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Roger Wilbanks


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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 37
Sign: Sagittarius

City: DALLAS
State: Texas
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/6/2006

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April 14, 2009 - Tuesday 
March 29, 2009 - Sunday 

Current mood:  optimistic
Category: Art and Photography
I'm doing this different this time.  I am going to post a page per day of this story. 
It's 22 pages long so we're only talking about 3 weeks of your life here.
When you take time to consider how short that may be, you can thank me later.
It was nice knowing you all.  :)
--rog--



















 

 
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February 27, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  stoked
Category: Art and Photography

OK, essentially this is the story.  I met an artist on Facebook named Atula Siriwardane. (here's his link - http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=540243850) and we started talking about working together on a project.  This project was to be a throw-away  2 pages I would pencil and he would ink.  Real simple, right?  Wrong.  But in a good way.  He supplied me with a plot for a simple sory, I ellaborated on that and cranked out a 7 page story.  I did the breakdowns for this story and added a tweak here and there.  I penciled the pages, and sent them his way.  This is what I sent him.








   
 I'm pretty happy with the art I did on these but I have to be a hundred percent honest when I say I was in no way shape or form prepared for what he sent me back.




 

This guy made my art look so much better that I am absolutely stiffled for a comparison.  I thought I had it down till I saw these 2 pages.  He's working on the others now and I have to tell you...I cannot freakin wait to see them.  This is the first time I have ever collaborated with anyone on a project where both artists are not only on the same page, but we are on the same wavelength.   I'm really excited to see what this final product looks like.

--rog--
 
 

February 18, 2009 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  blessed
A while back I asked a simple question, "I wonder what Dallas was like during the Depression?" Well after a TON of research and a LOT of crumpled paper I have my answer.  It's not complete yet, but here's a sneak peek.  A always, all art an concept Copyright 2009 Roger A Wilbanks



October 21, 2008 - Tuesday 

Current mood:haunted
Category: Writing and Poetry

By Roger A Wilbanks

I'm walking blind, feeling my way down this hallway.  Moments ago I was in a room surrounded by friends when the lights went out and the screaming started.  The sounds coming from the darkness touch off some ancient survival instinct in me and I got out before whatever that thing is could get me too. 

 

Charlie found this haunted house on a flyer he picked up on Greenville Avenue last night and brought us all out here.  I think he was the first one that screamed when the lights went out.  I had a funny feeling that this was some elaborate prank on his part; he has been known as a trickster in the past,H but that sound that came from his mouth was not one that could be easily faked.  It was the sound of a man that has just come face to face with his absolute worst primal fear and seen that he was nowhere close to realizing how bad it really was.  That was followed by something that was a combination of a dog crunching a chicken bone to splinters and the sucking sound congealed soup makes as it struggles to leave the can. 

 

No.  That wasn't faked.  I know it.  I feel it deep in my shivering bones.  It was convincing enough to get me out of that room quick, fast and in a hurry and moving my way through the darkness hand by hand in search of the exit.  The darkness here has a physical sensation to it, like a blanket thrown over my head.  I almost feel it drape over my outstretched arms as I grope my way through the hallway. 

That noise.  There is something behind me.  It sounded like a tree branch scraping a window on a windy night.  It was some distance away from me down the hallway, but I am going to stop moving anyway.  There is no need giving myself away here.  I don't hear screaming coming from that room anymore.  There is no noise now except for faint dripping and some soft rustling sound.  That scraping sound just stopped.  It sounds like it's pivoting…turning away from me. 

 

My heart is a machine-gun inside my chest.  It feels like it's pounding its fists against my ribcage, trying to get out.  I tell it to calm down.  It's no safer out here than it is in my chest.  If it keeps this racket up, that scratching noise will know I am here and we're both screwed. 

 

It begins scraping itself along the floor again but it sounds like it's moving away from me.  I begin silently feeling my way down the hall again.  I walked down this hallway just a minute ago in the full light.  I know where the exit is.  I just have to get to it before that scraping noise spins around and comes this way.  If I can get outside in the moonlight, I know I'll be safe.  I refuse to die in this moldy hallway…my insides slurped and my bones crunched to splinters. 

 

I know this hallway was about thirty feet long and I have probably made it half that distance so far.  I have fifteen feet to go to safety.  The wall is wet here.  It's a strange wetness.  It was dry earlier, I'm certain of it.  I remember the dusty mold on the wallpaper right where I am feeling now.  The wall feels thick and cold, like old, curdled milk.  I wipe my hand on my pants as the smell that wasn't there a second ago hits me.  I've driven country roads before.  I know what roadkill smells like, but this was worse by far than anything I ever passed on even the most brutally hot August afternoon.  What I smell now is so strong and visceral it should have its own name.  I'm sure it does, and I don't want to know what that name is.  I retch and vomit where I stand. 

 

The scraping behind me stops.  I stop also.  Tears swell my eyes shut as I choke down on my own vomit.  I lose a moment of my faculties as my body struggles to recover from this revulsion.  I turn my head as I wipe my mouth and aim my good ear in the scraping noise's direction as I try to gauge its location.  It has stopped moving. 

Tense seconds tick by in slow motion as I imagine both me and my shapeless foe waiting for the other to make the first move when I remember my cell phone.  Many nights of stumbling have ended injury free because of that small but intense light.  This is one of those times. 

 

     I have a decision to make now.  Shining that light will give my position away.  Do I illuminate my unseen foe or do I use that light to expose my exit to safety?  I reach into my pocket and pull the phone out.  I decide to reveal my foe first as I think it's better to deal with the devil you know rather than an unknown entity.  I turn to face the source of the scraping noise and open the phone. 

 

     What sight greets me before I drop the phone out of sheer horror is soft and bruise-colored.  It has several eyes of varying sizes and is covered with holes, some lined with sharp tiny teeth.  There are appendages snaking from its ambiguous form that resemble tapeworms with suckers for mouths. 

 

     The light from this momentary illumination causes it to shrink back for a moment, but it recovers with unimaginable speed to grab the phone as it hits the ground and crush it into unintelligible pieces and once more drapes the hallway in dark.  The scraping noise starts inching its way towards me, stopping a few feet from my shaking awestruck body. 

My eyes are so wide now I am sure I can see even in this wet blackness.  But still my unseen foe remains cloaked in darkness.  I imagine it squatting before me as a lonely man with a dollar would before a nubile topless dancer who wants one.  I then feel cold breath on my neck.  It is breath exhaled from a body that doesn't know the warmth of life.  The smell of rotting meat accompanies the soft hiss that says, "So glad you…could… join us."

 

     As the many unseen mouths that surround me surge into me and begin to gnaw and bite, the shock and severity of my flesh being torn from my body is nowhere near as surprising as the fact that that cold breathy voice that whispers to me is that of my good friend Charlie.

September 11, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  exhausted
Category: Life

(Note, I wrote this piece last year, and it still holds true today. I have to add a note to it however and that is this. People should remember this day as one of shock. They should remember it as the day we lost our swagger. It was the day we discovered our Kryptonite. It should not be a day of avoidance. It should be a day of solemn remembrance. Our task today is not to abandon joy but to embrace it on behalf of all those who cannot do so and nothing more. It is not a tool, it is not a holiday. It is simply...a day of remembrance. And nothing more. Rog. 9/11/08)

September of 2001 found me in transition. I was just getting comfortable at my new job at WFAA and hitting a groove there that had been missing since getting laid off out of the blue from Yahoo that previous April.


I woke up that morning like most Americans to the sound of the usual AM-radio chatter, my alarm set to go off during the wacky portion of the local Sports Radio's wacky morning show.  This time there was something different in the voices of the personalities waking me up that I will never forget.


"Look...the plane just flies into the tower...oh my God..." and it trailed. I got up and waddled into the living room, turning on the TV half-asleep, half anxiously.  I prayed that what I would see would be nothing.  I prayed that it was just more shtick from an overused bit player on the show, but it wasn't. What I saw instead that morning changed me.

Smoke.

I saw the billowing pillar of smoke and knew something had just shifted in the world.  Remembering that I now worked at a TV station, I threw what cloths were nearby on and jumped into my Jeep. I made the normal 12-minute drive to the station in 6. I took turns in my vehicle that on any other day would have sent me into a rollover, but this day all 4 wheels stayed down.

I arrived at the station just as the 2nd plane hit the tower.  It was pandemonium. People were buzzing to and fro like hornets in a nest just struck by an errant baseball. I sat at my desk and immediately went to work clipping video excerpts from all the networks and posting them on WFAA's video clip page (copyright was thrown out the window this day) and didn't leave that spot until close to 10pm that evening, close to 14 hours later.

I left the station and went to the Green Room (now closed) and asked...no, I simply and quietly told the bartender to line up tequila from my left hand to where I had placed my right...many inches away.  Just like in the westerns.  I downed each shot one after the other and drove home before the booze took hold.  I was asleep before I pulled into my driveway, but that was just the beginning.

The things I saw that day watching the raw network feeds shook me to my core.  Some of this video was never (rightly so) released to the public...and I pray it never will be.  People on fire, people jumping from office windows, people on the ground being crushed like empty beer cans by falling debris...what I saw that day changed me. 

I celebrate this day the same way I honored it when it happened but this time I will do it with juice instead of tequila. (I don't really see the sense anymore of the honorary hangover.) But the memories are still there, vivid and glaring.  I still feel like I have been violated to this day...as if someone has broken into my house and stolen my precious keepsakes. 

The only difference between the me from 9/11/01 and the me of 9/11/07 is that I have taken the time in-between then to dig for answers.  I have tried to learn why the people who did this deed feel the hatred they felt. What I have learned in my studies is disturbing.  Yes, there are things that our government/society/culture did to upset these people, but to the scale that warranted such a retaliation?  No.  Not even close.  The simple party line that these people were crazed zealots isn't entirely accurate.  It's partially true, but only just.  Others led them to this.  Sure they were crazy. Anyone willing to shed his own blood because someone who holds himself as a holy man asks him to cannot be wired properly.  

What disturbed me then as now is that the ones who wanted this attack to happen...the ones whose hatred knows no bounds are still alive.  It's the simple-minded zealots, the followers that paid their fare.  That they are still alive and hate us more today than they did before is unfortunate.  That their actions have gummed the works of our society is also unfortunate.  That their beef with us will only be resolved when one of us is irrevocably wiped off the planet is a sad truth.
That is what 9/11 taught me.
That and too much tequila is not necessarily a bad thing.

--rog--

September 11, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  grateful
Category: Art and Photography

This is a little ghost story I did.
I'll leave the talking to Joey.
Enjoy.

September 2, 2008 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  drained
Category: Art and Photography

OK...it's done.  Well over 40 hours have gone into this.  Let me know what you think by leaving a comment.  Good or bad, I relish the feedback.

--rog--

August 29, 2008 - Friday 

Current mood:  accomplished
Category: Art and Photography

OK, here goes.  I have been asked why I haven't been putting up any new short stories lately and I have the answer for you right here.  I have worked on this comic for a while now and I think it's pretty good.  Take a read and let me know what you think, but it's not a 1-read and forget story, I put a lot into this.  Read it, print it out and read it again.  Let me know if you catch the little stuff I sprinkled through out like so much magic dust.
By the way, this is a free comic, by all means share it with your friends but I still reserve all rights aside from you printing it and giving it away.


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(all images and characters copyright 2008 Roger A Wilbanks)
July 30, 2008 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  bouncy
Category: Writing and Poetry

By: Roger A Wilbanks 

The day was painfully bright and cheerful.  It was the worst part associated with this anniversary, that it so often occurred on such a splendid day.  Frank stopped the buzzing alarm and got up from bed.  The automatic coffeepot had already brewed his coffee for the morning, much to his doctor's chagrin.

"It will only make you die faster, Frank." He told him.  Frank reminded his doctor that he was 70 years old.  Mother Nature was doing her damndest to make him die faster so he saw no point to denying himself the few things in life that made him feel good.  Just because he was getting older, there was no need to punish himself.

He poured himself his first cup and walked to his closet.  He wanted to pick out a special suit for the day.  It was the 50th anniversary and he wanted everything to be perfect.  The black herringbone was nice but it was too warm outside and would make him miserable.  The brown tweed just looked too festive for the day.  He settled on the navy blue cotton one.  It was lightweight and somber enough.  After all, it wasn't a funeral he was going to.  That happened half a century ago.

He dressed quietly and returned to the kitchen where he made himself breakfast and enjoyed a second cup of coffee.  It was already starting to make his insides rumble but he wasn't alarmed.  There was plenty of time for that later.  He was more pleased with the other side effects the coffee was having on him.  He was more alert and felt a genuine buzz about himself and his day's activities.  He had a schedule planned for today that he had kept since that awful night.  It had become a tradition but that didn't hold him chained to it.  Each act he performed today served its own purpose.  He left no thought or movement wasted.  His mind was as sound as it was the day she walked into his life 53 years ago.  When he closed his eyes real tight, he could see her just as she was then.  She was wearing a low-cut dress, the kind that was fashionable with the edgier crowd back then.  She wore a lot of make-up too, but she had a quick and kind smile.  It was a very practiced one too, and when she aimed it at Frank, he melted immediately.  She worked in a bar near the bad part of town and it attracted a wide assortment of patrons from the upwardly mobile to those on the fast downward spiral.  She served them all the same.  In here, the color of your skin didn't mean shit.  It was only the color of your money that mattered.  Frank was one of those on the downward spiral and it was the girl that saved him.  They saw quite a lot of each other back then and their romance grew at an alarming rate.  He found himself spending more and more time in her bar.  He ignored the flirtatious manner in which she worked but still felt that gnawing in his chest from an unnamed beast whenever she leaned too close to a patron.  Days flew into months and he found himself wed to the woman.  Frank began to doubt her sincerity almost as soon as the couple moved into their new house.

          He drained the last of his second cup and finished his breakfast.  He looked once more on the framed picture he kept on his bed table.  It was his wedding picture.  It was the happiest day of his life.  He paused and thought to himself for a moment.  Had his entire life led to that one moment and halted?  Was every moment after that day wasted?  He couldn't fight the feeling that from that day on, he had lived on borrowed time.  He shrugged and walked out the door.  These days were better spent enjoying the few simple pleasures life was willing to share with him than rehashing existential horseshit.  He wasn't about to spend his Golden Years delving too deeply into his 25 year old self.  He had more important things to do with his life, especially today. 

He walked to the bus stop on the corner but didn't have long to wait.  After 50 years of practice, he had his schedule committed to memory.  He showed his monthly pass to the driver and took his place on the crowded bus.  A lot people were going a lot of places here but each was locked into their own petty existence, just as Frank was.  No one made any attempt at connection here.  No one dared even so much as an unwarranted smile or accidental eye contact.  Frank frowned on this aspect of today's society. He was a genuinely kind and good-natured person who enjoyed the company of others.  Though, he had to admit that after her…he wasn't nearly as trusting as he once was. 

 He remembered each and every one of those late night returns she made.

"Had to work late tonite, baby…sorry."

"The bar had to stay open later than normal.  Big wig in town."

The excuses were always fresh and imaginative, just like her.  A bump on the road bounced Frank back into the present and nearly onto the lap of another commuter.  After a brief apology, Frank saw his stop drawing near.  He left the bus and walked the two blocks to the flower shop.  The day was painful in its beauty.  It was picture perfect.  It was a complete opposite to the pain and anguish that flowed through his own heart.   He opened the door to the florist, tinkling the tiny bells above him as he did so and walked in.

"Frank!  Is it that time again already?  Guess so.  Orchids right?  I'll go and get them for you."  He stopped and looked over his shoulder at Frank. "The usual card?"

Frank nodded and withdrew the money for the flowers.  When the florist returned, Frank reviewed the card.  "Lovely day, isn't it?" he asked.  Frank nodded in acceptance of both the card and the statement. 

He took his package in his arm and walked back outside.  The cemetery was only four blocks away.  50 years ago this part of town was all but deserted.  It was calm and peaceful.  Time had not been kind to it, however.  Urban rejuvenation had caused the downtown area to swell and expand, forcing the poor and the disenfranchised to seek other housing in less expensive areas like land surrounding a cemetery.  Frank made the four block walk through half-hearted threats from junkies and fully explained propositions from whores.  Even though he was 70, Frank looked virile and healthy.  He was always a big man.  She knew that back then, he thought.  She always respected that aspect of his character even as she tread upon the others.  He often wondered if she used the threat of his intervention to keep control of her bar.  That would make sense.  Frank was always bigger than everyone else and though he was blessed with a kind nature, he was able to turn feral is given the appropriate provocation.  Perhaps she gambled too often using him as a chip and found someone willing to call her bluff.  He would never know.  The only thing he knew for certain was what the police had told him when they arrived at his door to inform him of his wife's murder.  The criminal was caught and justice would be served.  "Oh, by the way…did you know her bar doubled as a brothel?  Apparently she was the main attraction.  Have a nice day."  Funny way to greet a grieving widower, he thought. 

The gate squeaked as he opened it.  He would have to bring a can of oil with him next year.  The caretakers of this cemetery were nothing of the sort.  Her grave was clear of weeds and tangle only thanks to his annual visitation.  The rest of the area was unkempt and desolate.  Her plot was an island…an oasis in a desert of neglect.  He arrived at the foot of her grave and stared.  All was as he had left it last year.  He carefully cleared the small weeds that had begun to take root and made the plot presentable.  Then he spoke.


"My sweet, though our time together was a lie crafted in the disguise of love, it was the happiest time of my life.  When I heard what you'd done and learned of the full scope of your deceit, I asked God for just one thing.  I promised to lead a good life and do everything right in exchange for a long life.  By all accounts I've done that.  I've been kind to everyone I met and done my best to be a good person so that I can return here to you every year and speak to you.  I miss you more and more each year that passes."

Frank lay the orchids down on top of the grass that covered his wife and said, "These were your favorites."  He wiped a tear from his face before it had a chance to fall upon this sanctified ground.  He looked around to see if anyone was watching his moment of weakness and assured himself he was all alone.  His insides rumbled again.  The coffee was doing its dirty work.  He thought again of the hearty breakfast he enjoyed hours ago.  His digestion these days was more like an express train than anything.  He glanced around again and undid his belt.  He squat down over the area of earth directly over where his dead wife's face was and shit.  He emptied his bowels and his heart with one of the more spectacular defecations of his life as he performed the act of vengeance upon the one woman who had wounded him the worst.  He finished his work and took the card from the orchids.  He placed the card on top of the pile he had created and cleaned himself.  He made himself presentable once more and said, "You deserve no less.  You deserve no more.  I only regret that I was not there the night the man I sent to kill you did the deed.  The sight of your bulging eyes as he choked the life from you would have been a pleasant diversion for me over these last 50 years.  Goodbye my love." He said as he walked away.

"See you next year."