The keys seem different now, as if they withdraw from my touch, as if memories of when we used to connect so much… it pains them to feel like my hands were another’s, angry with me like a jealous lover… too long in between our sessions, I apologize but still feel no affection! So we do this dance like strangers that once were close, delaying and wasting just what matters most… Time! Could it be its all within my mind? Maybe guilt for the fact that this is what I love to do? Then why has it been so long if that were true? Life can get in the way of what we desire, make the most sincere into liars, depending on what side that you stand on, the view of life or the side that just went wrong! As my hands slow their shaking and the keys lessen their aching the start of the healing begins but there will be many more letters to strike before we’re in love again! Pride and excuses, reasons and the truth all summed up in I missed you to!

I feel her as she lay next to me....

Her comfort brings me ecstasy....

Her contentment with me being in her plan....

I am blessed to be chosen as her man!....

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I know her flaws and weaknesses....

I know the love in which she gives....

I know the strength she has yet to find....

Her worries she can leave behind!....

.. ..

For I am her hearts keeper....

No safer place it could reside....

I’ll protect it with my dying breath....

That’s the only way I’ll leave her side!....

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She knows my flaws my weaknesses....

Has healed wounds not dealt by her hand....

Her smile has become the reason I live....

And I am so blessed to be chosen as her man!....

I raise my cup to drink,....
Replenishment from the fountain of knowledge,....
Vast lessons taught by life,....
No 101 for this in college!....
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I imagine I am not the first,....
I imagine I won’t be the last,....
I imagined this would be forever,....
Instead of imagining I should have asked!....
.. ..
But I did upon my knees I inquired,....
Is this real or am I entranced by her,....
Afraid of making my heart the liar....
Guess those questions I had  to answer!....
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And now I drink of bitterness,....
Of a wine before its time,....
Now I walk of shadows,....
From a sun that just won’t shine!....
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And still I imagine,....
For reality hurts too much to face,....
I make of my mind the liar,....
So my heart won’t be displaced!....
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I turn up my cup to this shine less sun,....
As I force down these last bitter drops,....
I imagine this lesson is over…....
So why haven’t the shadows stopped???....

We are the sum total of our experiences,....

Created of the obstacles we face,....

Molded in the fires of adversities,....

Tested by the marathons we race!....

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We love from how love was taught,....

At first giving back just what we have received,....

Hoping that we are shown the true meaning,....

Finding it is never what we first believed!....

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Imagine your heart a drinking pitcher,  ....

In life it’s filled and drank from,....

There are those who will drink and refill it,....

And those that will leave it empty when done!....

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They say you need no one to complete you,....

Yet we are built to pair,....

What is having everything?....

With no one which to share!....

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If so then with each pitcher,....

We only supply half of what’s made,....

We can only provide our own water,....

Others add the sugar and Kool-aid!....

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You can survive on just water,....

It has the nutrients needed to savor,....

But are you really living?....

If you never add in any flavor!!! ....

A simple thought has brought upon this arousal,....

I shudder at the idea of you near,....

Strategically placing kisses all over you,....

Anticipating when you will get here!....

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Wondering if I should start head to toe,....

Or maybe toe to head would better suffice,....

Maybe I should just get right to the good part,....

And kiss you in all the places that you like!....

.. ..

I should send you a message,....

Telling of the things I plan to do,....

Knowing that it will get you going,....

And when you arrive I can get right into you!....

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All these thoughts have made me so difficult,....

I want and need to have a little peace,....

But only you can subside my hard times,....

Only you can help me to release!....

.. ..

And in turn I’ll create that energy,....

Increasing like the speed of our tempo,....

Tender long melodic rises and deep hitting bass,....

Until you reach the crescendo!....

.. ..

Displaying a gamut of emotions,....

From noise to silence, from laughter to weeps,....

After a dose of our love potion,....

All that is left for us is sleep!....

We walk a delicate line,....

Almost predefined,....

Destination determined before seen,....

Lighted by a hope filled gleam!....

.. ..

Is this what This is supposed to be?....

.. ..

A paradox within a box,....

Confusion at all for sides,....

Lost to us is compromise,....

Lost in selfish dreams we wish to derive! ....

.. ..

Is this what This is supposed to be?....

.. ..

What of promises we promised to make so,....

Left empty-handed at the end of this rainbow,....

I often thought of what lies ahead,....

Those thoughts miss driven by lies that were said!....

.. ..

Is this what This is supposed to be?....

.. ..

I’m reminded of what started this thought,....

If predefined then I have no choice but walk this walk,....

If destined I have no choice but to see,....

The light that lies ahead of me!....

And hope…....

.. ..

Is this what This is supposed to be?....

Sometimes I watch you as you sleep,....

I pray the Lord your soul he keeps,....

I wish you happiness and peace,....

I wish this love will never cease!....

.. ..

At times I watch you thru the cracked door,....

As you prepare to go to work or to the store,....

Admire as to your beauty you put the finishing touch,....

Hope you realize I love you and how much!....

.. ..

I sneak peeks when you are looking away,....

So happy that you share my day,....

So thankful that you chose to care,....

So grateful that you’re always there!....

.. ..

So when you say it’s how you look at me,....

It’s really the looks that you don’t see,....

Those truly tell the tale,....

That your love is the air I inhale!....

This is a Public Service Announcement,....

For all who wish to denounce this,....

You are welcome to do as such,....

I only expect as much!....

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I am defined by the words in these lines,....

By the thoughts that I choose to share,....

By the stances I decide to declare,....

Not the thoughts of others I choose to air!....

.. ..

I speak my mind and hope you listen,....

I support those that are on their mission,....

I write in general so you can seize your own opinion,....

For we are only masters of our own dominion!....

.. ..

So you’re welcome to ask if curious what’s going on,....

But let’s leave the page monitoring to Tom,....

And since you’re so into what those graphics state,....

I’ll quote one “Relax… its only MySpace!!!”....

I Found Love Irreplaceable Real True!....

To all I wish the same for you,....

It allows me to interact with others,....

Without the desire to make them lovers!....

.. ..

I Found Love Irreplaceable Real True!....

Happiness fills me thru,....

I understand those that are still in search,....

Don’t give up, there’s no value on its worth!....

.. ..

I Found Love Irreplaceable Real True!....

There’s no limit to what I feel I can do,....

There is no problem that it can’t overcome,....

It’s superior! It’s second to none!....

.. ..

I Found Love Irreplaceable Real True!....

There’s no pain that it can’t subdue,....

It’s showed me the greater plan,....

It’s showed me just who I am…....

And now I understand!....

.. ..

I Found Love Irreplaceable Real True!....

It brought me from the heartache I knew,....

Reaping the benefits of all the hard work,....

That’s why I… F.L.I.R.T.!!!....

.. ..

I’m addicted to the warmth and softness,....

It’s an ecstasy I just get lost in,....

Giving me sensations thru and thru,....

The deeper that I get inside of you!....

.. ..

I can’t wait I fiend when you’re not here,....

I long till the next moment I hold you near,....

Your kiss, your touch and everything you do,....

I can’t wait to be deep inside of you!....

.. ..

So anxious, can’t wait for you to come,....

The anticipation has me about to explode,....

All the pressures and burdens of the day,....

Only you can lighten this load!....

.. ..

The sound of your voice,....

Your soft words of choice,....

The way you comfort as if you already knew,....

These are the things that bring me deep inside of you!....

.. ..

So intense I reach for you in my sleep, ....

Just thoughts of you can make me weak,....

Can’t say it enough so forever I‘ll try to prove,....

How I need the love that’s deep inside of you!....