursday, July 24, 2008 




Wednesday, May 21, 2008 
It may be time to stand

And fight this now

It may be time to simply

Slaughter this cow

Perhaps we need to

Strike back with force

Or accept this fate

As a matter of course

The universe

Does not know how to care

God He plays with us

Truth or dare

The moral lapses

Of men gone mad

The sharpened axes

Of men gone bad

Monday, April 07, 2008 

Last night

 

I had the

Most amazing

Wonderful

Romantic

Sensual

Dream

 

I have had

In many

Many

Moons

 

Oh

It was

Fabulous

Marvelous

 

Filled with wonder

Is what it was

 

This incredible

Dream

Was

All about

Myself

And

A

Beautiful woman

I work with

By the name of

Michelle

 

Michelle

 

Was just so soft and beautiful in my dream about the two of us and we loved each other deeply and honestly there in the landscape of my dreams.

 

Michelle

 

And I looked so incredibly longingly and honestly into each other’s eyes and we discovered so many marvelous secrets about each other and life its ownself simply by looking at each other with all the love, honor and respect we had to offer.

 

Michelle

 

Held my hand and I held hers and the energy we generated between us simply by being side-by-side and sharing the depth of our affection with each other seemed to be enough to light up ten different skies.

 

Michelle

 

And I loved each other.

Completely.

Fully.

Forever.

 

There in the landscape of my dream.

 

I awoke

From this

Wonder

Of

A dream

With great reluctance

 

I wanted to stay there

With her

By my side

Forever.

 

There is only one problem

With this dream I had

 

About beautiful Michelle

And myself

 

I do not work

With a woman

Named

Michelle

 

I do not know

Anyone

Named

Michelle

 

So

This will have to

Remain

A

Dream

And only

A

Dream

 

Forever.

Monday, March 03, 2008 

I am now

According to the clock

Forty

Seven

Years

Old

 

I have no wife

I have no children

I have no home of my own

 

I have very little money

Bordering on negative

They tell me my net worth

Is

Zero

 

I do have these hands

I do have this heart

I do have many things

Burning inside

 

My hands

They will make things

My heart

Will continue its trek

The fire

Inside me

Will flame

 

I am now

According to the clock

Forty

Seven

Years

Old

Friday, February 29, 2008 

A few weeks ago

I ran into a woman

I have known

For a while now

It is always good

To see her

This time

However

She expressed an interest

In seeing me

In another way

Other than just by chance

And she wanted that to

Happen soon

A good thing

A fine thing

Thought I

In a few days from that

Particular encounter

She called

And

We set up a date for lunch

A few days hence

Lunch was great

I discovered wonderful things

About her

I did not know before

With warmth

Did I go back to the office

And hoped for another time

With her

Soon

A few days later

There was another time

This time

Was even better

Than the first time

With even more warmth

I went home

Looking forward

Really

Truly

Looking forward

For the first time

In a very long time

Soon after the

Second time

There was a

Third time

During this time

There were questions

Put forth

By both of us

To each other

As in:

What is this?

What will this be?

Where will it go?

What happens next?

She

My friend

Put forth

This declarative statement:

"Michael, I want to get to really know you. I want to know if you are worth fighting for."

A good thing

Thought I

Now

We will see

What we

Will see

Time has passed

Phone calls

Have not been returned

Text messages

Have been short

With a tone

Of disinterest

Plans have been

Cancelled

So

There you have it

It is now

Official

And

Notarized

For

All the world

To know

For sure:

I.

Am.

Not.

Worth.

Fighting.

For.

Just thought I would let you all know that.

Sunday, January 13, 2008 

There are indeed

Worse things

Than being alone

One of the largest of these things that are worse

Is the realization

That what you are

That what you will be

That what you will most definitely remain

For a very long time to come

If not forever

Is

Truly

Deeply

Profoundly

Alone

All of those lovely thoughts that cross the mind of having a soft hand to hold in yours, as the two of you sit side-by-side on a wonderful porch, smiling at nothing other than each other, knowing things that nobody else knows, the secrets of life contained in the hold of a hand.

Throw these thoughts away.

File them under useless.

Get very used to the seat next to you at the movies being perpetually empty.

Settle hard into solitude.

This is what there is.

This is all there is.

This is all that shall be.

Forever and ever.

Amen.