I know its been a really long time since I updated, but honestly I havent felt the urge to update this thing.  Having absolutely nothing ground breaking to talk about doesnt help either.  But since a lot of minor things have probably happened, Im sure some people would like to hear them.

So lets see what happened since I last updated in November...

The internship let me go after 8 or 9 months.  Gave me a freelance job a few months ago, but havent called back since.  Shame I think I fucked it up.  I realy liked that place.

Still at Penn's Landing.  Hate it even more and more.  Gonna quit soon, but I need to get another job to take its place.

Havent heard from girlie in a long while.

Had that one girl try to call me after like a year with out talking to me.  Only to tell me that shes pregnant with her ex-boyfriends kid, who bailed on her, while she was talking to some other dude whilst talking to me.  I want no part of that situation.  Didnt want to talk to me in how long, now all of a sudden wants to chat.  No thanks.

Havent talked to my best friend in a long time either.  Last time we hung out was in December when we went to an ABR concert.  Was supposed to go to AC soon after, but that fell through.  Who knows whats going to happen now.

Speaking of December, fucking hated it.  Worst month of the year.  Got stuck working both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.  My birthday as well.  Not that it mattered, nothing could make me less miserable that time of the year anyway.

Thats pretty much it.  Just another miserable time period.
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M. Sassis.

To others its just a name of an unknown person.

To me, its the name of the woman who walked off the pier on Penn's Landing today and committed suicide.  A jogger found her body floating in the Delaware River this afternoon.  They found her walker on the pier.  With it was a purse that contained her eye glass case with her glasses, a Styrofoam cup and plastic baggies.  Security tapes confirmed that it was a suicide, she walked up to the edge and went into the water.

One news station came to cover what had happened today.  They came about 30 minutes after the all of the PFD and PPD left.  As of right now, they have no mention of it on their website.

Shit's messed up.  Right now, I can only think of why she would do it.  What was her situation that led her to end her own life.  I know its horrible to have such morbid  curiosity, but to have never been so close to this kind of thing before and to know so much about it, its fucking weirding me out.

I dont know how to end this, so...
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Havent updated in a long time.  Didnt really feel like it since nothings really going on.

Working and looking for a new job again.  Thought the internship would work out, kinda didnt cause Im still sitting here waiting for them to call me back in to work with them.  Applied for another media job, havent heard shit back from them either.  I just dont want to work at this fucking parking lot any more.

Thought I met someone in August that would work out into something.  Nope.  Bailed out before anything got going.  In the words of the Biz "Dont ever talk to a girl who says she just has a friend."

Eh, other then that, same boring shit.  My friends aint around and Im getting into foul moods.  Shit sucks.

Well I'm not dead yet;
But the regrets are killing me
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So its that time of the week again.  Knocking out another boring blog post because Im bored and have nothing else to do.  So here's the skinny:

Mom is doing better.  Out of the sling and her shoulder is healing fine.  She has some nerve damage in her arm and hand.  How much of it?  We dont know.  We'll find out Monday when I take her to the doctors and they run some tests.

Work is going good now.  Steady flow of stuff for me to be doing.  The Barnes Documentary is getting there.  They're hoping to have it done by the end of summer.   Im hoping sooner.  Can't be working for free forever for them.

Heh.  Had to go to BJs yesterday.  Went from good mood to absolutely pissed in about 2 sentences.  I was over it before and happy it was behind me, but yesterday made me so fucking pissed off.  All the rage and furiousness came flooding back.  My Mom picked up on it.  But did they?  Nope.  Who cares.

I will say that when Im looking a lot of down time where Im free to listen to my thoughts, I think of the stupidest shit ever.  For example, the last 3 interests in my life can be described by 3 songs by incubus.  Here, here and here.  People probably wont see the connection from what happened and maybe Im just projecting on things.  But damn, in my eyes its fucking similiar.

So in August, my brother and his girlfriend are going to Chicago and my parents are going to the Longest Yard Sale, which means Id have to house to myself for about a week, I think.  No idea what Im going to do if it works out.  I do know that Im going to Baltimore August 9th for Otakon.  So we'll see what happens.


So course is the world
We're going back and forth
And back and forth
Grinding our bodies into dust
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Lets see.  Quick run down for the past few weeks since I haven't updated:

Doing nothing productive at home.  When Im not working, Im watching TV.  When Im not watching TV, Im sleeping.  All in all, just being a fucking loser.

Been thinking about Boomer a lot recently.  Its been a year since we last said our good byes and it still chokes me up a bit.  Really do miss him.

Works been going.  Doing more Motion Graphics stuff every time I go in there.  Save for today.  Had me scan more documents and articles and shit.  The project is getting done.

My Mom dislocated her shoulder 2 Sundays ago.  That sucked bad for her.  Had it set back in, but now shes having problems with her hand and the lost feeling in it.  Gotta wait till next Weds. to see if she has nerve damage and how bad it is.

Um thats about it.  Nothing really.


Lying on the shady grass
Afternoon, theres always something happening
Friends go floating gently by
I'm listening to a song inside my head
Although the summer's past
Those mythic dreams would never last
Nor do I care anymore and if it makes you sad
Remember all the things you have that can't be bought
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So havent posted much in the past two weeks.  Really havent felt the urge to do so.  It seems that regardless of how much I vent on here, it never really helps.  Haven't been feeling to hot mentally in the past couple weeks.  Shit just doesnt feel right, right now. 

Works going good.  They got a 3rd editing station for me to work on last week.  So Im now working 3 days a week there again doing motion graphics stuff for the Barnes documentary.  Now if only they would ask me stay full time.  That would be something.  If not, I'll stay till this documentary is done and go look for something else.  Best I can do.

Havent talked to that girl in really long time.  Dont care anymore, but just thought Id let my faithful reader know.

Talk to girlie every now and then.   Nothing new really, just catching up and shit like that.

Cut my hair.   Took the plunge yesterday and cut everything off.  The long parts are being donated to charity so its not like it was a waste or anything.  But its like 2 pounds of hair off my head now.  Gotta get used to it.


I take a look around, it's evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
And there are times when I can't seem to understand at all.
And yes it seems as though I'm going nowhere really fucking fast.
Nowhere fast.
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So, spent the last 3 days in Lancaster hanging out with Anthony, Dave and Scorgie and some randoms thrown in between.  Went up Friday night, just Anthony, Dave, myself and some others and drank by the fire.  Saturday was pretty much the same, except that we went to the Ren Fair before hand and started drinking there.  Scorgie showed up afterwards and it was just chaos.  Fireworks, MGD/High Life and drunk people.  Good stuff.

Had a good long conversation with Girlie on Friday.  Havent had one of those in a while.  Albeit I was kinda drunk, I remember some stuff that was talked about.  It was just a good night that night.

Eh, work is off and on now.  Some days they need me, some days they dont.  I havent been in since last Monday.  Im going to start looking for a side job to bring some money in.  Im also setting some dead lines for this shindig.  Cant be an intern forever.

Did it stick? Come down from there
I know it's hard to swallow, when your head is overturned
Hey there girls, I'm a cunt.
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Nothing much going on.  Been a pretty boring week for me.  So yeah.

I'm gonna do what you say and get way out of line.
Nobody gonna stop me now.
It's not how it looks unless you saw nothing.
We all, agree, this proposal been sentenced to death.
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So lets see.  Always hard to start these things off now.  Maybe its because nothing eventful has been going on lately.  Who knows.

So last week I forgot to mention that Mikey and I went and seen Minus the Bear at the TLA.  Good concert as always.  First band, not so good.  Portugal The Man, is always good.  Seen them at the Church before, so it always great to see them in a bigger venue.  Minus was great, did a whole lot of songs off of Planet of Ice.  Would have liked to hear some more older songs, but you take what you can get.

Had my first MRI.  It was interesting.  Hated having the head cage thing on, had to lay there with my eyes closed because the depth perception thing was screwing me up.

Gonna get together with Jose on Thursday to brainstorm ideas for creative projects.  Got another idea for a thriller to work on.  Gonna write out a rough treatment and shit on Monday at work.

Speaking of work, I got done scanning and moved to doing After Effects place holders back to scanning again.  Had my first shoot with the company last Saturday.  I shot stuff for the cancer doc., it went well, got some good shots.

Going out on Tuesday night.  First time in a while.  Then in 2 weeks going out to Twans for a weekend to party.

Uh, thats about all I can think of.

You said, 'My life's like a bad movie,'
I said, 'Thats true of all us.'
You said, 'I've got to wake up so fucking early,'
I said, 'Maybe the director's turned on us.'
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Lets see, lets see.  Work was good this week.  Finally finished scanning documents for the most part.  Have to do a bunch more this week though.  They had me start doing place holders in After Effects.  Brought some of it home with me to do since I cant/couldnt do it there.  They had me go on a shoot on Saturday too.  Got some usable stuff for the cancer documentary.

What else... its been 2 weeks now.  Still no word from them.  Cant say Im mad about it any more.  More irritated then anything on a few points about the whole situation.  Had a dream where they called me, but I ignored the calls and let it go to voice mail.

Need to go out and party soon.  Im going insane about it.  Just need  a night to go out and relax.

Going to start looking for a part time to supplement my income again.

Get my first MRI on Weds.  should be interesting.


After it's done
You just move on
A night can show what's made plain by the sun
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