So... at church last night our Bible study consisted of watching a movie entitled "Facing the Giants." It's a film about a small town high school football coach's journey with his team from being the worst team in the district to the state champions... through faith and an unwavering belief in God and all that he can do.......yeah.

The only home I've ever known... 21 years.... I just got a little emotional typing that. Wow. I've been really good up until this point. This is a lot harder to do than I thought it would be. I thought I would say some goodbyes to some people in my life, that have really helped make me feel like I have family even though my blood relatives are all thousands of miles away. I will be back in Oklahoma for a few weeks at the end of August, but I can't be certain that I'll see everyone then. So, I'll say my goodbyes now.

First of all, Daina... my oldest and dearest friend. Being with you tonight made me realize how much I miss spending time with you. I have never been so incredibly in tune with another human being. I know that God led you into my life. There is absolutely no other explanation for our relationship. If only we were attracted to each other! HAHA! I love you and it is a beautiful feeling knowing that you will ALWAYS be a part of my life... no matter where I am.


Terjuana... BIEM!!!!! Oh Lawd. I don't know what I am going to do without you. There will definitely be a big void in my life. Not seeing you everyday is really going to take some getting used to. I don't think I've met a person that can get on my nerves and/or frustrate me as much as you do... But that's what sisters are for, right? lol! I love you so much. I can't even put into words the depth of my love for you. Don't be gettin' no Bahfrahs while I'm gone! Hell!

Whitney... You and I can talk about everything, and I know you're always there when I need you to be. I thank God I found you freshman year. Most of college would have been hell without you. I wish I had your practicality or ability to organize ANYTHING. Heaven knows I need it. I love you with all of my being. You better come to NYC soon... and I want godchildren! Get on that.
(Yes, I just appointed myself the godfather of whatever kids you and Matt have. LOL!) "Julia Stiles took us out to eat!"

Collin... I know I may have told you this, but I admire you so much. You are so spiritually sound, and to be honest I feel inferior when I'm around you sometimes. But that's conviction... And that's good for me, right? Thank you so much for being such an understanding and non-judgemental friend (and for allowing me to treat you like my little brother). There is no way I will ever forget about you. Our picture will be on my wall when you come to NY next summer. I love you, Collin Scarecrow.

Faith... Wow. I just got emotional again. When I moved into the house, I didn't really see myself getting close with you. I was DEAD WRONG, huh! I love you, and I'm going to miss you and Daisy so much. You are truly the best roommate I could have ever asked for. The little cards and notes here and there really do mean a lot. Who else can I have dinner, a bitch session, and a fashion show with all in one night? NO ONE! You better call me in while you're in Minnesota!!!!!! If not, we'll always have "Blame It on The Movies." LOL!!!!!!!

Elizabeth... Thank you for only ever making me take one normal picture with you. I love that I don't ever have to be serious around you, if I don't feel like it. We do whatever... however... whenever. I mean, seriously. Nothing in our relationship is ever really planned. You call me or I'll call you, and we're off doing something at the drop of a hat. I am really going to miss you. Hurry up and finish your senior year so you can join me in NYC. I love you. "CoM3 2 yoUr Sen$e5!"

Krys... What the hell is our friendship?! Haha! LOL. How did we ever even become friends? It was somewhere between me calling you a bitch freshman year and us "working" in the shop together junior year. All I know is that I love you. Thank you for being the only friend I have that will readily insult me back. Touche'. Just remember one thing, "I ain't no bitch. I ain't no bitch. I ain't no bitch."

Dana... No one makes me laugh more than you. No one. I'm so glad you helped get me a job a Zio's four years ago. It really allowed me to get to know yo crazy self better. Now we like da bestes' of frins! Okaaaay!? I'm so proud of you for going to the peace corps. I really don't think I have the guts for something like that. My phone betta be ringin off da hook wit calls from you... "If you know whass good fuh you!"

Colin... My newest friend. I'm sad that it took this long for us to start becoming friends. However, I think we made the most of the time we did have together. Week of Fun was AMAZING! I hope you remember what I said to you in that one particular AIM convo we had.... Yep, that one. It's true. Believe it. I love you, man. Call me. I'll be really sad if you don't. "YOU BADDAH GADDAH!"

There are a few other people that I just barely started bulding relationships with or ran out of time to do so that I should mention because I will miss them all too: SAVANNAH, KASSIE, "TWIN," KELLY, DESMOND, and DOUG.


Well, I guess this is it. I will leave with the lyrics of Sarah McLachlan:

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories


God is love.
Goodbye....... for now.

So, I took a nap earlier this evening. Was it a pleasant nap? You tell me...

It was about three hours long. = GOOD

I was in my most comfortable bed. = GOOD

Overall, I slept pretty soundly. = GOOD

I had a NASTY, DISGUSTING, REVOLTING, and NAUSEATING dream. = BAD.

Elaboration? I believe so.

I was in a really cool loft style apartment which I lived in with Colin. However, he was not in the dream. ANYWho, I was sleeping on the floor at the foot of my insanely cool bed. Why? You got me. It's a dream. My pet Puggle (It's a Pug and Beagle mix, but mine had the coloration of an English Bulldog.) runs up to me, looks at me sleeping soundly, straddles my head, and proceeds to EJACULATE ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY FACE! Now, I don't know what doggie splooge is like. but this particular "dream semen" was a tannish color with the consistency of a 7-11 ICY drink. But it was NOT cold at all. Needless to say, that woke me up. I ran to the sink to puke..... and i did..... again.... and again.

*Well, I woke up from my nap momentarily and somehow had a very easy time going back to sleep. When I did.....*

I HAD THE SAME FRICKEN DREAM AGAIN! This time the dog was darker in color and my tainted t-shirt and pillow case from the first dream were in the dirty clothes hamper! WHA?!?!?!?! One thing that made this time different was the fact that I was scolding the dog in between heaves.....

*This time I woke up wanting to vomit. I, somewhat, still feel that way. This is one of the strangest, and most disgusting dreams I have ever had, and now I'm afraid to go back to sleep.*


I NEED A DREAM INTERPRETER STAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





I feel gross...

PLEASE READ... AT LEAST PARAGRAPH #3.

LENT

is more commonly practiced by Catholics. However, more and more Western Christians have begun to practice it as well. There are traditionally forty days in Lent which are marked by fasting, both from foods and festivities, and by other acts of penance. It starts on Ash Wednesday and extends through Easter. The three traditional practices to be taken up with renewed vigor during Lent are prayer (justice towards God), fasting (justice towards self), and almsgiving (justice towards neighbor). Today, some people give up something they enjoy, and often give the time or money spent doing that to charitable purposes or organizations.

SOOOO.... Here's the deal. There are two things in my life that take up a lot of my time.... Time that I could be spending on furthering my relationship with God and helping other people. I think I am kind of addicted to these two things, and I am about to put a stop to that. I am going to get a handle on it. It may sound silly/foolish to you but here goes nothing...

For LENT, I am giving up Facebook AND Myspace. That's right both of them. It really is going to be hard, but I have faith that I'll do it. 40 DAYS! So, if there is some kind of event you want to invite me to, or message you want to send me, or anything else you can do on Facebook or Myspace, please do one of the following... 1) email me at terren_w@yahoo.com 2) call me or 3) hit me up on AIM - RBM_ON_STAGE.

It all starts this Wednesay. Pray for me. Thanks.