this is for you, mayva, since i am pretty sure you are the only one that might still come here...

she is six weeks old today.  weird.  anyway, geoffs sister took these last monday.

so yeah... i think we lucked out.  she's pretty cute.

*  i hate assholes who make life miserable at work. 

*  i had lots of fun at my awesome birthday party.  we had a piniata.  geoff smashed the hell outta it and made all the GI Joe men fall out.  almost everyone who came, swam!!  i spent 12 hours in my bathing suit, and no pants.  i have a good group of friends who like to have fun... even when the birthday girl is prego and things don't go crazy and rager-y and keg partyish.

*  we went to maximo park.  and while it was nice to see old faces.  and get the BEST FREE PARKING SPOT EVER(!!!), the band, to me, was just kinda... exactly like they were on the albums.

*  geoff and i are going to the hospital tonight for registration, and to do a tour of the maternity ward.  yay!  babies!  it also costs 25$.  you would be suprised at how many things cost 25$ here, 30$ there for all this baby hoopla.  it's 'spensive!!

*  i hate that there are people who are sitting at home, blaming me for their shitty times.  why can't you ever take responsibilty for anything that you do.  i have seen it before.  hopefully you grow out of it.

*  i hate assholes at work who lie about things that have happened to them so they can have a day off work and then come in the next day as if there hand WASN"T broken.  it's weird.  and lame.  i am 7 fucking months pregnant, am in almost constant pain or discomfort, yet i manage to muster up the tiny amount of soul this place leaves me with to come here and do my job... and yours.  fuck you.

*  myspace has really become a place to spread hate, huh?  i mean, i am kinda doing that now too, i guess.  but anything i have said on here, i have also said to the persons face.  i just kinda feel that myspace has become a vehicle for coward types to have some balls, and hide behind words.  you suck, christa.

*  i am at a point in this pregnancy where i feel that having a baby inside me has left me an empty shell of what i used to be.  i don't know if it is the normal thing at this stage in the game to be filled with so much depression and anxiety and lack of sex drive.  but it sucks.  i couldn't really give you a reason as to why i feel the way i do most days.  it just kinda is what it is.  and it IS horrible.  but mostly because i know i am hurting people that i love on the daily.  and by people, i mean person.  and by person, i mean geoff.  i can't wait to have my old hormones back.  and have excitement for life.  and have sex.  and not get so angry all the time that i can feel bile rise in my esophogus.  it's just very defeating.  and as much as i try to change my outlook, it's like i can't.  like there is something there saying "NO!  you may not be normal!!"

*  i really like world of warcraft.  i don't care who knows.   

there are two commercials on the radio that play on every station in vancouver right now that ANNOY THE EVER LIVING PISS OUT OF ME!!!!!!!!

one is mr. sean jones, of spence diamonds.  his voice makes me want to kill my dad.  and for those of you who know me... that's a big deal.  this voice makes like he is the owner of spence diamonds.  but really, i know he is just some copyright for a standard or chorus radio station who is super excited to have a job in radio and is really gunnin for an on-air position on the morning show.... and has the most retarded voice i have ever heard.

you know how i know he is not the "real" owner of spence diamonds...

because he is also the voice for mr. jonothan carrol of itravel2000.com  but just slightly pitched shifted. 

and i know that because i spent $20,000 on an ALMOST useless audio education at an overrated school.  but i know what a pitch shift sounds like.  

this bothers me daily!  why?  cause i am pregnant and will let anything i want bother me to no end. 

my overies and geoffs jazz, present to you...............

A GIRL!

ta da!

today was the first day i could feel the baby kicking on the outside of my stomach!!  and geoff got to feel it too, for the very first time!  bastard kicks hard.

i find myself getting a little more excited and a lot less put-off with every new milestone thingy.  i think i might be experiencing "girly" behaviour, at times.  eep.

so i guess this is kinda what the baby looks like now.  far cry from the t-rex that it was in week six.  i am 20 weeks now (5 months).  that means half way there!!  thank christ.

it's all folded up.  ha ha.

i think i am strting to get those braxton hicks contractions now too.  completely uncomfortable.

anyway..................  that is all for now.  everybody is on facebook anyhow.  hee hee.

last night, i went to see three men play a giant arena.  the police played their first show in 25 years, last night in vancouver.  and it blew my ever living mind!!!!

hands down... best concert i have ever been to.  sorry radiohead.  they are all old and grey now, but still play with the hearts of kids who just got signed.

SO AWESOME.

in other news... i am currently drinking too much water for my morning tummy so that my bladder will swell.  it has to be full so that geoff and i can see our baby.  today is the day we (hopefully) see a penis or vagina.

ps.  baby loved the police, also!!  it moved so much.  it kicked my bladder twice, and that made me laugh.  it felt weird.

*EDIT*

baby's pee pee was MIA.  no gender  yet.  but i am pretty damn sure i saw some balls.  like... preeeeeeety sure.

i can totally feel this baby moving around my belly now.  it's so gross!!!  i mean, it's neat and everything, cause it's life.  but now i really feel like a host.  like i must spend the next 4 months making my tum tum the best apartment to ever live in.

we heard it's heart beat again today.  you could also hear it kicking away.  but under those two sounds was the sound that the baby hears all the time, and that is the sound of the most insane blizzard to ever make it's way through a tunnel.  i feel bad for it.

my gender bending ultrasound party is may 29th.  so if i find out what it is, i will be sure to keep you posted.

geoff got me a mothers day card, too!!!  so fuckin cute!

our house is mostly unpacked, and we are all back to work.

if you ask me, i have NEVER in my life had my priorities more straight then i do right now.  and i am feeling pretty good about that.

i HATE new people at work who are over-steamed to like, steal your job...or whatever.

'specially when they are big fuckin' dorks with feathery hair!

well... i pretty much hate everyone.  i'm pretty negative like that.