Our kingdoms spanned from the alley to the backdoors, we ruled of times that seemed forever more. Our territory marked by a chain link fence, mostly peaceful treaties with neighboring clans we spent. I can’t remember how many times we crossed those boundaries to engage in war with them but only a day would go just as quick the wind would blow and we were back as friends again. I wonder who I would have been if our circle I would’ve stayed within, how the roads may have twisted and turned, the foundation of friendship began with you all I have learned. No others have got as close I have seen as the brothers I made at 2319 and for that there has been a cost, I ponder if I still there would the one be here we lost? I, maybe in fear of leaving again, only allowed the closeness of a few other friends but alas found them often just there… at times when the weather was fair! No alleys in this new land I now call home to forge in battle the type of brothers that I had known!!! With the change of winds the old became past friends, too many yesterdays between our moments spent and with those yesterdays new memories fade our events but I shall never forget, forever is what was meant so forever shall you live within my heart, for my brothers Harry, Jonny, Freddy and Mark!!! R.I.P.!!!....

The keys seem different now, as if they withdraw from my touch, as if memories of when we used to connect so much… it pains them to feel like my hands were another’s, angry with me like a jealous lover… too long in between our sessions, I apologize but still feel no affection! So we do this dance like strangers that once were close, delaying and wasting just what matters most… Time! Could it be its all within my mind? Maybe guilt for the fact that this is what I love to do? Then why has it been so long if that were true? Life can get in the way of what we desire, make the most sincere into liars, depending on what side that you stand on, the view of life or the side that just went wrong! As my hands slow their shaking and the keys lessen their aching the start of the healing begins but there will be many more letters to strike before we’re in love again! Pride and excuses, reasons and the truth all summed up in I missed you to!

I feel her as she lay next to me....

Her comfort brings me ecstasy....

Her contentment with me being in her plan....

I am blessed to be chosen as her man!....

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I know her flaws and weaknesses....

I know the love in which she gives....

I know the strength she has yet to find....

Her worries she can leave behind!....

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For I am her hearts keeper....

No safer place it could reside....

I’ll protect it with my dying breath....

That’s the only way I’ll leave her side!....

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She knows my flaws my weaknesses....

Has healed wounds not dealt by her hand....

Her smile has become the reason I live....

And I am so blessed to be chosen as her man!....

I raise my cup to drink,....
Replenishment from the fountain of knowledge,....
Vast lessons taught by life,....
No 101 for this in college!....
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I imagine I am not the first,....
I imagine I won’t be the last,....
I imagined this would be forever,....
Instead of imagining I should have asked!....
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But I did upon my knees I inquired,....
Is this real or am I entranced by her,....
Afraid of making my heart the liar....
Guess those questions I had  to answer!....
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And now I drink of bitterness,....
Of a wine before its time,....
Now I walk of shadows,....
From a sun that just won’t shine!....
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And still I imagine,....
For reality hurts too much to face,....
I make of my mind the liar,....
So my heart won’t be displaced!....
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I turn up my cup to this shine less sun,....
As I force down these last bitter drops,....
I imagine this lesson is over…....
So why haven’t the shadows stopped???....