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Age: 35
Sign: Leo

City: Los Angeles
State: California
Country: US
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008 

Current mood:  awake
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
If you live in Los Angeles or New York City, you must see this movie this week. And check out THE WEBSITE HERE HERE HERE!!!

Currently listening:
Warm Your Heart
By Aaron Neville
Release date: 1991-06-11
Thursday, August 21, 2008 

Current mood:  artistic
Category: News and Politics
Currently listening:
Wings of Change Native American Flute Solos dedicated to Barack Obama Campaign
By Robert Windpony
Release date: 2008-07-20
Thursday, August 21, 2008 

Current mood:  awake
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
CLICK HERE for a very cool announcement about the NOAH movie.

And THEN CLICK RIGHT HERE (WWW.NOAHSARCMOVIE.COM) to go to the brand new NOAH'S ARC MOVIE PAGE!!!

Expect more details in the coming weeks, but it's all kicking off!!!

P.I.P.
Currently watching:
Noah’s Arc - The Complete Second Season
Release date: 2007-06-12
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 

Category: News and Politics
This post from my friend Keith Boykin's new website, THE DAILY VOICE, is spot on. I've been thinking this for a while now, but was afraid to say it. Why are the Republicans pushing Barack so hard? They're afraid of Hillary and would rather face Barack in the fall. If you think, as some Barack campaign officials have suggested, that Hillary's campaign has been tough on Obama, they ain't seen nothing close to the barrage of nuclear shit the Carl Rove Republicans will pull out of their asses against Barack in the general election.

CLICK HERE TO CHECK OUT THE ARTICLE ON THE DAILY VOICE'S WEBSITE.

And show them some love, put them on your daily web rotation of sites to visit. We need sites like this to keep us informed, spark more debate and encourage thoughtful decision-making.
Currently listening:
What’s Going on
By Marvin Gaye
Release date: 14 January, 2003
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 

Current mood:  hungry
Category: News and Politics
My good friend Keith Boykin, formerly of www.keithboykin.com, launched a new black-themed news sit this week. It's called THE DAILY VOICE- kinda like a black Huffington Report. It's a brilliant idea and it's simply fierce.

One of the regular contributors wrote this timely and moving column about her 5-year-old daughter's response to the Hillary/Barack debate. And quite amazingly, she pretty much echoes my sentiments. I can certainly see the appeal of Barack, but Hillary's the smarter choice.

It's a great read- check it out below...and show some regular love to THE DAILY VOICE! We need a website like this! Let's make it the biggest web story since Blackplanet.com (what the phuck happened to them anyway? they were the shit for a minute or two, lol).

HILLARY AND BARACK: THROUGH THE EYES OF A FIVE-YEAR-OLD

BY Crystal McCrary Anthony
Posted February 4, 2008 12:05 AM

When Hillary Clinton came on stage my daughter seemed shocked. "A girl?" she said. It had not occurred to me that "Hillary" did not register with her as being a woman's name. She looked confused for a few moments before exclaiming, "A girl" once again. "How can a girl be a president," she demanded to know.

On the night of January 8th, my children were fast asleep and I was on my way to bed after a dinner where Hillary and Barack dominated much of the discussion. The last time I had checked the polls and papers earlier in the day, New Hampshire was likely going to Barack Obama, giving him his second straight victory. Even the New York Times had speculated a day before that a shake-up would occur in Hillary Clinton's camp, suggesting the dismissal of long-time loyalist's Pati Solis-Doyle and Mandy Grunwald if she lost New Hampshire.

Though I recognize both candidates are highly qualified, I am still undecided (as many African-American women) and I was feeling a sense of defeat that the first real woman presidential contender was facing such a pivotal loss. Everyone knew New Hampshire was do or die for Hillary Clinton. Exhausted from a day of back-to-back meetings, I turned off my bedside lamp sensing momentum was turning against her. But before closing my eyes, I saw the red light flashing on my Blackberry indicating a new message. I clicked on the e-mail icon only to see a 'Market-Watch' alert. I was just about to press delete when I read the subject line: "Hillary Claims New Hampshire."

I immediately turned on the television to find out what had changed from the previous day. As I tuned into CNN, my five-year old daughter, Ella, padded into by room, awakened by a nightmare. She hopped beside me and buried herself beneath the covers. I didn't bother to send her out, assuming she'd fall right back to sleep but she tossed and turned until finally, she sat up and asked me, "What are you watching?"

Somehow, the moment felt too historic to admonish her for being up past her bedtime. I told her that I was waiting for a presidential candidate to come on stage and speak about his loss that evening. Ella's questions continued. President of what? He lost? He's not going to be president of the United States now? I tried to explain that his loss accounted for only one state and that there were several more states to vote before a final winner was determined.

I did not broach the electoral vote discussion nor did I bring up the Republican's race. But her questions persisted: What's his name? When's he coming on television? What's he going to say? Who beat him? Why'd they beat him? It wasn't until Barack and Michelle Obama appeared on television that she quieted.

Admittedly, I had not previously engaged in political discussions with my daughter other than hammering home our household hierarchies so I assumed her interest would be minimal. Instead she was mesmerized. I watched her watch Barack. She smiled, glanced at me, then back at him. She was responding to him: her body language told the story. I asked her what she thought of him and she blushed. I asked her if she thought he was handsome and she waved me off saying she was "trying to listen."

Like most people, I've heard, read and seen firsthand how charming, charismatic and inspirational Barack Obama can be, but I was now witnessing in real time the primal reaction to him that my daughter was experiencing. Even a five-year-old was not immune. I doubt she understood much of what he was talking about, but she identified and connected with him on a basic level. And the change theme of "out with the old and in with the new" in his speech did resonate as Ella compared that philosophy with throwing out her old toys to make room for her new ones, which promised to be much improved former.

By the time Stevie Wonder's "Sign, Sealed, Delivered," finished and Mr. and Mrs. Obama left the stage, Ella turned to me and said "He's cute Mommy, why isn't he going to win?" I informed her that the competition was still going on and that he had a very good chance at being president of the United States, even if I wasn't sure myself.

My daughter related to Obama from an emotional space as most people do. Ella too was moved, hopeful and charmed. Her reaction was not informed by his voting record or his work to abolish poverty or his dignified campaign or impressive fundraising efforts. It was not wholly unlike what Caroline Kennedy described in her New York Times op-ed piece "A President Like My Father," and Toni Morrison's letter to Barack Obama which touched upon the intangibility and rarity of Barack's wisdom. We talked a bit more as she was wide awake and engaged by this time waiting for Hillary Clinton to make her appearance, but she was bothered that Barack was not the victor that night.

When Hillary Clinton came on stage my daughter seemed shocked. "A girl?" she said. It had not occurred to me that "Hillary" did not register with her as being a woman's name. She looked confused for a few moments before exclaiming, "A girl" once again. "How can a girl be a president," she demanded to know, more confused than oppositional. The notion was offending her sensibility.

To put into context, my daughter is a brown black girl who attends a private predominantly white Upper East Side school in New York City where a young white boy recently told her she shouldn't be on the baseball team because she was the only girl, but this same boy also told her that her "natural Afro" hair was weird. Ella may only be five years old but she is acutely aware of being a girl and the perceived limitations of her gender and her ethnicity.

As Hillary began to speak, I watched my daughter watch her in the same way as when Barack spoke. I was waiting for some sort of reaction, but the closest I got from her could only be described as skepticism. Finally, she turned to me and asked rather quizzically, "What's she talking about?" And this question came after Hillary went through some serious audience "thank yous" smiling like I had never seen her smile before. Apparently the humbling effect of the Iowa loss and a near miss in New Hampshire was a reality check that she was in for a real contest.

I tried to think of the best way to answer my daughter. I assumed what she was picking up on was the difference in the two candidate's methods of communicating, or perhaps more importantly the very different effects they had on people. Although not cloaked in charisma, Senator Clinton is razor sharp on policy and her ability to detail specific plans of action while Senator Obama spews poetic hope backed by intelligence and integrity. Before I had a chance to form my thoughts to give Ella an answer, she turned to me and very matter of factly declared, "Barack's cuter but Hillary's smarter. She's going to win." This has become known as ""Ella's prediction in our household."

I have since heard presumably more sophisticated variations of my daughter's "predicition" in many forms. But one has stuck with me the most: "Those who want to be inspired will vote for Barack, those who want a president will vote for Hillary."


PARTING THOUGHTS

Women are torn. Girls are torn. Black women and black girls are torn. I'm torn. A question I've struggled with since my college days; "Am I a woman first or am I black first?" Or does it matter? And should it matter when choosing a president? One can't help but think about their own personal experiences in making judgments on almost every aspect of their lives. I have been the victim of sexism, racism and misogynistic treatment. I cannot say that they have all equally affected me but each has impacted my world view and how I approach any given situation.

In contemplating the multiple criticisms that plague Hillary -- being labeled ambitious, bitchy, divisive, pandering, centrist et cetera -- I cannot help but think that many of these same terms would not be used if she were a man. Remember we're dealing with the first First Lady who had a degree beyond a Bachelor's. Many opposed her merely because she did not fit the mold of the perfect politician's wife who should be seen and not heard unless she was echoing her husband's sentiment. But let's face it, likeability and charm in politics, which Barack possesses by the barrel, are valuable currency. Couple those with the ability to inspire and mobilize a new generation of youth and you almost have an unbeatable combination.

Electing a president is a personal decision. If my five-year-old daughter can see the differences in style between Hillary and Barack, it's no surprise the rest of America can see this too.
Currently listening:
Work
By Kelly Rowland
Release date: 29 January, 2008
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 

Current mood:  awake
Category: Music
KELLY ROWLAND HAS A HOT-ASS HIT SINGLE IN THE UK WITH THIS FREEMASONS REMIX OF HER SONG "WORK". THE ORIGINAL IS CUTE, BUT THE REMIX IS THE FUCKING BUSINESS! IT'S ALREADY TOP 5 AFTER TWO WEEKS! IF MUSICWORLD IS SMART, THEY'LL SHOOT A CUTE INDIAN BELLY DANCER VIDEO FOR THIS AND RE-RELEASE IT. (KIM, ARE YOU LISTENING???)

KELLY PERFORMED IT ON A UK TV SHOW RECENTLY (VIDEO BELOW). I SAW HER DO THIS LIVE AT CLUB G.A.Y. IN LONDON A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO. THE CHOREOGRAPHY IS CA-UTE AND SHE WAS L.I.V.I.N.G!!! THE KIDS WENT LEFT!

RELEASE THIS IN THE U.S., PRONTO!!!

ENJOY THE VIDEO BELOW! IF IT DON'T HAVE YOU READY TO DANCE AROUND YOUR ROOM/OFFICE/STARBUCKS/LIBRARY, THEN YOU'RE AN ALIEN, LOL.
Currently listening:
Work
By Kelly Rowland
Release date: 29 January, 2008
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 

Current mood:  disappointed
Category: News and Politics
After coming out publicly in support of Hillary Clinton's campaign, I received the following message in my myspace email:

"Tell me you've changed your mind about supporting Senator Clinton's Presidential Nomination. Obama is the only logical choice in my view, and I feel that ALL African Americans should share that view."

I was hoping to be able to continue reading about exactly WHY this person felt the way he does- to hear an impassioned and thoughtful explanation about which of Obama's positions on which issues swayed this particular individual towards Obama's camp. But sadly, that was the end of the message. This person was voting for Obama because he's the black candidate.

I am aware that many people feel the way this person who wrote to me feels. And that's a big problem in our political system. Many of us don't do our homework. We don't seriously vet these candidates. We don't really read up on what their plans are, what their views are. We listen to the flowery speeches, but don't look closely at what's behind those well-crafted, well-rehearsed performances. We don't decide which issues are of extreme importance to us and choose candidates based on the issues. We are as superficial as the tabloid media we complain about- cramming Paris Hilton down our throats. We look at the surface issues, make uninformed decisions based on superficial reasons and then wonder why the country is in the state it is. Hello, George Bush anyone???

Let me be clear. Although I am excited and thrilled that we live in a time where an African-American man is a very viable candidate with a real shot at winning this nomination, there is no way in hell I'm choosing my candidate based solely on the color of his skin. As we've all seen with Clarence Thomas, shared skin color does not automatically translate into shared political or social viewpoints.

And please understand that this was not an easy decision to support Hillary Clinton's campaign. I like Barack Obama, a lot. I'm very impressed with him as a politician. I'm excited about his message of change and how he's helped energize the debate and has gotten a lot of people excited about the political process again. And I'll be delighted to support him should he secure the Democratic party's nomination. But as I studied the candidates' proposals and views, Hillary's healthcare reform proposal tipped the scales for me in her direction. In my perfect world, Hillary would be the presidential nomination and Barack would be the vice presidential nominee- giving us potentially 16 years of strong Democratic administrations in the White House. And we're gonna need at least that to repair the damage done by Bush.

Do your homework, people. This election is too important to make race the deciding factor.
Currently listening:
Very Best of Phoebe Snow
By Phoebe Snow
Release date: 14 August, 2001
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 

Current mood:  hopeful
Category: News and Politics
I hope you all voted today...Here's a message Hilary Clinton sent to the LGBT community. Get into it...

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"As I have traveled around the country these past twelve months, what I sensed in my heart has been confirmed – America is embracing its LGBT sons and daughters with an acceptance and understanding as never before. On the campaign trail, a father of a gay son will ask about ending Don't Ask, Don't Tell. A woman will ask why she can be discriminated against just because of who she is. Sometimes they wait furtively for the crowd to thin and then whisper their confidences in a soft voice and sometimes they stand up proudly at town meetings and want me to share my views on how I will help lead the change to assure that this country fulfills its promise to everyone.

Let me tell you what I have been telling voters across America. I am fully committed to the fair and equal treatment of LGBT Americans. For seven long years, the Bush Administration has tried to divide us - only seeing people who matter to them. It's been a government of the few, by the few, and for the few. And no community has been more invisible to this administration than the LGBT community.

I will change that. The best evidence of what I will do as President is what I have already done.

* I am proud of my record as First Lady, as a U.S. Senator and as a candidate for President in working toward the fair and equal treatment of LGBT Americans.
* I am proud that as Chair of the Senate Democratic Steering and Outreach Committee in 2006, I worked closely with LBGT community to develop a smart strategy that defeated the Federal Marriage Amendment. I am proud of fighting the FMA as divisive wedge politics at its worst.
* I am proud to be a co-sponsor of the Employment Non-Discrimination Act, the Matthew Shepard Local Law Enforcement Hate Crimes Prevention Act, and the Domestic Partnership Benefits and Obligation Act which would grant the same benefits (including health insurance) to domestic partners of federal employees that are currently offered to employees' legal spouses.
* I am proud to have authored the Early Treatment for HIV Act, which expands access to vital treatment options for low-income individuals living with HIV, and fought to fully fund the Ryan White CARE Act.
* I am proud that I hired a National Director of LGBT Outreach within a month of announcing my candidacy for President and to have openly gay and lesbian staffers serving at all levels of my campaign.
* I am proud to have a National LGBT Steering Committee of over 130 that includes openly LGBT elected officials, Board members and opinion leaders on issues ranging from transgender rights, to HIV/AIDS, to "Don't Ask Don't Tell".
* I am proud to have marched in Gay Pride parades as both First Lady and as Senator and to have spoken in front of so many LGBT audiences ranging from the Human Rights Campaign, Empire State Pride Agenda, the Hetrick Martin Institute, PFLAG (Parents, Families, and Friends of Lesbians and Gays), GMHC (Gay Men's Health Crisis), and the American Foundation for AIDS Research.
* I am proud to have fought Republican efforts to demonize and marginalize the LGBT community, and I will continue to do that as President.

We have so much work to do. When I am President, we will work together to make sure that all Americans in committed relationships have equal benefits and that nothing stands in the way of loving couples who want to adopt children in need. We're going to expand our federal hate crimes legislation and pass the Employment Non-Discrimination Act and assure that they are both fully inclusive of all people. And finally, we will put an end to the failed policy of Don't Ask, Don't Tell. Courage, honor, patriotism and sacrifice – the traits that define our men and women in uniform – have nothing to do with sexual orientation.

My father was a conservative Republican, who held very traditional views for much of his life. Yet in his last years, it was a gay couple who lived next door who provided much of the compassion and comfort he and my mother needed as he grew ill. And it was that same neighbor who held his hand as he died. If my father can move, America can move.

To each and every LGBT American, I say this. You have done so much to help this country understand your lives by simply being open and honest about who you are and living your lives with dignity. Thank you for your courage. It is time that we recognize your hard work. I know that this country is ready for changes in the law that reflect the evolution in our hearts.

America deserves a President who appeals to the best in each of us, not the worst; a President who values and respects all Americans and treats all Americans equally no matter who they are or who they love. I want to be that President. I want to be your President."
Currently listening:
Discipline [Deluxe Edition]
By Janet Jackson
Release date: 26 February, 2008
Sunday, February 03, 2008 

Current mood:  breezy
Category: Music
I am just DONE. It's officially OVAH!!! LOL. Get me to Studio 54, and step on it!

Currently listening:
Discipline [Deluxe Edition]
By Janet Jackson
Release date: 26 February, 2008
Sunday, February 03, 2008 

Current mood:  giddy
Category: Music
"He hit me with his LUV!!!"

She's BAAAAACK!!! This shit has me wanting to suspend my "no dating for the time being" rule and fall right-the-fuck in love! This album is going to ROCK!



LUV by Janet Jackson

Thought I was ruling the road
Just knew I had control
So how did I end up gettin' hit?
I had on my belt
I checked it myself
So how in the world
Did I get caught
I had the right of way, hey hey
The sign I saw you disobey
It's all your fault
I can't believe the way
You invaded my heart
I think I should sue ya
I shoulda stopped at the red light
Now I'm like a deer caught in head lights
he hit me with his luv luv luv luv luv luv
He hit me with his luv
And now i'm in luv luv luv
Got me caught in a wreck I'm a mess
Got me caught in a wreck I'm a mess
Got me caught in a wreck
Somebody call the paramedics
He hit me with his luv...
He crashed into my heart
He crashed into my heart
Somebody call the paramedics
He hit me with his luv luv luv luv luv!
Currently listening:
Discipline [Deluxe Edition]
By Janet Jackson
Release date: 26 February, 2008