I hope everyone remembers today that we have this wonderful holiday because Jesus our savoir was faithful to his father and died on the cross to pay for all of our sins, great or small and rose from the grave three days later walked on the eart alive to show us that the Lord our God means everything he says and never falters.  We have been washed in the the blood of Jesus Christ and are a new creation. Those who believe can feel the beautiful presence of our lord in our lives everyday, those who do not believe or have not been told, I am here to say that I rose up from a terrible sad lonely place in my life, ebmraced the Lord our God with all my heart and now I live in peace and security as an heir to the throne of God.  Believe me my friends, there is no greater life the the one you live with the wholy spirit!!!  Praise God for giving of his son to pay for our sins, that my friends is the Ultimate sacrifice.

My beautiful Grandson Alexander Johnathan was born February 9th at 5:09 pm at 6 llbs 20 oz 21 inch long.  He is healthy and beautiful.  Momma is doing good, Daddy is doing fine, but the grandmas and aunt sam are freakin tired!!!!!!!!!  God Bless the precious children!!!!!!!!!

 

 

1. A single brush of your hand across my face, as you look right into my eyes, then walk past me makes me crazy for you.

2. When you wake up in the morning and turn to look for me even though you know I may not still be there.

3. When you take my feelings into consideration during every decision, whether it affects me or not.

4. When you say I love you to me at night, even when I am not home to hear it.

5. That you know I will be happy to see you even after I have had a long stressful day so you greet me with a smile and warm welcome home.

6. When you bring me a cup of coffee when I am working really hard, even though I have not asked for one.

7. That you know every smell that I love, and every touch that makes me feel good, and every sound, song or word that I need to hear, just as I need these things: without being asked.

8. That you know that even one bad mistake could affect me! Deep down in your heart it hurts so bad that the thought of hurting me causes you to not dare make that mistake.

9. That you see me in everything you do, looking for what I might think in everything you do.

10. When you watch me cry it is the most torture you have ever seen.

11. Just knowing I am about to hold you melts you before a single touch from my hand.

12. Precious moments with me mean more than any activity you can think of.

13. Anticipating a phone call from me makes you goofy.

14. Missing a phone call from me makes you sad.

15. Making up for the missed phone call makes you feel accomplished.

16. After time away from home, I am the first person you want to see.

17.  Choosing between time with friends and time with me is not even a choice; I am your everything; and you would not be ashamed to tell your friends that you want to be with me.  But taking a break and going to an x box party or fishing will not break my heart because you know that I love you unconditionally.

19. Breaking my heart is not an option, because you would never do anything that could cause such a tragedy.

20. Trusting you to be away from home for days, months or years for work would not make me worry about you being faithful, because I know how deeply you love me, you tell me, show me, and I can feel it deep in my heart.  And you know that I could wait for you for eternity, because you are my match.

21. Even when life is hard, and things aren't exactly perfect, I can count on you to make me feel like the world is the most perfect place to be as long as we are together.

22. When you look at me I can see in your eyes that I am the only woman in the world that you would ever want.  I don't have to ask.

23. Every note on the fridge, every message, every letter is signed; I Love You!  Sweet Dreams, or I'll See you there!

24. If I am mean to you, you tell me right then, and you graciously accept my apology, because you know that I would not intentionally hurt you. You know that I feel the same way about you as you feel about me.

25. When the song on the radio makes you think of me and you start to cry without worrying about who might see you.

26.  No matter how far away we are from each other, all we have to do is close our eyes and we are together holding each other. 

27. When I cry you want to be the first one to wipe my tears.

28. When I am sad you want to be the one who fixes all my problems.

30.  That you send me presents from over 6000 miles away, during the middle of a war zone, just so I know you love me.

31. When you hold me tight we feel like one person, there is no degree of separation.

32. The thought of loosing me causes you pain, the thought of loosing you causes me painful tears that burn lines into my cheeks.

33. Since you left to go to War and I hold your t-shirt at bedtime because it smells like you, it makes me cry just knowing you were once wearing that very t-shirt that I have the privilege to snuggle up with.

34. When you call home, and you are only allowed 20 minutes to talk and most of that time you are asking about me, makes me feel like a queen, and feel guilty at the same time, because I want you to know you are my hero, my most prized possession, my life.

35. Every moment, every day, every month, and every year that we have been together has only improved over time. God made you for me and me for you, that is obvious in even the simple things like the way we look into each others eyes. 

Thank you for the place to put my words.    "Mrs. Wright"

     My psychic pain is not showing its meaning!!!!

     I have no idea what is going on right now, weather, too busy, physical pain, not sure, but I am on the edge of screaming!!!!!!!!!!  I have this empty feeling in my gut that won't seem to go away.  I pray, I meditate, but this longing tearful deep pressure in my stomach remains unchanged. I miss my husband who is in Iraq, and the stress of being the mom and the dad is nearly more than I can handle.  However, I believe that this pressure is more than even I could explain.  I have this feeling that there is something dreadful either coming, happening, or already happened and I do not know what it is.  Do I think I am psychic, no I know I am, not very skilled at it as of yet, but working on it.  I hate the days where I feel the dread of others and can not put my finger on it.  Have I called it in the past, many times, but it is usually after the fact that I find out that I am correct.  I started to write down the very specific feelings, but this one is general, too general that it makes me nervous.  This world is very confusing; there is love and hate in every moment in every city, state and country.  I have written down and been correct about so many things that have happened over the past few years but I can not come up with even a guess as to my current heavy heart.  I thought if I wrote I would be able to come up with something but still I sit, writing about nothing!!!!!!!!  Deeper and deeper in thought and further and further from an answer.  I will write again if something comes to me, but to all of you who KNOW I love you, and to those of you who I love because you are my brother or sister in Christ, and yes to those who I know or do not know who I love out of my passion to love everyone as Christ would want me to, I will be praying that what ever I am feeling will not cause you any pain! 

                               Thank you for the place to put my words

                                                       Ronni

My husband, who is in Iraq, says that pain and tears are only our bodys way of ridding any weakness.  It is what makes us stronger! I suppose I am far weaker than I ever imagined.  What makes a simple word cause the tears to well and the pain in ones hearts to swell and the complete control over our ability to choose our emotions to simply disappear?  I have always thought of myself as superwoman, not literally but I thought I could do it all, and handle it all.  I don't cry, I may get mad but I am not an angry person.  At this point in my life I have no idea who I am!!!!!!   And yes, right now, I cry! I am starting to learn I think?  Meditation, meditation, meditation, eating healthy and some exercise is what is helping me to open up to things that I thought were either not there or buried.   Life is nothing more, nothing less that a lesson learned and if we are not growing, than what is the point!  From now on I swear to all that is precious to me, I plan on growing and learning.  I want for me all the things I deserve but never thought I could attain or achieve.  I am a writer, there I said it!!!!!!!   There I go again, a simple word and it took my breath away, and why are we so scared? My husband is fighting in a war that causes everyone pain, but I have hopes that it will be for the good.  My eldest son is struggling to find out who he is, and the pain I see behind his eyes breaks my heart.  My middle son is recently married and there we go again, my son has someone else to count on besides me, why does that not make me happy, instead of somewhat lonely.  My daughter is a senior in high school, another word that simply means I will be alone faster and faster.  It feels like I am loosing my whole family in one year.  All the children are growing up, and my husband is gone proudly serving in the military that is and was created to make us safe!  I know that it is a good thing to see your family grow and do the things that make them happy, proud, and fulfilled,  but it is very hard to cut the apron strings and let them JUST BE......  I need to find me in all of this. I need to Return to or maybe actually begin to be Ronni

Thanks for the place to put my words...... God Bless