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[06 Jan 2010 | Wednesday] 9:27 AM

Current mood:  busy
Category: Life
on NY I was up at 4am... made coffeee, had a Bud for the 5am New York NY, and danced to CDs thru til the CA NY at 8am...

i then did my day as my buds n man slept....

new life ... strange life. still unused to it. lotsa snow, fixing stuff for dad, shopping for dad, etc...

shopping = food... hmm

SAT: coffee
blueberries n cranberries
basmati, b-sprouts, carrot, sweet potato and pumpkin curry
wine
SUN: mocha
fried ginger-cranberry bread
(yes i can fry here - it doesnt set off dads smoke alarm!!)
satay veg n spaghetti
wine
MON:
coffee
hot choc
wine
leek n leftover fritter with roast pumpkin
TUES:
coffee
hot choc
wine
mushroom n chili'd spaghetti
WED: coff
bluebs n dates
sweet pot n pumpkin based onion n mushroom n capsicum bake
a vit b
THURS:
coff
#hot choc
veg curry n basmati
XMAS DAY:
coff
2 x bud
wine
bombay mix
cheese n blueberries


[30 Dec 2009 | Wednesday] 9:49 AM

Current mood:  aggravated
Category: Life
I had not encountered snow since my trip to Chicago in 2000 until relocating to England this December....

Snow is more fun when you have friends around to aim a snowball at - but not too bad for walking - at my age. alas, my dad thinks otherwise - at 86, he could not go out to buy a wreath for mom's grave - so sent me. luckily i found both a wreath and the grave... and enjoyed the snow. ice... well it follows snow, and i managed to crunch-stomp my way about still - whilst road warnings and people staying home happened all round me. once again - im still young enough to handle it... so far.

i turned out the family larder - and found no end of suacepans. i shall have to learn how to steam stuff - as there is a huge 4-piece steamer package awaiting me!!

my son is in financial difficulty - not only did welfare not give him the higher pay or medium rate pay - but they will not give him rental assiatance - despite his paying 230 pw... His airplane/passport savings are therefore rapidly declining as he tries to stay in a home - hopes to find a temp job to pay the rent from and get on out of there and follow me over to GB asap.... (if i can claim a minor ammount from welfare here, i can send it to him to help him out - otherwise he's in a pickle.)

my father spent most of christmas vomitting. he also fell on the floor on boxing day - but is feeling much better now.

sugar is in everything christmassy, so i am glad i dont really bother to celebrate - i am sensible with christmas foods - but my dad is not. he likes taste more than nutrition... and has been pigging cookies and pies and all sorts.
[19 Dec 2009 | Saturday] 10:53 AM

Current mood:  cold
Category: Food and Restaurants
SUN:
peanuts
coffee
fruit n nut mix
pea and corn risoni
roast garden spudz

MON:
coffe
indian flavor veg and basmati
multiviatmin
vegetarian  wrap

TUES:
coffee
roast potatoes
multivitamin
vegan wrap

WED:
coffee
paracetamol
rice peas chili garlice
a few cranberries
multivitamin

THURS:coffee
tinned mango
cranberries
potato chili onion prss and corn mash
peanuts

FRI:
coffee
roast spudz
black olives
2 multivitamins
jahe wangi

SAT:
coffee
multivitamin
indian fried onion corn peas
indian bread
tamarind rice

SUN:
coffee
dried fruits
multivitamin
AIRPLANE FOOD:
orange juice and peanuts
smoked salmon salad
chicken rice and sauce
cheese
roll n butter
coffee
an icecream stick/come thingy
red wine
oriental shrimp salad
chunk of beef with veg n potato
cheese
roll n butter
red wine
coffee
vegetarian sandwich
ferero rocher chocs
fruit salad - mini
pork noodles
coffee

TUES:
2 chili flavor crackers and a glass of red wine

WED:
coffee
lentils n veg with chili n garlic

THURS: coffee
blueberries n grapes
a vitamin b
mushroom and peas chili n spaghetti

FRI:
coffee
aspirin
hot choc
cranberries
curry n basmati
wine

SAT:
coffee
organic dates
homemade garlic bread n cheese
wine

SUN:
coffee
wine
berry n coconut rice
vitamin b

MON:
coffee
dates
mashed curried veg
wine

TUES:
coffee
curied veg fritter with coriander
capsicum garlic n mushroom spagehtti
wine

WED:
coffee
1 cheese straw
hot choc
curried veg n basmati
wine

THURS:
coffee
wine
ginger n cranberry oatmeal
vege fritter n coriander
vitamin b


FRI:
coffee
hot choc
organic dates
coriander cress, chili'd adzuki beans, fried garlic bread

FINAL CROPS:
29 potatoes
a just joey rose
a blue moon rose
coriander

MUSIC: madelia, b willing,, b n b spooner, blair hansen, cis, fmmarc, instar, jeni luv, da acure, joshua armstrong, king loses crown,. maldroid, the mall, the vanishing, never felt better, nowhere radio, p-boys, pep love, pmk, sunspot jonz, madelia, vvv, astral.
[16 Dec 2009 | Wednesday] 10:10 AM

Current mood:  confused
Category: Life
Well, I have arrived back in my birthland and birthtown and birthhome.... in England. A lot has changed, but much is the same. one of the first things to hit me was the abundance of historical housing - it feels as if i am living in a museum. this is doubled by the fact that my room is crammed full of closets and boxes full of junk - mostly my dad's old rubbish. (I am living in a store room!!) it was a bit like a janitor's closet when i first openeed the door - as an old mop and long handled duster were also in there.... sigh.

i have finally cleared enough space to walk up either side of the tiny little single mattress perched upon a smaller mattress and then upon the bed that i personally made from scratch.... (yes, in my teens i had carpentry in my heart and made a 5 legged bed for myself) i have also cleared the smelly disty dirty pillows from my old pink foot-pouffe so have a place to sit.... alas, no room for yoga yet - that has to happen in the lounger room!

the second thing to hit me was the cold weather... these past two days my nose has been drippy n numb!!

a third factor is the population. where i was before it was mixed age group, ethnicity, etc... here it is mainly over 50s - my dad's age group.....

oh well - i am feeling fit, energetic, bouncy, healthy, and well - but will need to buy gum boots and slippers soon before i catch a cold! they sell Bud beer here - in tiny little 300ml bottles imnstead of 375s...and it is made in london???? oh well, hopefully it has the same taste! i also bought a huge bag of bombay mix for christmas - as i dont DO turkey roasts etca.... or my dads nut roast, even.  this arvo, my dad - and i - have an invite to a christmas party - for the local old peeps group...ho hum....

hoping to have ma computer at home within the next 2-3 months - currently using library net.....
[04 Dec 2009 | Friday] 7:09 PM

Current mood:  busy
Category: Life
I hope to return to the WWW and blogging once more, as soon as I:
* arrive in England
* buy a computer
* find a net service that I can pay for (ie by paypal, someone else's bank direct debit, or get my own bank account & DD)
* sort out my new routine/lifestyle

Until then - please follow me at http://www.twitter.com/sandeye - where I will endeavor to post updates whenever I can access the net - be it at a net café, library, or, eventually, from my next  home!

well, i will be there for real again on Tuesday morning, lol!



Your Fashion City is London



You are casual, funky, and even a little cheeky. You don't take fashion very seriously.

You look is very urban and possibly even a little punk. You wouldn't be caught dead in a suit... or even a polo shirt.



You are interested in trends and fashion movements. You are willing to take big fashion risks just for the fun of it.

You shop everywhere, and you're definitely not hung up on labels. If something looks good, you'll buy it - especially if it's on sale!


       

QUICK FACTS:
* I have lived at my current home for longer than I have been a Madelia fan!
* The pigeons happened here.
* I became a writer here.
* I have lived here for longer than any other home apart from my childhood family home - t which I am returning in 3 days!
* it feels very weird for the mother to leave the teen and return to live with their own father - rather than for the teen to leave home, but... since when have I been anything but different?
* I bought too many beans, not enough beer, too much water and too little fruit... but never mind!
* I planted so many potatoes in prep. 4 christmas, that i am currently cooking n eating potatoes, potatoes, potatoes, and more potatoes.... to get thru them al b4 i depart!



[29 Nov 2009 | Sunday] 3:12 PM

Current mood:  nostalgic
Category: Food and Restaurants
TUES:
Coff
Vegie rice-sheet lasagna (no cheese)
A pair of pears
Risoni salsa and stuffed olives

WED:
Coff
Sliced cucumber with fried onion n pumpkin
Dried fruit, nuts, and ginger

THURS:
Coff
Indian flavor bean and cucumber risoni
A pear
Satay noodles

FRI:
Coff
Ccs
Satay noodles
Grain n sea salt crackers

SAT:
Coff
Pear
Vit
Kid-beans and brusels sprouts with onion'd mashed potato
Indian pan-bread

SUN:
Coff
Pear
Basmati with eggplant n green beans
Pepper n lime corn-rice chips
A chocie bar (oops)
Chappati n hummus

MON:
Coff
2 multitvits
F n n mix
Khatta meetha
Indian risoni

TUES:
Coff
Basmati chili tomato olives
Risoni chili tomato olives
Aloe vera n lychee drink

WED:
Coff
Cheeseless olive n onion za
A multi vit
A strawberry
p-nuts

THURS:
Coff
Risoni with olive onion corn n peas
A boost bar (hey - tis t-giving…)
Dried cranberries
Cheesey garlic bread (hey - tis t-giving…)

FRI:
Coff
Frozen mixed berries n coconut cream
Chili n broccoli noodles
Cheesed garlic bread

SAT:
coff
coconut rice
multivitamin
chese chili mushroom n garlic foldover-za




You Are a Two Dollar Bill



You are a very quirky character. In fact, you're so weird that you've got some people doubting your authenticity.

You may not have a lot of money, but you certainly make up for it with creativity and downright wackiness.



You are very resourceful. You're the type of person who is able to barter their way up from a penny to a million dollars.

You don't need money as long as you've got your wits. For people like you, money is practically irrelevant.




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[27 Nov 2009 | Friday] 6:33 PM

Current mood:  calm
Category: Life
........
On Tuesday, I rose from a dream about Joshua Armstrong performing in the mall & charity brochures on the ground, to hit the net - wondering if my son COULD get the 480 rather than the 360 payment, enabling me to shift-butt to pom in early Dec rather than wait til mid Jan….

I discovered that he SHOULD be entitled to 483... spoke with my son, and trotted down to withdraw some cash from the ATM. My son went online, did some laundry and then we had a discussion. Meanwhile, my son discovered in his emails that he had got a PT volunteer job…

I cooked dinner at 9am, knowing what the day ahead would be like… My son jogged off down to welfare after doing his laundry - and discovered that YES he can get the 483 - AND possibly circa 570... He comes home and hands me a form to fill out to enable him to apply for the bigger payment…

He then rings his new job and arranges to start tomorrow, rings the trailer park to organize to view & pay a deposit on his potential new accommodation the day after, and I then shoot down to the travel agent and book my flight for DECEMBER 6/7. (US/AU)

I then hop down to welfare to tell them my departure date and then go on to a crappy appy, whilst he attends his own crappy appy. I then hop down welfare with my son to hand in his app.  forms, including the one he got signed at the crappy appy and I came home to fill out a tenancy termination form, which I faxed (to ensure they know 21 days in advance) then mailed them the proper copy…

By 6pm, I was free to wait in case the owner came to fix the bathroom door handle/sign my son's passport app., tidy up my PC files, fix up some blogs to post on Wednesday, and have intermittent continual mini-conversations with my son about our futures. I finally got to bed for some much-needed cuddles & zzz….




You Are Thanksgiving



You don't need a lot to make you feel happy during the holidays. You already feel very blessed.

It is easy for you to be thankful. You think the holidays are the perfect time to express your gratitude.



You are definitely not a materialistic person. If anything, you feel like the holiday season has been infected with greed.

An indulgent meal in a warm home surrounded by those close to you is more than enough. Anything extra is just whipped cream on your pumpkin pie.



[25 Nov 2009 | Wednesday] 2:07 PM

Current mood:  sick
Category: Quiz/Survey



You Think That Sophistication is Glamourous



You think that no one is born glamourous. Glamour is something that must be cultivated.

You respect people who are worldly and cosmopolitan. Even if people is not well traveled, they can at least to their best not to be provincial.



You are attracted to people who have a broad perspective on life and aren't judgmental in the least.

You'd like to consider yourself one of these urbane people, though you can't help but judge those who are narrow minded.


   
WRONG! I simply like wisps of hair dangling down!

2645. If not, what is missing?
Pardon…?
2646. Star Wars, Star Trek or Star Gate?
Star wars
2647. How many phallic symbols can you see?
none
2648. Do you believe that people who were oppressed in the past should receive money from those countries that oppressed them in order to make up for their previous enslavement?
Money is not really relevant - something else is called for!
2649. Would you but tickets to see the top ten American idols sing live?
No, not that I have ever butted tickets, lol, but I have zero interest in commercial wannabes - GIMME  THE REAL UNDERGROUND INDIE ALTS!
2650. What are you doing this weekend?
I will either be studying & practicing Buddhism and gardening - or taking a long hike - or online - or house hunting for my son.
2651. Who is your favorite psychedelic musical artist?
Not sure I have a fav in each genre/category - only overall…
2652. Can you control your emotions?
Yes, I have learned to silence them - in this way, I can hear the emotions of others far more clearly. It is very helpful, because when your own are muddled up with other peeps, you don't really know who's feeling what half the time and never really can tell if you are feeling anything at all.
2653.Word association.
twilight: zzzzzzz
garden: grass
warm: cocktails
stars: bill spooner
crash: computer
mold: bathroom tiles
gold: sunshine
green: bill spooner (again!)
lush: rush
2654. Do you agree with the people who say that everyone is bi-sexual even if they don't want to admit it?
No, but I DO think that more people could be if they chose to allow such tendencies to emerge naturally rather than hid them away in fear or disgust. I mean, male or female, love is love… It is only when love becomes in-love or romance or partnership that society frowns on certain combinations…
2655. Does art reflect society or does society reflect art?
No. society sucketh major league and some art is pretty good stuff!
2656. Are you very critical of others?
More of society and situations than beings trapped in them
2657. Are you very critical of yourself?
I can be…
2658. How do you feel about Einstein?
Um… I dont FEEL anything as I did not meet the dude. He was some science-math dude that recognized Buddhism as having merit, right…?



[24 Nov 2009 | Tuesday] 2:56 PM

Current mood:  busy
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
........
* Expecting to wait 6-9 weeks to relocate overseas, my passport came a week earlier than expected - kick starting my attempt to fly over in 12 days time...

Everything was going fine - the flights were available at an affordable cost and my son had made enquiries about moving to a trailer park for a couple months, til he could follow me over… but - then welfare changed his potential assistance figure from 480 to 360, trapping my son into not even being able to afford trailer park accommo!

Hence, I cannot fly over in 12 days after all - but '2 weeks max' prior to my son - whenever HIS documents are done. In the meantime, my father runs out of shopping assistance at xmas…

However, I checked online this morning and find that he SHOULD be entitled to the higher figure - so maybe I will be flying outer here in 12 days time...

* I am going OK re the 'sorting/packing/cleaning/turning out'. I am JUST going to be able to cram my essentials into 2 cases (winter clothes, tees, 20 books, 25 CDs, hair brush, neti pot, Tibetan Buddha, few posters/photos/notebooks, and my toothbrush). Hopefully we can get some $'s/lose some stuff at a garage sale, and the weather will stop raining/heat waving long enough for me to get the yard up straight. I am about halfway thru the turning out, so if I do have to remain here til mid January, at least the trash can will be emptied a few extra times!

I am viewing it as having 4-5 times more possessions than a nun would. I am also helped by thinking that half the contents of the house mean nothing to anybody except 'me' - and I am not going to be living in this body for long enough to make it worth dragging them half way round the world to be with me til I carc it, so I might as well trash most of my stuff already... This kinda helps a bit...

* One does not really need a severe case of toothache at such a chaotic time, does one….????
[23 Nov 2009 | Monday] 3:00 PM

Current mood:  busy
Category: Quiz/Survey

You Are a Low Key Wedding
Love makes you feel calm and at peace. Simply being around those you care for brings out the best in you.
To be unloved would make you feel like there was something missing in your life. You'd survive it, but you would have a lonely existence.

For you, romantic love is steady and undying. You've gotten to the point in your life where commitment matters a lot to you.
When you love someone, you are prepared to be there for that person... for better or worse. Whether you're married or not, you're completely true.


You Would Be a Down to Earth Celebrity
You aren't easily impressed or star struck, and if you were to become famous, it wouldn't change your own opinion about yourself.
You'd still treat everyone as you always have, and more importantly, you wouldn't expect to be treated any differently.

You'd be friendly to your fans and as accessible as possible. After all, they're the ones who make you famous.
You'd be a celebrity in the mold of Kate Winslet, Renee Zellweger, John Mayer, and Ashton Kutcher.


You Should Take Some Deep Breaths
Part of what's stressing you out right now is that there's too much going on at once. You hardly have room to breathe.
And to be honest, the idea of taking on a little project to de-stress yourself is even stressful.

So don't worry about doing much. Just take a few deep breaths. In fact, try it right now.
Doesn't that feel good? Repeat this as often as you need to. This is the first step to clearing your head and feeling better.


2630. Would you rather take an hour lunch break or skip lunch and get out of work or school early?
n/a I work at home freelance - I do what I want when I want meals/break wise. Tho I have only eaten lunch since going 95% vegan.
2631. Are you more subtle or blunt?
Blunt - with a hug
2632. Can you construct a bong out of household objects?
I have never tried - I made a DIY neti pot out of a cake icing set before could afford one tho, so I guess I could manage if I wanted to.
2633. Does superman wear kryptonite condoms?
I don’t DO kids mind-pollution
2634. Would you like to read an entire novel written in stream of consciousness form?
Huh? Do you mean like the spiritual chapters of my autobio? If so, my next book will be that way - but its real not fiction!
2635. Name something that is endless:
Universal existence
2636. How long do you think it would take you to jog a mile?
Depends on the time of day and what I was wearing
2637.Do you think that most people have the qualities you look for in friend?
Um… friend - maybe, close friend - not many peeps.
2638. Picture a triangle:
Why?
Quick! What color is it?
It isn't colored
2639. Picture a square. groan
Quick! What color is it?
It isn't colored
2640. Picture a circle. yawns
Quick! What color is it?
It isn't colored
2641. Why do you think you pictured these shapes as these colors?
I didn’t picture them colored…
2642. Is there such a thing as good stress?
no
2643. Do cell phones really interfere with a plane's navigation equipment?
YES, and much, MUCH more! Those blasted pieces of plastic crap are probably what is responsible for the extra storms/winds we have these past few years & the f'ed up seasons… and goodness knows what it does to the wildlife near the towers!!
2644. Do you have everything you need to be happy?
When I am permitted to curl up in his bedroom and read dharma books, I do!
[19 Nov 2009 | Thursday] 3:10 PM

Current mood:  blissful
Category: Life
........
*I cleared the tale end of the brain-washing course.

NO MORE COMPULSORY CLASSES - YEHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
NOW, I can study what I WANT to again - BUDDHISM!

* I wonder if I will have enough weeks living here left to be able to fill up our trash can with all our crap - and treasures - that we cannot carry - ?

Each week, I fill it brim full of ripped papers, unfittable photos, memories I need to drop because I am the only one they mean anything to - so I do not need to carry them with me in paper/item format, etc - and rubbish the government wants me to have that I am glad to be rid of. And each week, I still have more to turn out…

* I need to take a few days out from life. I have had those compulsory brainwashing classes, 3-4.5 day work weeks, and passport/applications/organization stresses, PLUS a hassle with our neighbor that is driving me near-loopy.

I simply need to lie on the bed and boot my think-mind out of my head and just lay there 'doing NOTHING but existing' for a few hours… sinking into deeper places... (without my neighbor attacking the pigeons, my son freaking about an application procedure, a letter telling me I have to attend an appointment, an email telling me I have some more work, or life throwing another difficulty in my path.) 

I would schedule a beautiful, at-home in-bed retreat, but… I have to attend an appt, pack, organize, sort out my son's 2 passports/alternative accommo, prepare timetables, do accounts - & save my pigeons!

(Luckily I was able to go to bed at 5pm yesterday and sink into a few hours recuperative beditation!)



[18 Nov 2009 | Wednesday] 4:29 PM

Current mood:  amorous
Category: Food and Restaurants
........
TUES:
Coffee
Fruit n nut mix
Asian greens & garlic bread
2 multivitamins
A bananananaa
Rice cakes & French onion dip

WED:
Coffee
Asian greens n beans
F n N mix
Corn thins
Chang

THURS:
Coffee
Chang
Greens n garlic bread with baked beans
A bananananananananaa

FRI:
Coff'
Chang
Coconut rice
Chili-baked beans
Rice cakes
Chili n cheese risoni

SAT:
Coff
FnN mix
Roast pumpkin and poato jewels with cucumber/onion

SUN:
Coff
Potato jewels
1 x multivitamin
A pair of pears
Chili n garlic bread

MON:
Coff
Paracetamol
Indian vegetables n basmati
FnNmix
Stuffed olives

MUSIC: LYP, VVV, Astral, Maldroid, Atlantic Line, Astral, VVV, P Boys, Madelia, P Boys, Indic Mist.
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