"You really are the happy warrior."

Heh a fellow commented on my blog and said this...yeah, it's true.  I like that.

It's important for me to be happy and enjoy my fighting.  When I was too serious, I got so stressed out.

4300 people read my blog so far this week...wow, before this week, my max viewing was 700.

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Today I fight.  No more fun and games with the stars and the media.  I've been waiting for this chance for years.  This is possibly the biggest fight in my career.  This is a turning point. Actually, when I fought Vanessa Porto in Fatal Femme Fighting 4/08, I thought that I might impress someone enough to get an Elite XC contract, but that never happened.  So yeah, this is it.  If I win (*when I win) I will get to fight Miss Scary Cyborg.  (We won't discuss if I lose, because I am not going to).

My coach is like, "Oh you can beat Marloes" etc etc, but I don't think like that either.  She is the strongest fighter in the world.  She is mentally powerful.  She is a force, and I have to put my entire heart and body and soul into defeating her.  I like her a ton, but this is business.  This is no mercy.  MMA is stepping on the hopes and dreams of fellow fighters.  And not be sorry.


Tatsujin ni naritai.  Tadashi kizu wo miru to, shiritai.

I want to become a master of my art. (Tatsujin)
When I look at my correct scar (tadashi kizu), I want to know.

"Tadashi Kizu" is what I call the large callous on my right knuckles.  The first day of training with Kunioku-san, my knuckles got all cut up, and didn't heal for EIGHT MONTHS.  I am serious, remember me posting about them always bleeding?  It hurt SO so much.  I had to just grit my teeth and punch through bloody knuckles because I have to practice.  Finally recently, I started wrapping a different way, tighter, so it stopped rubbing, so they stopped bleeding and became a hard scabbed callous!  Sakura, my best friend and training partner, said, "Sore wa tadashi kizu da," which means, "That is the correct wound."

The correct wound.  It represents the hard work and pain that went into my year of training, training like a mad women every day I could, for a year.  (except August when I got sick and then went to Mt Fuji etc etc) Kirik, my coach, says that most pro fighters don't train super hard every day.  Really?  He said they go to the gym, but only step it up when they're preparing for a fight?  Really? I don't know if I believe it!  I guess I'd have to ask some! lol 

But "I want to know" means, I want to know if all my training paid off.  It means SO much to be to have it pay off, and I want to impress Kunioku-san.  My Japanese coach!  I want him to be proud of me.  I want him to be watching from Japan and see me do a move and think, "Hey I taught her that!" or "Hey, nice, we were working on that!"  It would KILL me if I lost due to something we had been working on.  But I don't think about the negative...positive only.  I WILL try out all the stuff we've been doing, and validate this "tadashi kizu."

I will fight well, and I will win this fight.  I WILL.

So cutting weight sucks. 

I did not cut weight.  In fact, I did the opposite- in practically every way.  I call it the "uppercut." 

Yes, I didn't go hungry...but I  got a stomach ache from eating too much.  Because according to the athletic commission's rule or something, I had to be within a 5 lb limit of my opponent, who I suspected would weigh in on target at 145.  So that means I have to be between 140 and 145.

To cut, you go sweat out water weight.
I guzzled so much water that I felt pretty sick.  And then, just as it was about to start...I had to pee.  I mean, I REALLY had to pee.  I had to pee so bad, but I was afraid that if I peed, maybe I wouldn't make weight?  LOL I don't know how much pee weighs!!! 

Well maybe if I pee a little bit...I thought.

I learned something VERY fascinating and essential for daily life hereafter....once you start peeing, it is difficult (rather, impossible) to stop.  I.e. one can not pee just  'a little bit.'  Did you know that?  I did not know that.

Damn.  Imagine that.

So there were a lot of press people, and some guy came bounding over to me from waiting in line outside to shake my hand, which made me feel all happy.  I felt all warm and fuzzy inside when people asked for my picture. ^^  I met a lot of writers for popular websites that I love to read, and who support me.  Thanks guys!!!

But I seriously felt like I was drowning.  @_@

I so sleepy...I dunno why.  I didn't work out or anything...I didn't exert myself. But I was falling asleep during Big John McCarthy's rule meeting...which is why I didn't sit down.  Big John is COOL!!!  

I wanna exercise a little but I'm so tired....OH I just got a box of my sponsorship shirts and shorts and banner! YAY THANK YOU...but lol a section said  69fight.com. 

NOOOOOoooooooooooo LOL  Dude, just no!! So Kirik is doctoring that now...

OH and Marq sent me a PS1!  It's so cute and tiny omg.  THANK YOU!! <3

tomorrow is fight day!!  I am so ready!  I am so excited...but I can't think about that now ..omg my stomach...

So yesterday we had the press conference, and it turns out we were the only undercard members there.  But I got to chat with a lot of pro fighters and get their autographs.  Gegard is really nice. XD  And KIRIK IS HERE! My beloved COACH! *superhugglomp*!!!!!!!  And I got interviewed by Frank Shamrock and people :D

Sir Mayhem is cool.  I was a fan before, but now I am a BIG fan! :D  He is also slightly insane but it's part of his charm!


Kirik, Roxy, Frank Shamrock



sir Mayhem and I



Anderson 'bigfoot' Silva and his group and I




Brett Rogers and I! He's really cool! lol when I introduced myself, he said, "You're not a fighter!" I said, "Yes I am!" and he said, "No you ain't! Here lemme see your hands!" and even the calloused knuckles didn't convince him. but then I gave him my business card and website and he was like "ooooh cool."

Dude  shook hands with Mr. Bigfoot...his hand was HUGE!  It was like FIVE TIMES the size of mine, LOL.

What a KICK A$$ day I had today.

I went to the open workout...I was not happy thinking that Marloes would get to see me work out...but she never came.  Why not?  I want her to get publicity, too!  Nobody knows about her! :(

There was this guy who I KNEW his face, and I even remembered details about his fight, but I COULD NOT remember his name.  Finally I asked and he was like "I'm Scott Smith."  You know, "Hands of Steel?"  FRICK'N COOL!!! 

So (after he signed my magazine) I got him to hold pads for me, because my coach isn't here!!!! :D THANK YOU!!



I also met my new boyfriend in the POW gym in Chicago!  We simply must do something about his skintone, though...



Oh let's not forget the wonderful drivers who drive us everywhere and also are on the UG!


 
Then I met Erin from fightergirls.com.  I love that lady.  I had SUCH a fun time chatting!  And she helped me make weight!!


Here and here!!



Then We went and found some other guys in this Chinese restaurant, and Shonie Carter was there?!?!? They had RUN INTO HIM ON THE STREET?!?!?  And we both wanted to snap pics...(after he signed my magazine XD)  haha he's a paparazzi, like me! 



And he let me try on his hat!!!


and I chatted with the Brazilians Favricio Verdum and his trainer Philipe? (?) in the car. lol Funny guys. Damn I used to be good at Portuguese and Spanish. Now I can't speak it for crap...but omg today was great. I also bought Spyro and Tomb Raider for PS2. Gonna go play now :D

Wow, so far 1221 hits on my blog this week, and it's only Wednesday. lol

My coach Kirik comes on Thursday, so I'm all alone. ;_;

I want to get back to gamestop, see what other games I can get besides Twisted Metal Black, and Dragon Ball Z Tenkaichi.  I think I'll ask the shuttle guy.



Today is the "open public" work out.  But my coach isn't here...who am I going to work out with?  My imaginary friend! :D I don't want my opponent to see me work out.   ^^;;

Everyone is telling me to "eat more, gain more weight!" I only had a kamaboko (fish stick) and Nutrigrain bar last night cuz I wasn't hungry, and this morning I stepped on the scale and I was half a lb lighter. I was like "Oh yay....wait F*CK!"  I should go eat a donut...this is so bizarre. ^^;;

I can't wait to fight, I can't wait to fight, I can't wait to fight.

I ran stairs last night.  Which is hard when you're on the 3rd floor. LOL and I lifted this morning, and did calesthetics, etc. 

LOL So yesterday I had some time and I walked over to the shopping mall.
A wonderful generous friend is going to send me a PS1, I think?  But I couldn't help myself and I bought a used PS2 at gamestop.  It's okay to have two, now my memory card for PS1 will still work if I get a PS1, too.  Which is the most important part.  I also got sneakers.  Actually, when I opened the box when I got back to my hotel room, I opened it and found that the guy had forgotten to put the actual PLAYSTATION in there. So I had to ask the nice guy who was driving me around to my doc's apt. to take me back.  He was really nice... :)  I enjoyed chatting with him.

So I bought the PS2, an extra game controller, Twisted Metal Black, Dragon Ball Z Tenkaiichi, and a used memory card, all for $125 bucks!!! ;D  I was playing last night and this morning and OMFG it's so much fun. XD 

The first level of black is really hard- there's not many places to hide, and I gotta get used to the controllers again.  I like how your life goes down if you hit something.  It makes it somewhat realistic and forces you to be careful and not just go crashing into walls. 

As for Tenkaichi, O.M.G.  The graphics are COOL and the variety of movement?!? I came from the PS1 The Final Bout, but this has so many more dimentions and things you can do!  You can dash, and avoid at close range, and do finishes and various levels of blocking and combos. It's the speed moves, and the disappearing tricks that I love the most- they really are like the TV series.

Now, you have to remember that Power Rangers inspired me to start Tae Kwon Do, but it was through Dragon Ball Z that I got my inspiration to actually FIGHT and it remained something that I watched and loved as I trained for my fights.  lol They just kick so much @$$ it's unbelievable.  They are so frigging cool.

So I met Marloes yesterday and I got her autograph.  She was like, "I can't believe we're gonna fight and you're asking me to sign your magazine!"

Then I saw Fedor in Sports Authority with his Russian Posse (scary guys with long beards! XD) and introduced myself and shook his hand and got his autograph!  Then we ran into each other again at the doctor's and he kind of winked at me as I was leaving. XD XD I was gonna ask him "How do I REALLY pronounce your name?" but I was nervous and forgot. ^^;;; I must have seemed like SUCH a fan girl...


I am so so so so pumped to be here.  I'm not even nervous or thinking about the fight, because when I think about fighting, I get so excited I just wanna jump out of my skin or puke or something.  ^^;; So I'm actually trying to think of other things...

try not to turn into a tubby from all the good food I miss out on all the time.
omg there are donuts over there in the lobby...RESIST!!

I am super jet-lagged and super bored.  I tried to tire myself out last night and then go to bed, but I slept from 10 to 2 AM. @_@  Then exercised a bit, read my book, ate ANIMAL CRACKERS, wooooo...checked my email etc....

at 6:30 the restaurant opened so I had an omelette and French toast, but it was COOL.  The cook mixed in cornflakes in the egg, so the french toast was crispy! :D  SO GOOD omg but I really want some vegetables. I always have a big portion in the morning, so I miss them....

Today I get my medical check.

DUDE DUDE I SAW FEDOR having dinner in the hotel restaurant. :D I want his autograph! but obviously I'm not gonna inturrupt him.

and the lady who is taking care of me said that a ton of famous fighters are coming! I have my picture magazine, so I'm gonna see how many signatures I can collect. XD I really wanna meet Mayhem!

I'm bored! @_@

oh I finished my book, Forest King, by Paul Thompson (A Dragon Lance book) and now I'm starting on the Elven Exiles series by him and Tonya C. Cook.

maybe I'll go exercise some more...lol I'm trying so hard to diet, and everyone's like "EAT MORE! Have some cake! :D Want food?"  cuz I'm fighting at 145.  It's okay, I'll win anyway!  I AM ROXY HEAR ME RAAAARRRRR!!!

I am totally fighting in Strikeforce Nov 7th.
They have totally not announced it yet...
But I am totally leaving tomorrow...
I totally just ate a big taiyaki (fish-shaped pancake with sweet bean jam inside)
and I am totally going to meet my manager now.
I am totally going to beat Marloes Coenen again. (I love you, Marloes, sorry, but I must)


/end emphatic dizzy moment.


Yay! I am so excited to be going.